Disclaimer : I don't own harry potter.

The news of Draco Malfoy's sucide reached the ministry early in the morning, none knew when or how he died.

Many pitied him , he was alone and broody

Many reasoned perhaps his parents death left him mad

Many did not reasoned but secretly rejoiced.

Harry potter was not one of those people , he did not reasoned nor rejoiced he only regretted that he never listened properly.

Early in the night a large owl delivered a letter to him a letter which opened all his horrors and secrets for a long time he had been avoiding it like a plague but this time he could deny it .

The letter was written such as

Potter,

You asked why?

You asked why I didn't tell her about you? I never gave you answer for that.

You thought I did this for my own salvation which is part true but there was another reason potter another one that you won't never hear nor admit although I thought you knew your hawk eyes go up everywhere you but you never figured it out , I have to admit you are dim witted.

But anyways the reason I never told Bellatrix about you well it was not my intense love for you, nor my rotten parents , a bit of me and bit of her.

I chose not to tell because somewhere along the way I fell in love with your wife , Hermione granger.

Even admitting that makes me vomit.

It was during school really, people will presume it was Yule ball or the time she punched me well for me it was the first time she gawked at the great hall like goldfish out of water.

Before even sorting.

But then I found out she was muggleborn I cursed my fate and my father because I can't "Mingle" with them.

But potter do you know I was the only boy she talked to me in hogwarts back then before you two even became her friends?

She was crying because of that stupid weasley , when I crept up and offered her my pumpkin pastie, she did not knew me back then we just talked about her world and mine and she was fascinated to hear it.

So was I , by her.

But then you and your heroic attempt came and she left me for you.

I was bit hurt I pouted like eleven year old should do. But I brushed it off soon

The second time was during when you and weasley were avoiding her.

Just because she ratted out your secret firebolt doesn't mean she will hold up and appear fine to you

We just talked again , she was mad at what I did to that bloody chicken when I calmly said I didn't mean to insult it , I was bit jealous of you that's it .

Merlin you should have seen her face

She was flabbergasted that I admitted a weakness.

But that was before she slapped me in my face and left me hating you and her even more.

The third time was during your D.A meetings.

Yes potter I knew, I am not dumb , I knew there was something fishy going on and be grateful that it was that ravenclaw who ratted you all out not me.

I wanted to tell I found out when she was making some complex charms on gold coins in a library one day.

Do you know what she said?

I will do your homework for whole month if you don't tell to anyone.

I said make that two granger.

So yes the reason I got more marks in that essay of snape because granger did it for me.

And I wanted to well thank her I did got that horrid hogwarts a history first edition for her secretly stashed in her back pack.

But then you took her to ministry , she took that curse and I can't even look at her I hated you all so much.

The fourth time was during war,

You were fighting with voldemort, weasley was too busy mourning his brother when I noticed a giant heap of stones crash into her, I could only save her by a second and when I did her whole body was crushed under the stones.

We did shitty job saving her.

I didn't knew when you got married to her , her wedding ring did shine brightly I tried to ignored it, she just smiled and lightly pressed my cheek with her hand and whispered " I wish you told me back then"

And she died.

And I loved her very much.

Potter you did took her from me, I should hate you but I don't , I knew granger would love me back , but she loved you too.

So now I am tired of living like this, thinking like this, I tried to move on nothing worked, I am not lucky potter , I don't have any friends or family to comfort me.

She comes to me every night in my dreams.

And each times she dies.

I know you loved her too , you were the star couple but I wished that maybe my not telling would have indicated that maybe just maybe I have a heart too.

I really wished you listened to me potter.

But even you did you would never accept me.

So I am going to end this.

I think maybe there is one way to be with her, and I want to be with her,

Just do me a favour after this is done don't hate her , its not her fault.

Hate me.

And most of all don't hate yourself

Draco Malfoy

Harry finished the letter and rushed to malfoy manor where he found him already dead. He tried everything but draco never woke up.

It was regret that harry will carry on forever.

It has been 2 years since hermione's death and he hasn't forgotten it once.

Now 2 months into his wedding with ginny weasley , he can now tell that Hermione would be happy to see draco.

He did knew that he saw it in her eyes the minute draco saved her, but he let her die in draco's arms.

Maybe the actual star couple were finally united.