She had been so stupid to even consider taking the pregnancy test, it had only turned out negative. But, that was in the past, after dealing with yet another horrific case. Not only that, she was in charge of the squad. She was the one who made the decisions now. Something had struck a nerve, something so deep she could not function normally.
It had happened all too fast, finding the baby had changed everything. Liv had not intended to fall in love with the baby. He was not hers to keep, yet a part of her craved to keep him to herself. She had relunctantly handed him over to the child services lady, feeling sick inside as she took the child away.
But, now things were different. The baby still had no one to love and care for him, that it made Liv question humanity. The baby still had no name, no mother, he was destined to become a child of the state. She sat back, the sound of a tick tock filling her head. And, plain sadness for the baby boy who would not experience the normal life he deserved.
Her heart called out to him, to save him from his fate. But, things were so much more complicated than that. She had Brian to think about, and she could not afford to make any rash decisions. Her mouth opened to say something before she could stop herself, losing any self control she had.
"Isn't there something else that can be done?"
"Well, yes. Baby Boy Doe will be in our custody until he is hopefully adopted."
She bit her lip, as one thing entered her mind.. She wanted that baby. She knew it was irrational of her, and Brian would probably think it wasn't a good idea. The pregnancy test had opened her eyes, to what she really wanted. Something she was missing out on, despite how many times she told herself she did not need a family to be happy. And, she was older, adoption was the logical choice. She was not thinking clearly, the pregnancy test had changed things for her.
"How long would the adoption progress take?"
"Are you implying you want this child, Seargeant Benson?"
"I've reached the point in my life where the likelihood of getting pregnant is slim, and its considerably high risk... I feel drawn to the child. Well, more like attached. He was so cute and sweet.. I want him to have a normal life with a lot of love."
"There would be paperwork that needs to be filled out, and social workers that will need to confirm that you would be a suitable parent."
"I'm not quite decided yet, I need to talk to my Boyfriend."