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Chapter 1: Decision
I awaited for you,
Your tender smile…
I recalled the little moments,
That I spent with you…
I woke up, feeling wide and refreshed. I walked to school. It was him, the one I admire, the one I devoted my heart to. I wish you had just smiled at me, just for once. I hoped for his attention everyday, but to no avail. Today, it might just be the day, which might change the fact…
"Teacher, must I do my project with him?" I asked my teacher. He was seated there, so coldly, looking at me, with those murderous stare. I shrugged when my teacher nodded. I took a deep breath, and I walked forward, with the meanest face I can make, but my heart ached… Why? Why must it be this way? Why was I so foolish to do what I did a few years back? Now, he shuns me…he hates me… he detest me….
I did my work with him, feeling the bliss in my heart. I felt so blessed, as though the angels of love have came for me with him, but I know it was not true. Why can't I control my feelings? That puzzled me greatly, but still, I did not know the answer. The day ended. I went home happily.
Dear Diary,
Today was a FANTASTIC day. I can't believe it either! Teacher put me with him! The love of my life, so far from my grasp. Maybe it was getting nearer, but it might be not. It might be distancing away from me. My heart wrench when I see him, with another person, so happy together…
I stopped at my diary. I did not want to continue, I thought. I need not to. I felt the hot tears ran down my cheek. I closed my eyes, hoping to forget everything, but more painful memories showered me. I ran away from my room. Reality was cruel, that was what he told me once, with that ever so cold voice to me. I will always remember today. I looked at the calendar. 5 more days to valentine's day…
I lay on my bed, my emotions overwhelming me. I was in a dilemma… What if he reject me in front of everyone. I would be humiliated, but it was still worth a try. I thought of what I should give to him. Ah! I would write him a letter! Or maybe, I could give him a hand-made card or chocolates, perhaps with a banquet of flowers. I was very excited. But somehow, something tells me everything would go wrong. "Master, dinner is ready." My servant said. I asked him if he had a secret admirer, what would he give him on valentine's day. He looked at me and felt for my head, asking with concern. "Master, are u very sure you are not sick?" he asked me. I looked at him and replied that it was just a normal question. He told me that a confession would be the best, or maybe a poem written with all my heart in it. I nodded with agreement. It was more meaningful like this. On valentine's day, I will confess to you, my one and only……
Author's note: I hope you like the first chapter. I know it is a little short, and I apologize for that. Really hope you will continue reading my next chapter. )