Author Note Pity, Im nothing like Stephenie Meyer but nothing here is my work only the plot of the story, enjoy and don't forget to review too!
The story sort of kicks off after Edward had propose to Bella after they did their deal thing, and it's more like after the Breaking Dawn first chapter instead of where it was in eclipse but sort of not. (I don't really want to specify where it kicks off after the BD chapter in case it gives off spoilers to those who don't wish to read the chapter until BD is offically released and also Bella doesn't drive her truck since it died , Edward takes her to places now, just so that is cleared up.)
Chapter 1: Undecided.
"Bella? Bella please talk please?!" Edward said desperately. It took me a while to realize what was happening, I was sitting next to Edward in his Volvo but we weren't moving.
"Huh?" I said breaking out of my blank thoughts and turning to Edward. His face was worried and he was still waiting for an answer. "Do you really want to become a vampire?" He asked.
"I…I…I'm not sure?" I replied. I knew that bit was true. I didn't know if I really wanted to give away my soul or keep it. "You don't have to answer this question now Bella, take your time." Edward said as he moves his hand to my face and began stroking it. "I want you to know that I am happy with whatever decision you come to." Edward said softly before leaning in towards my lips and kissing it lightly, causing me to gasp for air. "Are you alright Bella?" Edward said still worrying over me. I nodded my head and took a deep breath in and exhale. "I'm fine, just keep forgetting to breath." I smiled a little, Edward turned the car ignition on and we quietly drove to Charlie's house. Once we have arrived, I could see that Charlie was still fishing with Billy, as his cruiser was not in it usual spot. I leaned towards the door to open it but Edward beat me to opening the passenger door and he held it opened for me. "You know, I can handle opening a door Edward." I muttered loudly as I stepped out of the Volvo. He chuckled lightly as he closes the door after I was out. I started to walk towards the front door and reach out under the eaves where the key was. I unlocked the door and stepped inside, Edward followed me into the kitchen. I grabbed a glass from the cupboard then walked over to the sink and fill the glass with water. I could feel Edward eyes observing my every move. "I wish you would stop thinking that I am about to do something clumsy Edward." I said annoyed as I drank my water. "Sorry if it's bothering you Bella, but Alice did warn me this morning about you being clumsy in the kitchen but she didn't specify when it would happen." Edward said. I could see he was still trying to read my mind, even though he knows that he cannot even get close to reading my mind. I sighed softly. "I wish I could read your mind Bella, I know it not possible to but you do often make me wonder about what's going on in your head." He said frustrated, sometimes I giggle silently when he gets frustrated by me. It makes me feel that Edward is not always perfect sometimes. "I can hear Charlie coming home." Edward said. "Will you come tonight?" I asked quietly but I knew the answer before he was going to say. "I can't Bella, not tonight. I need to keep myself satisfied more often then I did before I met you." He paused, his face was indescribable but his feeling wasn't. I could see that he hated himself for craving my blood badly and it made me feel guilty sometimes. "I don't want to hurt you Bella. Not now, not ever." He stood next to me and kissed me quickly before leaving. It pained me how we must live this way but was all to prevent Edward from killing me. I sighed and started preparing dinner, I had a feeling Charlie caught a few fishes from today. "Bella?" Dad called out from the front door. "Here" I shouted and quickly went to greet him. Turn out I was right after all, Charlie came home with about five fishes already peeled and ready to cook. "Whoa" I said loudly, crinkling my nose. "You smell really bad Cha-Dad." I said grabbing the fishes off him. "I fell in the river." He smiled, "I better get in the shower if I smell that bad huh?" He said laughing. I smiled and returned to the kitchen, as I continued cooking dinner. I began to hum my lullaby Edward has created for me as I work my way through the process of cooking dinner. After a short time, I finally serve dinner onto plates and carried them to the table. "That smells good Bells." Dad said, seating himself at the table. I sat down opposite of him and began eating my greens first. "So um…How was your day?" He said as he started cutting up the fish into smaller chunks.
I didn't really know what to say since he still hate Edward for leaving me before and whenever they see each other, it just…awkward most of the time now. I sighed loudly; I knew that he would have to get over it soon anyway. "It was good. I spent most of it with Edward." I said, praying he will just not say anything about him. "Oh, you're still seeing him huh?" Charlie murmured as he ate a forkful of fish. I nodded my head, a little frustrated at him for not addressing Edward properly. "Why don't you approve of him?" I blurted out without thinking clearly. Charlie stared at me blankly, "Oh what have I done." I thought to myself. "I just don't think its right of you to just let him back into your life after what he has done to you." Charlie said sternly. "Just because we ended it badly last time, does not mean that we still don't have feelings about each other. Look Dad, we are soon to be married and I want you two to get along for once." I said in a serious tone. "But what was wrong with Jacob? He was there for you and brought you back to life again." Charlie whined. I never really seen or heard him whine before, so I was a bit surprised at him. "He's a nice kid Dad but I love Edward." I said as I stood up. "Now if you excuse me, I am going to start washing up then head off to bed." I said, excusing myself from the conversation. I was mad at Dad for not accepting my choice but I was mad at myself as well. I did hurt Jacob a lot but I haven't heard from him in almost three months since I told Edward to send the invitation to him. I regretted not sending it personally by me, but I did want Jacob to see that I still care about him and that he has a choice on whether he wants to be in my life or not. He wasn't happy that I told him that Edward will be changing me soon but then, I wasn't too happy on that idea either.
When I got into my bed, I hummed myself to sleep and dreamt about Jacob in his wolf form playing around with me, being silly but then the dream would change and Edward would be fighting with Jacob. I knew that this Edward was not my Edward for his eyes were pure black and shone so much hatred. I usually wake up around this bit but for some reason, the dream that turned into a nightmare, continued playing. I could see the fight from my point of view and that Jacob was struggling to survive against the evil Edward. It wasn't till I saw Jacob being killed that I screamed loudly, waking up from the horrible dream. I was panting heavily and sweats were running down my head. I stared at the dark room, trying to calm myself and prevent myself from crying. It took me a few moments before I calmed down completely and I had the courage to stand up without collapsing. I headed towards the bathroom and wash the sweats off my face. The water was refreshing as I splash it across my face. I took a deep breath in then slowly exhaled and headed back to my room. It was only five thirty in the morning and I knew it would be pointless going back to sleep now since I have to start work in about three hours from now. I switched the light on, hunting for a clean shirt and my shoes; I heard my phone go off. I took one glance at it and it was from Alice. The text message said "We will be back this afternoon, love Alice." I put my phone back down on the dresser. Feeling happy knowing that I get to see Edward sooner then I thought I would, I practically skip my way down the hall. I put my shoes on then grabbed my jacket and headed out the door. I began walking slowly up the road. The morning dew still lingers on plants and the morning fog hang lowly to the ground. I was almost at the end of the road when I saw something moving in the trees on my right. I stood there staring as hard as I could but I saw nothing. I sighed loudly. "It's just your imagination" I said to myself quietly, continuing the walk but then I heard a low growl. I quickly spun around to where the growl was, once again I could nothing but I could feel a presence, a familiar presence. I held my breath trying to be quiet as possible, but no more noises were made and I exhaled sharply. "Bella?" I heard behind me as I jumped in fright. "Jacob?" I said unexpectedly. "Sorry Bella, are you alright?" Jacob said. I nodded my head. "You just frighten me." I answered. I could see that he was almost exhausted as I quickly observed him. "I thought you ran off? Every one couldn't find you and we all thought you left." I said. "I did leave, I left for Canada but I missed it here, especially you Bella." Jacob said in his husky tone. Without any warning, I hugged him tightly; I didn't want him to leave again. It was tough without my favorite mechanic around and I was sure Billy had missed him as well. "Are you still going to marry the leech?" Jacob said. I nodded my head. 'What about the change? Are you still going to become one?" He said almost like a command. "I'm not even sure if that's what I want anymore." I whispered.