I have a story to tell you, Daddy. It's not pretty, but . . . I'll tell you everything if you want to know what really happened. You have to make me a promise though. Don't tell mom any of this, ok? She might blame Squall, or Gabriel. Or me. And she'd tell Squall the whole thing if she knew. Squall might blame himself or worse, he might blame me. I don't know if I can handle that, since I've already let him down enough.
What happened wasn't our fault. Gabriel, Maia and I aren't the heroes we were made out to be. I'm ashamed, but I did what I had to do to stop it from happening again. You'll understand, Daddy, but let me tell the story first, and try not to be angry with me when I'm done. I didn't want to lie, but it was the only thing we could do. Better to think of the four of us as heroes right? Besides, Squall lost almost everyone he loved. We didn't know how to tell him the truth. We couldn't hurt him more.
Why do I want to tell you? For one thing, I've been sitting here for months trying to figure out why it all happened. Gabriel refuses to talk about it, and Maia, well she's as clueless as I am. And you know I can't tell mom. She's too practical, and she wouldn't understand. She's always walked the straight path. To her, there are no gray areas. Only black and white. Maybe it's because I trust you that I've come to you. Maybe it's because I have always been able to talk plainly with you, and you have always been that way with me. You and I, we've always been friends, and I trust that you'll be my friend now and listen without asking questions.
Much of this story, you already know, Daddy. But I have to tell it from the beginning because there's a lot you don't know. I'm sorry if the memories are painful. They are for me too. Once I have said what I have to say, I won't talk about it again. It's hard enough to sit here and tell you, and I'm sure some of it will be difficult for you to hear. Don't judge me or anyone else for what I'm about to tell you.
I'll say it now, in case I forget to say it later. I'm sorry. I really am. It cost us so much. So many people we loved died.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry
sorry....
***Notes***
This story deserves an explanation, so I'll give you the goods so that it's easier to understand. This is a second generation fic, one of which I have spend a lot of thought and time on, therefore, if you read it, I would appreciate a review (please?). I realize that original character stories are not terribly popular, but I promise you, some of your old favorites will be making appearances, and I have tried very hard to retain the personality traits of the original characters. In some of the children, especially the main character, Micala, the children have maintained much of the original story. That said, some characters in the game were very flat and one sided (namely Seifer and Quistis), and therefore, I had to take some liberties as to how they might have matured.
This is a tale told by Micala Almasy to her father Seifer several months after the events of this story take place. The first couple of chapters will be a bit slow, with little or no action, because there is a back story involved that sets these events in motion and these events are rather important to what happens later in the story. However, once the story picks up, it hardly stops to take a breath until it's conclusion. So stick with it for a few chapters before you decide it's boring.
I will warn you ahead of time, however. This story contains descriptions of violence, torture and there are a few very mild descriptions of sexual acts. There is also strong language and frequent swearing. If you are offended in any way by this, this story is not for you.
Disclaimer: I always forget to put one of these things, and I
figure one day Squaresoft will sue me because that's my luck, so I might
as well quit fucking around and do it. Alllrightythen....I do not
own Squaresoft, nor do I own any of the characters from the game.
I however do own their children, Micala, Julian and Aida Almasy; Hiro and
Kailen Dincht; Irving, Delcie and the other five Kinneas kids; Gideon,
Gabriel and Maia Leonhart.