If there is one question I have asked myself countless times, it is this: "Am I normal?" Not normal as in fitting in with others, or watching the same T.V. Shows, but normal as in, "Do I have powers beyond the normal teenager?"
I would be normal, if it weren't for a certain spatial anomaly named Haruhi Suzumiya. She may have the ability to realize all her hopes and dreams and wants and desires with a single thought, but the one pulling the strings has been me from the second I met her. Haruhi can end the world, but only I can convince her not to. In fact, not only was I the one who could, I was the one who did. No, Haruhi Suzumiya is not the one in control. It's me, and I fear that more than anything else.
"What's your name?"
"John Smith."
Two words. Two syllables, even. That's all it would take to push Haruhi over the edge, especially because she already suspects.
"Have I seen you somewhere before?"
Frightening, no? If Haruhi had but matched up a name and a face, the world could have destroyed itself before I ever even met the girl in this current iteration of Kyon. Still, even if Haruhi failed to complete the equation, I know of a certain place in our school...
"You know, I really like you in a ponytail."
Of course, if it comes to doing that, I might as well just give up anyhow. Even if it was somewhat enjoyable, I don't want to be stuck with Haruhi forever, without a chance of seeing this world again. Though, she really did look good in that ponytail, and-
Sorry, a bit off topic.
Koizumi refers to Haruhi as God. But if I control God's actions, what does that make me? Am I just as much God as she? What if the one who has been the potential for auto-evolution, the origin of a time quake, has been a god, is... me?
Nah, I'm just overthinking the situation.
Probably best to just ignore it for now.
Just a thought I had, and decided to make into my first story. I would greatly appreciate reviews so I can get better though. Thanks in advance.