Title: Can't Fight the Moonlight
By: GoldStar
Part: 1
E-mail: GoldStar@eternalmoon.zzn.com
Website: http://surf.to/goldstar (AOL users have to put in the http:// or it won't work)

Hey everyone! Ok, this is a fic and I don't have much to say about it. Except
that this is in Usagi's POV. I'm so sorry for taking so long to write other
parts of my fanfics. School has started, so I am really busy, so don't expect a
lot of fanfics out soon. Well, hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon or this song. SM is (c) to Naoko-sama and
song is sung by Leann Rimes in the movie "Coyote Ugly."
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I stroll down the familiar road to where the arcade lies. I don't like
Motoki anymore, I know that. But another man has captured my heart. He is the
one that I argue with day and night. I should dislike him, but I just can't.
Whenever I stare into the deep blue pool eyes of his, I can't help but think,
'this is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.' But I can only kid
myself. Why would such a beautiful man want to love such a klutz? I hang my
head down, my eyes filling with unshed tears. I realize that I have reached the
arcade. I wipe my eyes with the sleeves of my shirt and put on a happy smile.
When I enter, I search around the room for *him.* I sigh softly as I can see
that he isn't here after all. I sit on the stools and wonder what has happened
to him.
"Hey Usa-chan! What's up?" asked Motoki. I just hang my head down,
hiding my eyes. I knew as soon as he saw that I was crying, he would start
asking *very* uncomfortable questions.
"Nothing much. How about you?" I answered.
"Well, I'm helping Mamoru-san pack so he can leave in two weeks." My
head shot up. What did he mean by 'pack?' I had to know.
"What do you mean?" My heart wishing that the answer wasn't my worse
nightmare. 'Please!' I wish.
"Well, Mamoru-san is leaving to America because he got a scholarship to
Harvard, which is a really great college. It's a great opportunity for him, I
think." It is! This can't be happening! No!! Please!! I can't have him go!
I just can't!
"How long will he be gone?" I ask eagerly searching for an answer.
"About 8 years I think. Maybe more." 8 YEARS?!!!! That was too long!
How could I go 8 years without seeing him or talking to him once?! I could
barely go 8 hours, let alone 8 years. I get off the stool and run out. I can
hear Motoki-san calling after me, but I don't pay attention. I have to run, run
away from this. I had to deal with the fact that Mamoru would never love me and
that was hard, but now I have to deal with the fact that I won't be able to see
his handsome face or hear his cunning words in so long? This was unbearable. I
cried, hard. What in the world was I supposed to do? I ran towards the park,
the one place where I could find the peace I so dearly needed right now. I knew
people in the streets had their gazes on me, wondering why I was crying...but I
didn't pay attention, didn't care. This embarrassment couldn't compare to the
hurt in my heart that I was feeling. I ran as fast as my legs could run. If I
could, I would run away from this place. From this world. From this grief. I
could feel the wetness falling down my cheeks and fall on the pavement. As I
finally see the trees of the park, I am only barely relieved. I run towards my
hiding place, a lake hidden by tall trees. I squeeze myself through the trees
and collapse on the ground. Now, I am sobbing hysterically. I try to stop
myself from crying, but I just can't, I can't. After a few minutes of more
crying, I can hear voices. I look up and head towards the trees. As I peak out
I can see a couple. A guy with dark brown hair with blue eyes with a girl with
brownish-blondish hair and green eyes clinging to his arm. They're looking at
each other so lovingly that I almost want to run to them and yell in their face
that their relationship wasn't going to last long. But then I realize that I'm
jealous of them. What those two have is what I've always wished for...love. I
head for the other small opening between the trees and leave.
As I am enter into my house, my mom is in the kitchen. My dad isn't home,
and Shingo is upstairs. I close the door quietly and sneak upstairs so my mom
won't know that I was crying. I reach my door and open it, closing right after
I get in my room. I throw myself on my bed and cry some more. After half an
hour or so, I hear my mom calling my name to eat dinner. Only then do I notice
that I'm hungry and my stomach grumbles in response. I chuckle softly in spite
of myself. I stand up, rush to the bathroom, and wash my face off, making sure
all red and black stains were gone. I check myself in the mirror one last time
and make sure that every evidence is gone. When I see it is, I leave the
bathroom and go down the stairs. At the very last step, I suck in a big breath
and let it out with my eyes closed. As I walk into the kitchen, I smell a very
good fragrance and I rush to my seat at the dinner table. Let's just say that
during dinner, I wasn't thinking of my *problems* right then.
After dinner, I went up to my beloved room again and just laid there,
thinking instead of crying this time. Maybe I should just tell him. I mean,
what's the worse that could happen? He says he doesn't have a soft spot in his
body for me and tease me more than ever and then leave and I wouldn't have to
see him again for at least 8 more years and I would already probably be in a
relationship. Yeah, I mean, there's nothing I could possibly lose, right?
Great idea! Tomorrow, I can ask Rei and the other girls for more help. I was
suddenly tired and closed my eyes, thinking of how nice it would be to have
Mamoru in her arms.

* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *The Next Day* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **

I was walking towards the temple where we held our senshi business. I
had to put on a happy face and was about to round a corner when I bumped into
something very hard. Only three things could be that hard: a pole, a wall, or
Mamo-chan. When I heard a grunt, it was obvious it was the latter.
"Jeez Odango. Watch where you're going for once. That was painful you
know," said Mamoru on the ground. I looked at him and realized that he was
wearing and black long-sleeved shirt with jeans on. Wow!! Is it just me, or
does this dude look gorgeous?!! (AN: Doesn't he always look drop-dead hot?!!
Ok, back to the fic!) I quickly recovered.
"Well, why don't *you* watch where you're going?! You bumped into me!
You know what? I don't have time for you today! So why don't you just move it
and we'll both be on our happy merry way and act like this didn't happened! You
ok with that?!!" I said very angrily. I thought I had seen a small hint of
disappointment on his cute face, but it disappeared as soon as it had come. He
was about to say something, but Motoki had come. As many other times, I was
very happy that he came. I gave a mental sigh of relief. I plastered a grin on
my face and chirped out,
"Hi Motoki! I have to go see the girls now, so I'll leave you and the
beast alone. Bye bye!" and then I ran off. I didn't dare look back, scared for
some reason. Maybe I shouldn't go to the senshi meeting today, I thought. I
mean, what's the worst that could happen, Rei and Luna yell in my face again?
So, I decided to go to the park and instead of going my secret place, my heart
lead me to the cherry blossom tree. There I saw a bench and just plopped down
on it. I closed my eyes and put my arm over my eyes. I welcomed the silence
and the peace. For a couple of minutes, it was like that, until I heard a
rustling in the bushes. I sat up and my eyebrows knitted together while my eyes
narrowed. And then, there popped out something big and black and blue. The
only thing that could be that was Mamo-chan. Wait a sec, MAMO-CHAN!!!!!!! Oh
my gosh!! I didn't realize he would be here! I suddenly wondered if a mirror
was around. I could imagine the look on Mamo-chan's face. It would be
hilarious! I would be running around fixing myself at the sight of him while he
would be thinking that I had gone insane. Ok, maybe I had gone a little insane,
but it was all HIS fault! So, I just sat there, putting a bored expression on
my face.
"Oh, it's you," I felt like running and hugging him, but I restrained
myself from doing that and boy did that take a lot of effort.
"That's a very warm welcome Odango. What are you doing here? I thought
you had to see the girls?" he put on his to-die-for grin.
"Well, if you must know, I was supposed to meet the girls here in an hour,
but I realized I was a little early, so just came here to sit. Is that ok with
you Mr. Big Ego?" I reply with a fake innocence, lying through my very teeth.
He walked towards me and I thought for a minute he was going to kiss me. Wait,
that's only in dreams. Tsukino, get yourself a reality pill soon! But Mamo-
chan did the next best thing. He sat right next to me! Woohoo!! Definite
progress! "What are you doing here?" I ask.
"Came here to do some relaxing, nothing else," he said it like there
wasn't a care in the world. Man I wish I could do that! But ever since I
realized I had feelings for him, it's been nearly impossible! So I just
answered with a nod. Hey, this would be a great place to tell him! We're all
alone! Ok, you can do this girl!
"Hey Mamoru-san, can I talk to you about something?" I ask quietly.
"Sure, but I'm very interested into knowing what it could possibly be so
that you would talk to me about it..." he replied. This has everything to do
with you, you baka!! I calmed down.
"Um...well, um...I...well, I uh, I..." I stammered, a lot.
"Maybe today Odango."
"I...I LOVE YOU!" oh man!! I had this whole love sappy speech ready and
that's all I could say! I could shoot myself right now. I look at his face and
he is in total shock. Now, I definitely wasn't planning to do this, but this
was a one in a million kinda thing. I kissed him. Yes, me Usagi Tsukino kissed
Mamoru Chiba, my Mamo-chan. Now, this was my first kiss, so I wasn't a pro or
anything. I thought I felt him respond, but then he stopped and broke it. When
I felt cold air on my lips, I felt like breaking down and crawling into a hole
again. I looked at this face for a sign that I was wrong, but it simply wasn't
there. I could feel water starting to form at the corner of my eye. He looked
guiltily at me and whispered,
"Well, I really wasn't expecting this. And if it's a joke, I'm not
laughing. "I'm really sorry Usagi," he used my real name for the first time,
"but I don't feel the same way. I can't love you." My world came to an end at
that very second.

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Ok, hoped you people liked! Spent a lot of time writing this and making sure it
was perfect, but I'm sure it's far from perfect. Anyway, if you like it, e-mail
me. If you don't, e-mail me anyway. Thanks for reading!

*GoldStar*