xXx You Are the Moon xXx

I stared at you from the corner of my eye. Of course you wouldn't notice; you were wrapped around her finger. Caught up in the sight of her, and I was caught by you. I couldn't help it. Once I had a small taste of you it wasn't enough. It never was, and I was never enough for you. I'll admit to that.

Can you blame me for being cautious? My heart was on the line. Everything was new to me. When you were near, I wanted to kiss you, but at the same time I wanted to run away until my legs gave out; until the adrenaline that just having you near brought would wear off, and I could stand to be with you without falling into your eyes.

I was too caught up in my own nerves to notice you slowly slipping away. I wanted to reach out, but it felt as if there was already a wall built up between us. It was thin and smooth, but too strong for my slight will to break. I wasn't ready.

I could never fully grasp why you would want me. Surely I was just a way to get over your last heartbreak. Maybe I truly was, but I think I love you too much to truly believe that. All those times your hand was inches from mine and I was too afraid to grasp it in mine. Too afraid to take the plunge and put my heart out there. You already had.

Did I break your heart? I was so cold, colder than before you were mine. But in the small moment that it took you to express your feelings, everything became so much more complicated to me. Lines that were there before were blurred. I didn't have the courage to cross them, though I desperately wanted to.

Now you have her. I'm sure she is much better for you than I was. She'll kiss you everyday. She'll hold you hand and break that pane of glass. She will cross those lines that I only dreamed of.

Now I will watch, and still I will nurse the wounds that were never fully healed. I cannot look at you without feeling that tearing in my heart, but the pain of looking at you is well worth the reward of your smile. The thought that perhaps you have looked at me and thought of me once more, and that for one moment of your life I am the only one that occupies you mind is irresistible.

Staying away from you is not an option. I can be content living in the brief ghost of a romance we once had, and build up my life once again. I can bring you into my life once again.

As I look at you now, years after what we once were, I can see a small shadow of care. A flicker of the flame that once lit your eyes at my sight. The flame that never left my eyes. When you speak to me, you voice is a song that sings to my soul. It is sweet and devastating at the same time, because when you speak to me my heart begins to burn. The hope that has never left me swells and leaves me aching.

If I lift my head, If I look into your eyes, I know that it will shatter all of my defenses, but it will also shatter that glass that has stood between us now for too long. If I dare to take that chance, maybe I can learn to love myself again, as you have loved me all along.

Your fingers trace my jaw, and I jump. In that moment that our eyes lock, I feel the earth fall from below me, and I am floating. But your arms are my new ground, your lips are my air, and I cannot live without them anymore.

I take a deep breath and I don't know how I ever survived without it. I've crossed the lines, but now I can see that they were never truly there. They were just a reflection of my own fear. All this time you have waited patiently for me to realize this. A knowing smile crosses your lips. I've tasted you again, and though it is still not enough, I know I have time now. I capture your smile in mine and the tender feel of your skin on mine is all that I need.

AN:)) Allo! I wrote this while listening to- you guessed it- You Are the Moon by The Hush Sound. It was meant to be a Sora/Kairi, but it doesn't really specify, so it's your choice! Please review!!! xXx Typs xXx