I really should be in bed right now…but I can't go to sleep knowing there is work to be done. Since it's only a few days before Christmas, I thought now would be the perfect time to work on my dedication fic for my Onii-san penguin070594. You hear me Nii-san this is for you!

Disclaimer: I do not own Junjou Romantica

Claimer: I do partially own Pen Adachi, Izanami, and Toru

WARNING: Yaoi, smut, and OCs

Rated M: For sexual themes, language, and substance abuse

Chapter One: Pretensions Little Bastard

A quick flick of a lighter and the end of the cigarette glowed bright red at the tip. Sticking the health hazard into his mouth, the young novelist peered up at the rising cloud of smoke above his head. Around him were the countless volumes of the best-selling BL novels. He had based the characters off of himself and his lover, and built the content off dreams and fantasies. It was a perfect way to mask the inner horrors of a relationship gone totally wrong.

Flashback

"It's over." The emerald orbed uke stated packing a trunk full of his things.

"What the hell are you talking about?" The novelist demanded as he reached for his lover's hand.

"I can't keep lying to myself anymore, Usagi." Misaki'barked glaring at the violet eyed seme.

"I don't understand…what are you saying, Misaki?" Akihiko, affectionately called Usagi, stuttered dropping the boy's wrist.

"I'm saying that I'm leaving you." He replied bluntly as he turned back to the folded clothing on the bedspread.

"What the fuck has gotten into you, Misaki? Did I do something to piss you off?" Akihiko cried slamming his fist hard against the doorframe.

"I've just come to realize that I need something, rather someone, else in my life." Misaki whispered closing up the large brown travel bag. "Someone who isn't a man."

"Because I'm a man!" fumed Akihiko as bitter tears formed in his eyes. "That's what this is about?"

"I tried to tell you before but…" explained Misaki trailing off.

"But what?" hissed Akihiko cynically. "Did you feel sorry for me? Is that why you've stayed with me for so long?"

"I couldn't very well leave you alone could I?" asked Misaki walking out of the bedroom.

"But you could lie to me for two and a half years!" shouted Akihiko following after him.

"It was a mistake!" growled Misaki as he finally reached the room's exit.

"If you walk out that door, I never want to see your fucking face again." swore Akihiko as his lover yanked open the wooden barrier.

"Goodbye, Usagi." murmured the chestnut colored hair college student.

"GOOD RIDDANCE!" boomed the silver haired bachelor as he stumbled into the kitchen towards the liquor cabinet.

Pouring himself a shot…he drank himself to sleep that night…something he hadn't done…since the day of Takahiro's engagement.

End of Flashback

Picking up one of the novels cast aside on the floor, Akihiko flipped open to the first page. Reading only a line of its contents, he slammed it shut in a rage before chucking it against the wall. Rising up from his seat on the couch, the thirty year old staggered aimlessly into the kitchen pulling out a shot glass from the cupboard bellow the sink. Filling the little cylinder to the brim with sake, he downed a shot quickly before repeating the numbing act five or six more times. Light-headed, he manages to make it back into the living room before collapsing on the floor face first in a pile of the endless novels. So much for sobriety…

*~*~*~*~*

"Adachi-kun, over here!" A girl with bright red hair and mocha colored eyes called into a sea of people.

"Izanami-chan, is that you?" squinted a tall college student with light brown hair and hazel eyes.

"Yeah, come and eat lunch with Kimura-san and I." smiled the redhead as she motioned the freshman towards their table.

"Kay!" called the brunette as he transported himself and his tray over to where his friends were sitting.

"Pen-kun, you need to eat more." scolded a muscular male with jet black hair and piercing green eyes.

"I eat all the time!" exclaimed the toned freshman plopping a piece of meat into his mouth. "Just because I'm not a muscle head like you, Toru, doesn't mean I don't eat."

"Alls I'm saying is I like men with a little meat on their bones." grinned the emerald orbed cutie as he pinched Pen's behind.

"Kimura-san!" wailed the redhead pulling on Pen's arm. "Leave Adachi-kun alone."

"Izanami-chan, you're hurting me." Pen replied cringing slightly.

"Sumimasen." exclaimed Izanami blushing light pink as she released his arm. "Are you alright?"

"Told ya you need to eat more." chuckled Toru as he ruffled Pen's hair.

"Shut it." Pen glared turning back to Izanami. "I'm fine."

"You sure?" Izanami questioned eyes filling to the brim with tears of guilt.

"Yeah, positive." smiled the brunette showing her no evidence of bruising on his arm. "I'm a tough guy I can handle anything."

"Anything?" Toru pursued a glint of cockiness appearing in his eye.

"Anything." Pen smirked giving off his trademark grin.

"Then come to the fraternity party this Saturday." offered Toru as he got up to clear his tray. "Unless you're chicken."

"No way I'm chicken!" cried Pen following after Toru who was followed by Izanami.

"Great." Toru whispered biting Pen's ear playfully. "It'll be fun having a new toy to play with."

Watching Toru walk off, Pen and Izanami just starred at each other wondering if all juniors were as cocky as Kimura-san.

Ooo fraternity party…what trouble will be cooking up at Mitsuhashi University? And how is Usagi tied into all of this? All will be revealed in chapter two. Please review!!