Pieces Part 2
Maya has being trying to get me to go to this LGBT center but, I am thinking about the consequences to people getting to know the real me. I am still unsure about my sexuality and whether me coming out the closet will hurt me or benefit me. I am uncomfortable with others knowing my sexuality when honestly I don't even know it myself. My parents act like it's a sin to love a girl and find it disgusting when I kiss Maya. I do not feel bad kissing a girl. It's different from kissing a guy because it is more passionate and makes me feel that I will do anything for her. When we kiss, it feels like we are the only ones in the world and everyone deserves to have that feeling. Going to the LGBT center will be a good experience but, I'm still nervous about it. It might make my situation a lot easier to handle though. School is my only safe haven where I can be myself. Fool around with friends, swim, and study my ass off. I start having feelings for certain girls in school when I know I should be committed to Maya. I start noticing how in the locker room the girls move and the way their body moves. I cannot help but, have feelings for girls. This is just a little bit more and I apologized for it being really short. I've been busy with school and sports haven't had time. This is for people who have feelings that they cannot control and do not know how to express them. Loving someone but, not being able to say that you love everything about them to their face but, rather keep it as a secret and remain friends. Would you take the risk? More to come I promise.