To: My Night Parade

First of all, I would like to apologize to all my comrades who entrusted their hopes and dreams to me, to all those enemies whom I slaughtered mercilessly and to the ones who were just plain loyal to me(that means you, Inugami). I was never strong enough to defeat Nura Rikuo. From the start, I never had the strength. Because of my stupidity, all your lives were lost in vain. Fortunately or unfortunately, the Devil's Hammer is no longer in my possession. I'll leave it to you to ponder whether that is a good thing or a bad thing. It has been a few weeks since I got back to Shikoku. The mountain air is very refreshing and the water is very….I think I'll stop rambling and get to the point.

I. REGRET. EVERYTHING.

Yes, your general has his share of regrets. I regret slaughtering my brothers, I regret losing to that Nura Rikuo(whose name still makes my blood boil), I regret attempting to defeat Nura Rikuo and most of all, I regret losing my Night Parade to a rusty sword! Yes, rub it in my face if you wish. I should have just formed my Night Parade and stopped there. Then maybe I wouldn't have lost all I had. It's true what they say, you never realize what you have until it's gone.

I am a bored, powerless, miserable and lonely tanuki. Yes, you read that last part right. Lonely. Perhaps we could start over? Forget everything, re-introduce ourselves, and maybe grab some ramen….

Oh, what am I doing? You're all dead! I'm just wasting pen and paper writing this, pretending that you all can read this! Of course you can't read this! Once someone has died, you cannot bring them back to tell them how you really feel! I'm just pathetically writing this to comfort myself and make me forget about the words I should have said!

Inugami, do you think you could somehow reincarnate yourself or something? I am seriously losing my head over this whole mess! I feel like throwing myself off the nearest balcony! After all, there's nothing to stop me, right? Damnit, you stupid dog! COME BACK! COME BACK! COME BACK! I don't care what form you take, just let me know there's ONE THING that will stop me from going insane.

There, I've said everything I've been meaning to say. I hope you all read this(though I seriously doubt that) and forgive me(I doubt that, too).

Sincerely yours,

Inugamigyobu Tamazuki/Tamazusa(which ever you prefer)

EDIT: This morning, I was on the cliffside pondering suicide. I was about to throw myself off the cliff when I heard something coming. It was a stray puppy. White, and kinda cute. That wasn't you, was it, Inugami? If it was, well…thanks. Somehow, I don't feel as miserable anymore.

Thanks, again

This is my first fanfic, so please go easy on me. If you have to flame, please try not to be too harsh.

I know this is slightly or very OOC, but I figured that Tamazuki's character might've changed a little after he got back to Shikoku. I mean, if I placed myself in his shoes, I'd totally be depressed and all.