Smiling
„I can literally hear you smiling." Annie repeated Auggie's words in her head over and over again. He didn't know how much those words hurt her, did he? No he didn't.
"I can literally hear you smiling." Was he serious when he said that? Did Auggie really believe she smiled? What did he say after this? She didn't remember. It didn't matter. From there on nothing mattered anymore. And then he gave her his car. His '67 Corvette. She started to drive, she didn't know where. The empty street was rushing past the tires when she drove as fast as she could. All she wanted was to get away. From him. From his words. As fast as she could.
"I can literally hear you smiling." He was always right about her feelings. Auggie saw her better than any other person did. A small smile spread over her face at this though. A blind guy was better at seeing her feelings than any other person was. He couldn't even see her face. Maybe this was the reason he was wrong this time. Because he couldn't see her. He'd never be able to see her. Did it matter to her? No, it didn't. Not at all. Auggie didn't see her face, her expression when he told her those words. But it was still her Auggie, he always knew how she felt. She didn't quite know how he did it, but he simply did.
"I can literally hear you smiling." Yes, she would be smiling again. But it wouldn't be a real smile anymore. She would fake a real smile when he's around, to pretend everything was fine. But it wasn't. He was flying to Africa, to tell Parker he loved her. He'd tell a woman he loved her. And it wasn't Annie. It never would be. In his eyes everything they shared was a deep friendship, nothing more. Did she read him completely wrong? She truly believed he wanted this, her. Annie had to laugh. She didn't even know he was in a serious relationship with Parker. Not until now. Annie only knew about a few dates. Didn't best friends tell each other such things? Maybe they didn't even share this. But she loved Auggie.
At this thought she had to laugh again. Didn't she promise herself not to fall for a man until she was sure he'd never hurt her? But Auggie managed to creep into her heart and when she realized it, it was too late already. Her heart belonged to a man who wouldn't appreciate it. Auggie didn't even know she loved him and she'd never tell him the truth now. He abandoned her, like everyone did. He wasn't any different.
Annie focused on the road again. Where was she going? She didn't care. She just wanted to get away. As far away as possible. She removed one hand from the wheel, towards her eyes to wipe away the tears that were blurring her view. The sun was setting. How long was she driving already? Thinking about it she decided it didn't matter. What did still matter to her? There was only one answer to her question. Auggie.
"No. Don't let your thought go there again." She told herself. Instead of thinking about Auggie she focused on the landscape rushing by. There were a few trees at the right side of her car, a small river at the left. It looked beautiful, the sun reflecting in the water. But soon the sun was replaced by the moon and stars.
She started the shiver. Was it because the cool wind which was hitting her face or because the emptiness inside her? Once again she wiped away the tears. How many tears could someone cry until there weren't any left? She didn't know the answer and the tears kept blurring her view.
Annie looked around once more. It was quite dark by now. She should turn on the headlights. Suddenly blinding white light appeared in front of her. For a second she was paralyzed. Then the realization hit her. Another car. The other car approached too fast. No, she did. Annie pushed through brake, turning the wheel to get out of the other car's way. She felt her car spin around, heard the jarring of the tires, hers and the other car's. It was like in a movie. Everything seemed to happen slowly, she was watching everything but wasn't able to do anything. A tree to her right came closer and closer and then the car stopped when it collided with it. She fell forward, the seatbelt cutting in her chest, her head crashing into the windshield. From a far distance she heard a scream. After some seconds she realized it was her own.
"I can literally hear you smiling." Rushed through her head once more. She turned her head to look for the other driver, but all she saw was a blinding white light. She felt her consciousness slipping away and the last thing she heard was Auggie's voice in her head: „Smiling."
AN: I'm not sure about this story yet, so please tell me what you think about it.
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