Chapter 1
Our Fears
Emma opened her eyes and smiled as she felt her and her husband's hands both rested on her slight baby bump. She was 20 weeks pregnant and they were going to learn the gender of the baby after work. Killian opened his eyes and kissed her on the forehead.
"Morning my love." he said with a smile. Emma smiled. "Morning babe." She said. Killian looked at their touching hands and moved to give their child a kiss. "And how is our amazing child this morning?"
Emma smiled. "The baby is fine." Killian kissed her head. "I'm going to go and make you some hot cocoa." Emma nodded. She sat up and she gasped as her hands went to her stomach. "Killian!" Killian came running in.
"What is it? What's the matter?" he asked, fear gripping his voice. She took his hand and put it to her stomach. He gasped and sat down next to her and put his other hand on her stomach. He looked at her with amazement.
"That's our baby moving in there." Emma said with a smile. Killian laughed and looked at his wife. "I couldn't be happier than I am right now." He said with a smile. Emma smiled and closed her eyes as she felt their child moving around.
Then suddenly fear gripped her. She feared that even if their baby had everyone, herself included protecting it, that it still wouldn't be enough. She feared every day that Pan was coming to take the baby away.
She would lay in bed at night as her husband slept and would worry. Tears filled her eyes and Killian looked up. "Emma, what's the matter love?" Emma shook her head and wiped her eyes. "Nothing." she said.
Killian took her hand. "Emma, what's the matter?" Emma sighed. "Pan." Killian nodded and took her in his arms and kissed the side of her head. "Emma, you don't have to worry about Pan. No one is going to let anything happen to our baby. And I will die before that demon gets a hold of our child. I promise."
Emma nodded. "So please don't stress yourself out." Killian kissed the side of her head and he got up. "I'm going to finish your hot cocoa and then we should head to work." Emma sighed. "I don't understand why I even bother going to work, all I do is paperwork. No one will let me do any field work."
Killian chuckled. "Because you don't need the stress and we don't want you to do anything that will endanger you or the baby." Emma sighed. "I know. I just feel useless." Killian sighed. "You aren't useless. Now go on and get dressed. We need to leave soon."
Emma nodded and got dressed while Killian made the hot cocoa and his coffee. Emma dropped Killian at the dock and she headed into the office. "Morning Emma." said David. "Morning Dad." Emma said, sitting down.
The day passed by boringly for Emma. She hated just sitting around and doing paperwork. She looked at the clock. She still had another hour. She sighed and put her head on the desk. "I hate this." she mumbled.
She picked her head up and looked at her stomach. "But if it means that you are safe, then that's all that matters." Soon it was time for her to go and pick up Killian. She left and picked up Killian and they headed to the doctor's office. Emma was sitting and she started to laugh.
"What?" asked Killian. "If someone told me three years ago that I was going to have Dr. Frankenstein see what the gender my baby would be I would have laughed in their face." Killian chuckled.
"What about the fact that you are having a baby with the infamous Captain Hook?" He asked, arching his eyebrows. Emma laughed. "I wouldn't have believed it." she said. Dr. Whale came in and sqeezed the gel on her stomach and put the wand onto her stomach.
A heartbeat filled the room. Killian sat down and took her hand. He was still amazed everytime he heard the heartbeat. "Everything looks good and the baby sounds healthy." Killian and Emma looked at each other and smiled.
"I'll let you change and then I'll let you know the gender of the baby." They nodded. Whale came back after Emma changed back into her clothes. "Okay, you ready to hear the gender?" They both nodded.
"It looks like you are having a girl." Killian hugged Emma right off the table. He set her down and kissed her quickly. "Thank you Whale." said Emma. Whale nodded and left the room. Killian looked at Emma.
"We are having a girl. We are going to have a daughter." He said, unable to stop smiling. Emma smiled and nodded. "Yeah, we are having a daughter." She said with a smile. Emma and Killian invited her parents, Regina, Robin, Roland and Henry over to tell them the news.
Emma cooked dinner and her mother looked at Emma. "So, what was the news that you wanted to tell us?" asked Mary Margaret. Killian took Emma's hand. "We are having a girl." said Emma. Everyone erupted in applause. Emma was attacked in a hug by her mother.
"Congratulations mate." said Robin, patting Killian on the shoulder. Henry hugged his mother. "So I get a little brother and a little sister." he said with a smile. Suddenly a green cloud of smoke filled in the room and it suddenly disappeared.
Everyone looked around and there laid a piece of paper. Emma picked the paper up and her hands started to shake as tears filled her eyes. Emma turned into her husband's chest and started to sob. Regina took the paper from her shaking friend's hand.
"I heard that it's a girl. I look forward to the day of her birth. P." Everyone looked at Emma as she sobbed in her husband's chest. "That bastard has been watching us this whole time!?" Killian boomed as he tried to calm down his wife.
"Emma, you have nothing to worry about. You still have all of us to help you protect your daughter. There is nothing to worry about." Emma looked at her parents. "It still won't be enough. Nothing is going to be enough to protect her."
Her mom looked at her. "So you're just going to give up? That's not the Emma we know." Emma shook her head. "I'm so sick of fighting. I don't want to fight anymore. I just want to live a life with my family. I want my daughter to be safe and I don't want to lay in bed all night and worry about whether or not I will be able to see her grow up. I'm done."
She walked to her room and shut the door. "Okay well the first thing is first. Emma shouldn't be leaving the house anymore if Pan is already watching her." said Regina. "We can't just lock her in this house. She'll go crazy." said Killian.
"Then we will try some charms. Hide her and the baby." They all agreed. They all decided to leave. Henry walked over to Killian. "I want to stay here tonight. I'm worried about mom." Killian nodded and Henry went to his room.
Killian started the dishes and Henry came out to help. After that was done Henry went to the living room to watch a movie. Killian walked into their room and there was his wife, curled up crying.
Killian behind her and took his sobbing wife in to his arms. "Please don't stress yourself out like this. You have nothing to worry about. No one will let our daughter be taken." he kissed her head. "As long as I breathe, our daughter will be safe."
Emma nodded. She looked at Killian. "I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you and my amazing family." Killian smiled and kissed her. He dropped his head and kissed her stomach. "And I love you and your mother so very much little one."
Emma smiled. "Henry decided to stay the night, he is worried for you." Emma got up and they both joined Henry in the living room to watch the movie with him. Killian looked over and smiled. Emma and Henry were both asleep.
Emma had her arm around her son and he was resting his head on her shoulder. Killian smiled and turned the tv off, waking Henry. "Sorry lad, I didn't mean to wake you." Henry shook his head. "It's okay." He looked at his mom and smiled.
"I'm just glad that she's sleeping." Killian nodded. "Aye." Killian picked her up safely and carried her into the bedroom. Henry went to bed as well.
Emma was walking in white. "Hello? Killian? Henry? Anyone?" She went around in circles, trying to figure out where she was. Suddenly she stopped and her eyes rested on Pan. Emma wrapped her arms around her child and she backed up.
Pan walked up to her. Suddenly Emma looked down and her stomach was flat and she looked over and there was a crying baby girl in Pan's arms.
"No! Give her back!" Emma demanded. Pan laughed as he flew away with her daughter. "No! NO! NOOOOOO!" She begged, her daughter's cries echoing in her head.
Emma bolted upright and she was panting. She looked over and Killian still slept. She debated to wake him. She laid her head back down and she tried to fall back asleep. She wrapped her arms around her stomach and she started to cry.
'I swear, nothing is going to happen to you. I'll die for you.' She closed her eyes and prayed that she wouldn't be plagued with nightmares.
Killian woke up the next morning to an empty bed. "Emma?" he called out as he walked through the house. He started to worry. "Emma? Emma?" he asked, worry lacing his voice. He looked and he sighed in relief.
She was sitting on the pier and she was watching the water. He walked out and sat next to her. Emma looked at him. She had dark circles under her eyes. "Emma, love are you alright?" Emma nodded and looked back at the water.
"Have you slept at all?" he asked. Emma shook her head. "Not really." Killian looked at her with worry. "What's going on with you?" Emma shook her head. "It's nothing. Don't worry about it." She got up and started to walk away.
Killian got up and took her hand. "Emma, there is something wrong and you won't tell me. What the hell is going on?" Emma looked at him. "I had nightmares all night. It's nothing. Drop it." She walked away to him.
Killian sighed as he watched his wife walk away. 'I wish I could take away your fear my love.' He followed her short after. A few weeks passed and Emma was still on edge most of the time. She always worried that Pan was going to appear and take her and their daughter to Neverland.
Killian worried about her health but decided to give her space. He was able to talk to Mary Margaret to plan a surprise baby shower for her. He hoped that it would be the perfect way to cheer up Emma.
Emma walked out of the shower to a steaming cup of cocoa sitting on her vanity. She smiled and she got dressed and walked out to the kitchen to give Killian a kiss. "Thank you." Killian nodded. "So are we stil joining your parents at Granny's?" Emma nodded.
"Yeah, I'm ready when you are." Killian nodded and they hopped into her bug and they drove to everyone's favorite diner. Emma came in and the whole diner was covered in decorations. There was banners and balloons.
There were presents sitting on a table and there was a cake. Emma smiled and looked over to where her family was standing.
Emma smiled and hugged her mother. "Surprise Emma." said Mary Margaret. Emma smiled. "Thank you." She looked over and walked over to Killian. "Thank you." She said to him, kissing his cheek. Killian nodded. Emma sat down and she spent time with her parents. Soon it was time to open presents.
Emma got a stroller and car seat from Regina and Robin. She got some outfits from her parents. Marco walked over to her. "I have something for the little Princess." He took Emma's hand and led her outside. There was a crib with a hook and a Swan made into a heart on the head of it.
Emma gasped and she looked at Marco. "Oh, it's beautiful. Thank you so much." she said, hugging him. He looked at her with a smile. "And it can be the little Princess' until she is a small child. It grows with her."
Emma smiled. "Thank you so much." He smiled and nodded. "You're welcome." Killian and David put the crib in the back of his truck for now. After that they joined the others back inside.
"Emma, did you figure out a name for our granddaughter yet?" asked Mary Margaret. Emma shook her head. "Not yet. There are so many names, I haven't really thought about her name yet." she said.
Mary Margaret nodded. "Don't worry, you'll know the right name." Emma nodded and smiled. Killian helped her to load the stuff into the car and they got in to the car.
"Thank you Killian. That was the best time that I've had in a while." Killian nodded with a smile. "Of course love." Emma frowned and she looked at him. She pulled up to their house. "I wanted to apologize to you." Killian's brows furrowed.
"Why?" Emma turned to face him. "I wanted to apologize for my behavior. I know that I haven't been very nice lately. I don't mean to be. I just get more terrified with every passing day." Killian nodded and kissed her head.
"I know love. You have every right to act the way you have been, but I want you to know that you are not alone in that fear. I fear everyday that I will lose both you and our daughter. But perhaps it would be better that we get through this fear together."
Emma nodded and he hugged her tightly. They brought all of the stuff in and they sat down on the sofa. "So mom brought up a good point. We really need to figure out what we want to call our daughter." said Emma.
Killian nodded. "Are there any names that you fancy?" asked Killian. Emma shrugged. "I don't know. I haven't really thought about it." Killian nodded. "Are there any names that you like?" Emma asked. Killian nodded.
"Aye. One name in particular." Emma nodded. "It's Sophia. The name of my mother." Emma sat and thought about the name. "I love it." Killian looked up at Emma. "You do?" he asked. She nodded.
She put her hand on her stomach. "What do you think Sophia? Do you like the name?" She received a kick. She took Killian's hand and put it on her stomach where she was last kicked. "I think that she loves her name." Killian nodded. "Aye. Our little Sophia." He whispered as he kissed her stomach.