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CHAPTER ONE

CPOV

I was all ready for my lunch meeting with the leader of SIP. Damn that Elena Lincoln, what did she want now? "Andrea, please get Ros and ask her to do this meeting for me." I was seething now, as I walked back to my office and closed the door. "What the fuck do you want, Elena?"

"Christian, darling, how are things?"

"I have asked you to stop contacting me. I have no more need of your services anymore."

"Oh darling I know. I don't quite understand and I think you are wrong, but it is I who need your services."

"What services, Elena?"

"Oh, dear I don't really think I have to spell it out for you. There are so many doms that have come through here wanting your training, not mine. I always trained them myself or left them to the club, but I think this one has great potential and I am completely booked right now."

Fuck this shit. What am I doing? I should have hung up on her. "I'll be at the Mile High Club in ten minutes." I slammed the phone down. Shit, what was I to do? Flynn just took a holiday so I can't call him. Oh well. I picked up my cell and called Taylor. "I need the car immediately, I'm coming right now."

"Yes, sir."

As I strolled out of the building, Taylor had my SPYDER waiting. I jumped in and tapped my phone. As I was driving I clicked the hand's free and dialed him again. "Taylor, I am on my way to see what Mrs. Lincoln needs. Please just keep an eye on my whereabouts. If I don't make any contact in three, come find me."

"Yes, sir. Will do. Let me know if there is anything else you need."

I arrived and was guided to my usual private room. I ordered wine and waited. Promptly at 11:30, Elena strolled in. She was a tall, blonde forty-three year old woman. I loathed my attachment with her, but it could not be helped. One look at me and she knew not to drag this out. "Christian."

"Elena."

"This potential dom is new to the BDSM world, she is just raw talent. Actually she could go either sub or dom, she is that good. I tested her. I need you on this Christian."

"That is asking a lot, Elena. After what you have done to me, how you ruined my life, how can you expect help? I have moved on from that lifestyle."

"Christian, darling."

"NO!"

Elena folded her arms in front of her and took a drink of the wine. "Okay I admit what I did was wrong and I am sorry. If you do this one thing for me, I will allow you to sever those ties with me and I will not utter another word to you."

I sighed, she had admitted her wrongdoing. Perhaps there is one way we can compromise but only for this once. "Okay, I will still support the salons, and train this one, but there is another condition. You must come clean to my mother."

Elena gasped, for the first time in my life I saw fear and uncertainty in her eyes.

"Those are my terms or no deal."

Elena sat silent and cold for ten minutes sipping on her glass of wine. Finally she composed herself and her face once again contained the plastered nauseating smile. It was a little more forced but determined. I knew what was coming, "Very well, Christian."

"Do you realize you will lose the friendship of my mother and never get it back. Is the training of this one girl worth that?"

"You underestimate the power of your capabilities. You are out. But if I have the one dom/sub that you trained personally under my contract, they will flock to my club. I'll have a waiting list a mile long, thus a fine continuation of my business."

"So you'll hang a strong friendship out to dry for money? You really are a heartless bitch. I fucking hate you, you know that?"

She gave me a noncommittal shrug, "And I deserve that. So do we have a deal? When can we start?"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. My secret life is about to be shared with my mother. She will be heartbroken. This needs to happen in a safe place. "I will call my mother and have her come to Escala. You will meet us there in no more than an hour and be ready. Have the trainee meet me at the Mile High Club tonight at 9." The Mile High was a very exclusive club and it had private rooms to accommodate more intimate requirements.

Elena nodded then got up and left without a word. I picked up my phone and called Ros to cancel or have her fill in for any other appointments this afternoon. This takes a little convincing, because it is out of character for me to handle things as I have today. I then hang up and call my mom. "Christian, hello. This is a pleasant surprise." It won't be so pleasant soon. She may disown me.

"Mom, good day. I would like for you to meet with me for lunch at Escala today."

"Sure I can do that. Is everything alright?"

"No, but it is necessary."

She could not keep the curious concern out of her voice. "I'll be there shortly."

Taylor was to meet me there. Gail, my house manager, was preparing some lunch by the time I arrived. "Gail, thank you. This is lovely. Elena and my mother should arrive shortly. Taylor, stay ready. I may need your assistance. Gail, you have my permission to make yourself scarce during this visit." They both ogled curiously at me. "Elena is making a full confession to mom. Unfortunately a means to an end for her part. The other details will be filled in later. But for now, you understand the magnitude of the situation. They nodded and turned to walk away. I saw concern in their faces. "I know, but I knew this was necessary at some point in order to really move past that history. You both have been a real help. You know I'm never going to let you retire." They smiled and walked away hand in hand. Mom arrived and found me in the kitchen, setting the table and opening a bottle of wine. "Hello son, what is all this?"

"Good afternoon, we are just waiting on Elena now." I said this with an edge, I always had an edge in my demeanor when it came to her. Mom never understood it. Well she will today. "Christian-oh well I guess while we are waiting, I need to to be present tomorrow evening. You know Mrs. Steele?" "Mom, I grew up with Anna Maria. What about her?" Mom sighed, "Christian, her husband died. I don't know how. But she needs our love and support. I thought we could all help out one way or another. I just want you to come and be with your friend." "Mom, you don't even have to ask. I will be there. Oh that poor thing." I pulled out the food and we ate together without Elena, she would show only to discuss the one issue and then she was to leave. We sat and ate and I tried to get details of what happened to Anna's husband. I knew things weren't quite what they seemed, there, but the last time I spoke to her she had asked me to respect her privacy. It was hard to do, it hurt me to see her the way she was. I couldn't wait to hug her tight tomorrow. Anna maria and my sister Mia were the only ones who I let touch me, ever. Anna Maria was my age, so we hung out all the time. She practically lived there. She had curly red hair, knockout blue-green eyes and an infectious smile and laugh. She had health issues that made it hard for her to lose wight. She wasn't really big or anything. But she was always soft and curvy. I had a crush on her well for forever. As we got older and my life got complicated, we didn't hand out as much. But I started seeing Flynn, my therapist and he encouraged me to stay friends. I did and we would have dinner on occasion. Those were the best times of my life. That is until she married Dick. His name was Richard Steele. After they married, I never saw her again. Now I can't wait to see her. I really have to know what has happened and how she is handling everything. I know Mia is probably chomping at the bit to see her again. My whole family loves her to death.

My reminiscing was cut short when Taylor came in with Elena. "Thank you, Taylor." He nodded and walked only just outside of the room. I sat down and waited, looking coolly at Elena as she hugged and kissed my mother in greeting. Just stop with the bullshit already. She turned and nodded to me with a half-smile. She was about to sell her soul to satan and she calmly smiled as she sat down. Well maybe isn't so calm, Elena drank an entire glass immediately and poured herself another, sitting it down and circling the rim with her index finger. Maybe she is human after all.

"Grace, it really is good to see you. Christian had us here today, because I have some things I need to say. Please just hear me all the way through. You remember back about 12 years ago, Mr. Lincoln made himself scarce. I never told you the reasons why. I was into a hardcore sexual thing called BDSM. He never approved, but I didn't care. I dragged him down too far and we ended up separating. That was the time Christian was fifteen and doing yard work to earn some extra cash. I knew he had been having trouble with fights at school and all that. In my state, I couldn't resist. I fucked your son and started him in the world of BDSM. We were in a dom/sub relationship until almost eight years ago. You know he has issues being touched. I helped him get release of sexual needs without touch. I found other subs for him up until three months ago, when he decided to quit."

Mom looked between both of us, "If this is some kind of joke, it's not funny."

"No mom, it's not. Let me show you." I took her to the room, Elena following soundlessly behind. What was she still doing here? I unlocked and opened the door. Mom gasped and turned on Elena right there. "Get out of my sight." "Grace, please just listen." "Leave his home, I never want to see you again. How can you call yourself my friend after what you did?" Elena looked at me pleadingly and started to grab my arm. "Don't you touch him, you bitch!" Mom had had enough. She slapped Elena across the face leaving splotches and scratches. She pulled her u by her hair and walked her to a stunned Taylor, "Please see this cunt out the door. She is not to go near my family ever again. Rest assured, Mrs Lincoln, that I will be getting restraining orders. Good day!" I followed her as she dragged herself to the library where she fell to her hands and knees, weeping. I walked over and got down on my knees facing her and took her hands in my own. She looked up. I had never shown physical affection to her before. "Mom, I am so sorry I never said anything. She told me that you wouldn't understand and that this was the only way for me to deal with my past and find fulfillment and success by gaining control. I promise I am done with her. Flynn finally got through to me that there were other ways and I had been victimized by that pedophile slut. I am moving on. It will take time, but I will get there."

"Oh Christian. I can't believe I was her friend through all this. It makes me sick." Then suddenly she let out a squeaky giggle. "I'm sorry. It is just too much to process. And everyone thought you were gay. You were far from it " I shivered at the thought, ugh." "No mom, I am not gay. I like women. I hope that someday I'll find a normal girl outside that world and have a normal relationship. It is going to take time, I'm afraid. I still have a lot of issues to work through. I had not gone in that room again until you saw it. I am definitely not ready to open that door to deal with it yet."

"Honey, I am glad that Flynn has helped you so much. I know you. You are strong and capable of so much. I know the right one is out there. I'll be so very happy when you find her. For now I have to go home. We'll talk later. I will see you tomorrow?" I nodded, "I'll be there. I'm not ready for everyone to know all this yet. Give me time." Mom nodded and squeezed my hand. "One step at a time, son."

I stood there with my face in my hands breathing deeply. That is how I still was when Taylor found me an hour later. "Sir, I took your mother home and Mrs Lincoln is long gone. We'll need to get the restraining orders from the SPD (Seattle Police Department). Permission to speak freely for a moment?"

"Please have a seat, Jason." I said with a smile. "I suppose you are wondering what is next. I have an agreement with her. I will train one and only one dom to take my place and my business with her is through aside for the salons. She let me go and confessed everything."

"Gail and I are pleased that this is all working out. We are willing to help in anyway we can."

"It may almost be over with that woman, but you know how hard it is going to be to convince a girl to stay with me when she finds that shit out? How am I going to let a girl touch me when I can't even be touch by my own family?"

"Sir, it took years for Dr. Flynn to convince you of the truths and helped you face them. It will happen, but not all in one day. Personally, Gail and I will be prying for the right girl. Thank you Jason. I'd like to go go for a run, would you join me?" Yes sir."

Taylor resumed professional demeanor at that point. I changed to my running clothes and we took our ten mile route. Coming back, I showered and changed to some jeans and a Ralph Lauren polo shirt that was a midnight blue. I brushed my teeth and combed my hair. Taylor drove me out to the club. I was so glad to be on my own turf for this instead of the BDSM club. One trainee, and that was it. I wondered why Elena was having me train a female dom, It would make more sense to train a male, right? Elena did mention that this girl could potentially be a dual talent. I was led to my usual room and I ordered some fruit and wine. If the first meeting went well, we will have dinner and get to know each other.

I took a sip and noticed a figure in the corner of my eye. I looked up to see this beautiful goddess. Her figure was medium built with soft curves, perfect size breasts and sexual prowess in her stance. This woman showed definite potential. But then I froze when my eyes reached her face and hair. "Anna Maria?"