Promise

By The Chichi Slaughter House

Disclaimer: …If I owned KyoSora, would Kuu really have got together with Kyoshiro at the end with the loliness of it all? No. So I don't own it. If it had been up to me, Setsuna would have taken Kuu and had a great ending because she's awesome.

Warnings: Shoujo-ai/yuri content; i.e. girls loving girls, possibly one-sided, not canon coupling, possibly creepy and/or disturbing, OOC, first-person perspective, SetsunaxKuu. Some spoilers, but there were more in the disclaimer.

I'm grateful to those who reviewed my last SetsuKuu fic; you all made me really happy. I was worried that I'd fail, but you've given me confidence: thank you. I'm also very sorry; I like angst and I know some asked for a real get-together, but I'm not ready to do that yet… Anyway, onward we go!

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Shiratori Kuu.

From the moment I saw her on the rooftop, I knew that she was special.

And not just because she was an Absolute Angel either, but because she was so pure and beautiful that I was entranced to stare at her until her voice broke the silence. I just couldn't take my eyes off of her.

The way her deep ocean eyes stared at me made me feel bare; as if I was naked in front of her and that she could see straight into my heart and know my secrets. Her hands were up near her mouth – a habit that I cannot call anything but adorable – as she gazed at me in what I think was wonderment or awe.

I could feel her eyes scanning every inch of my face, and though it felt intimate, I forced myself not to blush, continuing to look on. Moments passed before our eyes met, and the spark I felt then was something I'd never felt before. I'm tempted to call it 'attraction', yet that word doesn't cover it at all.

I realise now that the feelings I had toward my master Kyoshiro were not that of romance, but more towards the affection and protectiveness of siblings or that of a mother towards her child.

I'd never wanted anyone or anything so much in my life than when I'd looked at her, and the desire to have her made me anxious to touch. The knowledge that I could not have her burned in my mind, and I was forced to retreat before I ruined Kyoshiro's plan.

Tearing myself away was hard and painful, but I did so anyway.

Because I knew I'd see her again.

Despite that, my own weakness caused me to lose sight of Badras because I had distracted myself by looking at the other girl for so long, but I tried not to let him down. He is still my master after all. However, it turned out fine and I am glad for it.

A lot has happened since then; she has come to live with us, met Murakumo and Badras, and yet, she is still unaware of the awesome hidden power her body contains. I've wished so many times to just be able to tell her, but I have held my tongue and not told a word.

Kyoshiro strictly forbids it until he is sure that he can control her the same way he does with me, only to kill us both at the end. We will merely be a means to an end; to avenge his brother's death. He treats me like a tool and disregards my feelings, and I am sure he will do the same to her.

It will be crueller to her than I, I think, because at least I know what is going on and have lived some part of my life aware of what I am. The shock of the new knowledge will probably be too much for a gentle girl like her.

When she feels sad by her fate, I swear I will be there to comfort her. I had no one around who knew of my pain, or could understand it when it was my turn, and I am sure that my presence will help her get through it.

My lovely, charming Kuu; I will always wait for when you need me, and I will open my arms to you so that you may shed your tears and cling to my warmth as often as you need. I will always look after you; even to the point of my own death will I be thinking of you. I pray for nothing more than your happiness, and I will do my best to ensure that you get it.

I promise.