Hello everyone:D I finally wrote a longer ficcie, I hope you like this because it's been very long since I have written something longer xD

Summary: Ichigo starts liking Tatsuki. Rukia is feeling down. Renji is planning on leaving. They get into a fight, and Ichigo's hesitation to change into shinigami in front of Tatsuki becomes faithful…

Chapter 1, Not my world

"Tatsuki-chan, do you want to walk together?"

"Oh, that would be nice. But… aren't you walking with Kuchiki-san?"

"She said she'd take a walk, so she's not coming."

"Alright then. Let's walk together."

Rukia was walking towards Ichigo's house. That day had been just like the others: she couldn't concentrate on anything because of Ichigo and Tatsuki. It seemed that lately those two had started to get along very well, and Rukia could only think about their relationship.

'What exactly is going on between them?' She thought. 'I always thought they didn't like each other, sometimes even hated each other... why has it suddenly changed?'

Rukia bowed her head. Tatsuki was her friend, too, as well as Ichigo. She didn't really know what to think about those two together.

'He seems to be happier now. Now that we haven't needed to do Shinigami work lately... he's changed so much. He even smiles more!' Rukia thought a bit sadly. "Does that mean... he's not happy when I'm around?'

She shook her head. "Damn it, what am I thinking? It's not that I'm in love with him or something, nothing like that!"

But she couldn't stop thinking about them when she continued walking. She liked the world of living, really, but without all her friends... what would have it been?

She raised her head when she saw a figure sitting on a small wall next to the road, looking towards the shining water of the river below. He had a sad, thoughtful look on his face, and Rukia couldn't just pass by when seeing that expression on his face. She walked towards him, but he noticed her only when she started to speak.

"Why are you sitting here, Renji-kun?"

He turned towards her when hearing her voice, and then he turned back towards the river. "I just wanted to take a break of human life."

She didn't understand the answer. "What do you mean by that? You look so sad."

Renji sighed and stood up. "I'm not sad. I just... need to rest a bit. This kind of life is so damn different than... back there in Soul Society. Just forget it."

Rukia looked at him in silence for a while. "You will get used to it."

"I don't think so." He sighed. "Well, take care. I'm going."

And after saying that he walked away, to a direction where Rukia had come from. For a while she looked after him, the only person she ever had really trusted. Then she turned and continued walking back to Ichigo's house, knowing that he would be there already.

Renji walked slowly, without a real destination to go. He just moved forwards like he had always done, walking through the city. The sun had started to set and the wind of spring blew coldly, but he wasn't cold even though he only had t-shirt and jeans. A group of children ran by him, laughing and enjoying their life. He didn't look towards them, but heard their laughter.

That made him feel even worse. 'They're so happy in here. They have grown in this world, in this era. It's the only world for them... but not for me.'

Renji raised his head and looked at the sight below him. He was standing on a street, and the stairs in front of him lead downwards into the city. People were living their lives without knowing about the other world, Soul Society, and without knowing about the Hollows.

Renji didn't really have friends in the world of living. All of them were in Soul Society, in the world he had been living as long as he could remember. Suddenly jumping into another world and starting to live there was just so hard for him.

In the world of living he had some people he knew, but it wasn't the same for him. Of course there were Ichigo, Ishida, Orihime, Chado... and Rukia. Rukia was the only one he knew better.

'But Rukia likes Ichigo.' He thought. 'There's no place for me anymore. I might me only a friend for her, someone to remind of those old times.'

Renji continued walking in the city, by happy adults and laughing children, by the houses where the lights were still on. He stopped when he reached the sea, looking towards the waves that hit the beach. Seagulls were flying above the water and the cold wind blew heavier from the sea.

"I don't belong here." Renji whispered into the wind.

Something more coming in the next chapter :)