Preface


I want to seek help but I don't want to admit I was wrong. I don't want to admit to him that I am, indeed, mentally ill. I want him to see my issues as valid. I want someone to actually help me. Instead of turning a blind eye and saying "What is wrong with you? Are you bipolar?" No. I'm a person with valid emotions who currently needs assistance separating my emotions from the reality. I let my emotions rule my actions, which is either a really bad idea or a progressively mature one. Probably not the latter. I don't want to lose him but i cant stop myself from starting a fight. Why doesn't he see my emotions as valid? Why doesn't he, at least try, to understand and work through my feelings with me? Why does he immediately resort to shrugging me off and calling me crazy?

Because, my friends. He is a man.