(A/N: Hey lol here is my next story and by the way those of you who read 'Finally it happened' I have a kinda writers block so it's on hold!)
Disclaimer: I own Rumiko Takahashi's left arm, three pieces of gum and a Inuyasha DVD but I don't own Inuyasha
WARNING: This story deals with bulimia, anorexia and cutting and possible rape if any of these topics disturb you then please do not read this fan fiction!...!
Scream in the Night…Chapter 1:
Kagome was anything but normal. Let's just say she wasn't your average 17 year old girl…no she was much more different. It had been a whole two years, going on three, since Kagome had first met her friends in feudal Japan. It had been a whole two years since she had released the silver haired hanyou from the sacred tree. It had been a whole two years since Kagome realized that she loved the hanyou more than life itself. And it had been a whole two ears since she realized that silver haired hanyou would never return her love.
Kagome seemed to be stressed beyond her wildest dreams. Between entrance exams, and her grandfather dieing it seemed like her whole life was against her. Her mother was even starting to blame Kagome for things she didn't even have anything to do with. Her mother once a kind and caring person, began using Kagome as her release for her pent up anger. Kagome who once jumped for joy of the thought that Inuyasha finally allowed her to return to her time was now sulking due to the fact she felt that no one loved her.
Kagome sat in her room where she wouldn't have to talk to anyone. Even Souta, her younger brother, began to notice Kagome's change in mood. Souta knew his mother didn't mean anything she said to her…but Kagome believed anything that came out of her mother's mouth. Souta had just heard Kagome's door slam due to his mother and sister having yet another fight.
Kagome let tears fall as she recalled her mother's words. 'You fat fucking bitch. No wonder Inuyasha could send you home…your just an ugly whore. No one will ever love you!' A few more tears fell to the blankets that covered Kagome's sheets. She placed a hand over the red mark on her face. The mark resembled that of hr mother's hand. It had been the first time Kagome's mother had ever slapped her. It stung both physically and mentally. She looked at herself in the mirror and sighed.
'My mother spoke the truth. How could Inuyasha even stand the sight of me? I'm just a fat ugly girl who no one likes. Why would he?' Kagome asked herself as she got up off her bed and over to her large yellow back pack. She double checked she had everything and slung the backpack over her shoulder. She slowly opened her door and walked down the stairs to the front door. Her eyes were still quite red from crying but she didn't care. She just wanted to return to the feudal era as soon as possible.
She never so much as whispered a good bye as she began the small walk to the well in the shrine. She had come up with a simple solution to her 'fat' problem. She just wouldn't eat. That was the best solution to her becoming skinny. She opened the door and looked at the well which stood ten feet away. She walked over and prepared to jump in. 'Inuyasha I will be skinny…for you' She thought as she jumped and a blue light engulfed her body.
"Inuyasha do you have any idea when Kagome will be back?" asked Shippo the small fox demon. But Inuyasha was getting mad at everyone who kept pestering him about Kagome.
"If I knew that Shippo I wouldn't be waiting for her would I?" asked the irritated Hanyou.
"I guess not…I'm going to check up on Sango and Miroku," said Shippo who wanted to leave the hanyou alone for fear of getting hit.
Inuyasha just sat in the tree, taking in all the scents around him. Kagome was all over his mind lately and he had no idea why. He had noticed that ever since she had confessed her grandfather had died she seemed somewhat…depressed. Her chocolate eyes seemed to show nothing but sadness and despair, instead of there warm and happy sensation they gave off a cold as ice look. Inuyasha just decided she needed some time to think which is why he sent her back to her time three days ago.
Inuyasha breathed in once again. This time picking up the scent of the girl he loved but would never admit it. A few minutes later he saw her walking with her huge bag and a tear stained face. 'She was crying?' Inuyasha thought as she heard Kagome walk into the hut not even noticing him.
"Kagome you're back," yelled the small kitsune as he jumped into Kagome's arms.
"Hey Shippo," said Kagome with almost no emotion. Sango looked instantly worried.
"Kagome is something wrong?" asked the demon exterminator as Kirara tilted her head in confusion.
"Of course not," said Kagome placing a mask over her depressed emotions.
"Feh, wench then why were you crying?" asked Inuyasha. Kagome turned to him startled; she hadn't even heard Inuyasha enter the hut.
"Oh that…ummmm I stubbed my toe on the well and it really hurt," said Kagome. 'Please buy it!'
"Oh I see," said Sango. But Inuyasha wasn't buying it. But in fear of getting sat he decided not persist with bugging her.
"Hey Kagome do you have anything to eat I'm starving," said Shippo as he held his growling stomach.
"I sure do Shippo," said Kagome as she poured fresh water into the electric kettle and waited for it to boil. She poured it into the ramen cups. Giving one to everyone but herself.
"Lady Kagome are you not going to join us with this meal?" asked Miroku.
"Oh no thanks, I had a really big lunch," said Kagome. But the truth was she hadn't eaten anything since she returned to her time three days ago.
"You're missing out Kagome," said Sango. "This is delicious" Kagome felt like she wanted to eat everything right there but she fought her temptations.
"No really I'm still stuffed form dinner"
"Ok then," said Sango as everyone finished the meal Kagome had prepared for them. Kagome cleaned the used dishes and placed them back into her backpack when Inuyasha spoke up.
"I suggest we go back on the search for Naraku…we only have a few more shards to go," said Inuyasha. "Besides now that we have our jewel detector back this will be a lot easier" Kagome's heart sunk when he called her, his shard detector. That hurt her the most. She could put up with wench and bitch but when he called her shard detector, it felt like a demon split her in two.
"That sounds good…so then let's get going," said Miroku as Sango nodded and Kagome just followed them. Inuyasha looked back at her and noticed something was different about her. Kagome kept looking at the ground. Something inside him wanted to ask her what was wrong, but his evil demon side told him she was just a pathetic human he shouldn't even worry about.
"Hey Kagome do you sense any jewel shard near by?" asked Sango.
"No I don't sense anything," said Kagome.
"I assume it would get harder since there are very few shards left to find," said Miroku
"Feh maybe she just lost her touch…stupid shard detector," said Inuyasha. That did it, Kagome snapped.
"SIT! God Inuyasha are you always such a fucking bastard?" asked Kagome as she stomped off into the forest away from everyone. All of the rest of the group stood there with the jaws dropped to the floor. Had Kagome really just used fowl language?
"Stupid bitch," said Inuyasha as he brushed the dirt off of his shoulders. "I hope a demon gets her" Everyone in the group just sweat-dropped. They all knew that in about five minutes he would become worried about her.
Kagome just let the tears fall from her eyes as she sat on the rock near the stream. She picked up a rock and skipped it across the water. 'Why does Inuyasha have to be such a jerk? Why am I even here? He had his precious Kikyo to find the shards.' Kagome's heart hurt so badly when she realized that Inuyasha truly loved Kikyo and not her. She was just Kikyo's copy and nothing more. Sometimes kagome wondered if she should even exist. Ever since her grandfather had died she felt this way.
Kagome had learned that no one would ever love her. She accepted that fact. But she still wanted to be skinny to make Inuyasha happy…his happiness was all she wanted. And if him being with Kikyo meant him being happy she would be happy too.
"When did everything get so complicated?" Kagome asked the river. "Ok Kagome you're officially crazy…I mean who talks to a river?" But back at camp everyone was getting mad at the hanyou who wouldn't sit still. He was moving around so much he was making everyone get a headache.
"Inuyasha please just go get her, you're driving me crazy," said Shippo as he put his hands on his head.
"I'm going for a walk," said Inuyasha as everyone sighed in relief. "But I'm NOT going to get Kagome" So with that Inuyasha set off into the forest for a 'walk' and if he just so happened to bump into Kagome then so be it. Inuyasha noticed she was sitting at the river. She looked so hurt which made Inuyasha's heart fall in guilt. "Kagome?" he said as he made his way towards her.
WHAT!" she snapped as Inuyasha stepped back at her sudden outburst.
"I'm sorry," said Inuyasha
"What ever Inuyasha. Let's just get back to looking for jewel shards ok?" asked Kagome as the shocked Inuyasha nodded and they both headed back to get the others and continue there shard hunting.
The group was once again on the move. Inuyasha still felt guilty about what he said to Kagome but knew she would get over it. Even though her eyes did seem even more emotionless then when she returned from her time.
"Say Inuyasha it's getting late why don't we set up camp?" asked Miroku. Inuyasha nodded and they all began helping with setting up camp. Kagome began to cook supper but made sure that she only cooked enough for everyone else and not her self. She passed food to everyone as Inuyasha raised an eyebrow.
"Why aren't you eating?"
"I'm not hungry Inuyasha," said Kagome as Inuyasha just feh'ed and returned his attention to his food. Kagome was proud that she had been doing so well with her 'diet'. She thought she would feel like she could eat a horse, but the truth was she never even felt hungry.
"Kagome are you sure you don't want to eat anything I mean…" Sango started.
"Im positive I swear im not hungry," Kagome lied and Sango just nodded and returned to finishing her food.
Soon everyone was finished eating and preparing for bed. Kagome rolled out her sleeping bag and crawled into it. She hadn't really had all that much fat on her to begin with. But she placed a hand on her stomach and could feel the exact bone of her ribs. She was doing so well, only a little longer than she would be happy. The tiny fox demon slept beside Kagome within the warmth of the sleeping bag well Inuyasha slept in the tree above them all to keep an eye on the group.
Kagome awoke to feel like she had slept for only a few seconds. She looked at the watch she kept in her yellow bag which read 6 o'clock AM. She grunted as she pulled herself form the sleeping bag being careful not to wake the kitsune. Then something crossed her mind. If she didn't eat breakfast everyone would start to ask questions so how was she supposed to do it? Then it struck her. She would eat then throw up afterwards. It would work perfectly.
Kagome stretched her arms above her head as her shirt lifted a little revealing her body which was close to being paper thin. But unfortunately Inuyasha was not awake to see it. Kagome pulled out the food for breakfast and set it so it was ready to be cooked. She yawned and then decided she would wait for everyone to wake up. But little did everyone know that Kagome's tree of life was about to end up with root rot.
(A/N: Hello please review…this is test and if I get 3-5 reviews I will post another chapter and continue the story. Cutting will be coming in shortly so please be patient, or you could just review)