Nightmares and Dreams of Love

By: Lazi n Lonely Rei

Disclaimer: I do not own Card Captor Sakura, that belongs to CLAMP. I do however own this story.

Author's Notes: This is my very first CCS fanfic so I hope you all enjoy it. I've written fanfic and stories for a long time now so I just hope my writing gets better. Anyways review!

To clear a few things, when its like "This" it means it was said in a past life, or someone from his past.

Everything else is standard.

FULL SUMMARY

He lived for a 1000 years, each life time he was born again into the same body, same family name, and with the same memories. It was a curse. It was a punishment for what he had done to the woman he loved. And within his 1000 years of life, he looked for her time and time again to get a chance to explain and to get her to fall in love with him again. The Great Angel, Sakura, has been reborn in his last lifetime before his punishment is up. She does not remember him, however, and he only has this life to make her fall in love with him again. Before he is sent to hell…

I did something horrible when I first lived. I fell in love with an angel, an angel who came from a different world and a beautiful angel. It was against logic and reality to even be with an angel, but because she was a different type of an angel, it was allowed. She was half human and half angel. A powerful being because her human mother was a powerful witch and her father was the Guardian of the Gates. She had a human body, she would live forever in her form and she was happy.

I was born mortal with great powers. My family, the Li Clan, was very powerful. We ruled China and a lot of trading routes. We were very skilled in magic, both men and women, and we were very smart. Though the women were smart, they could not fight. It was against Chinese traditions. My mother changed all that when she, herself, took hold of the title of the head of the clan and became the first women to learn both magic and martial arts.

When she had me, it was decided by everyone including my mother I was going to be the strongest and the head of the clan. Already when I was born, I was put with a lot of pressure.

The pressure was gone when I met Sakura.

I was in heaven every time I was near her.

I was in heaven when I fell in love with her.

And I entered hell when I betrayed her.

For what I did I was given a punishment of living for 1000 years. Each time I was born, I was born into the same family, given the head title, given the same name and at the age of seven, I would remember everything of my past life. Each life I was put into, I spent nearly most of my time looking for the woman I had betrayed and fallen in love with.

For what I did to her, she was put to death to be given birth at a random time. This time simply as a witch. For what I did to her, she was given the ultimate punishment, to lose half of what her life was suppose to be, to lose her destiny and to never have a destiny.

It was hell back and front compared to mines.

And I would spend my life looking for her, hoping to find her to make her fall in love with me again, because when she was to be born again, she would've lost everything from her past life but her name.

I spent many of my life getting a job, devouring other women in pleasures to stop thinking of her, but when I woke up, I always returned to my search of my angel.

I had only waited, died and reborn, to the end of my punishment. It was my last life before I was given my Judging. To be entered to Hell or The Gates.

And Hell would be nothing compared to never having been able to find my angel.

But I found her. I found her at last.

It was not longer the times of magic. She wasn't going to be born as a witch but a mere human. Given no destiny and spending her life utterly lost about who she was and how to live her life. She would have no dreams and no hope. She would be given nothing but to live and than to die.

It was the 21st century, and I had already been born in that century before to really be alienated to the new things.

I was once again in college. I went to the best college in China who had a lot of transfers of Japanese people. Most of them were girls and I would once in a while sleep with them.

But I never fell in love because I always heard her in my dreams say, "I love you." Every time I touched a woman lovingly, or even close to it, I heard her say, "Please just hold me." It killed me.

It was like I had betrayed her all over again.

This was how everything happened….

Author's Notes: Well I'm going to give you a head's up. This story is about the first part of the story. When both Sakura and Syaoran were both alive. When Sakura was still half angel and half human. When this story is done, I'm going to put a sequel up of the 1000 years of Syaoran and how he meets Sakura again.

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