a/n: Agh... I'm uploading stuff like crazy it feels D: . . . Anyhow, this is another story that a friend helped write. [Nawa-chan The three main characters are Saix, Xemnas, and Marluxia I suppose... ; It was meant as a oneshot; but will be followed by a bonus story of the direct aftermath (where Marluxia comes in)... This story includes Christmas themes ,because this is a late X-mas story, sorry Here's the story although:

Misunderstood

A Kingdom Hearts fanfiction

Saïx flipped through the heavy dictionary, glancing over pages looking for the one word...

mis·un·der·stand

Pronunciation: (ˌ)mi-ˌsən-dər-ˈstand

Function: transitive verb

Inflected Form(s): mis·un·der·stood -ˈstu̇d; mis·un·der·stand·ing

Date: 13th century

1 : to fail to understand

2 : to interpret incorrectly

He grabbed the thesaurus from beside him; he thumbed through the pages and found the same word:

misunderstand

Function: verb

Text: to fail to understand the true or actual meaning of you misunderstood that poem because you didn't look up the words you didn't know

Synonyms: misapprehend, misconstrue, misinterpret, misread, miss, mistake

Related Words: misconceive

Antonyms: apprehend, catch, comprehend, conceive, fathom, grasp, know, make out, penetrate, perceive, savvy, see, seize, take in, understand

The Luna Diviner sat still momentarily to think about himself... 'Yes.' He told himself 'I am merely misunderstood...' He pushed his blue hair back behind his ears and read other words on the page; his gaze fell upon 'miscreant'. He scowled; it meant 'Unbelieving, Heretical' and also 'Depraved, Villainous'. He slammed the book shut and threw it across the room, snarling at it.

"Damnit!" He stomped his foot on the ground as he stood to retrieve the book. Slowly, he set the book on its shelf alongside the thesaurus. He paced back and forth, eying the laptop that lay on the tabletop. Most everyone in the Organization had one… and an e-mail. Oddly enough, he knew Namine's… He bit his lip, something tugged at him inside, about the blonde haired female, a feeling of regret somewhat… Sax sat down at the table again and signed onto his e-mail, then typed up a message to be sent to Namine…

A while later, he shut his laptop and smiled, he had finally made amends with Namine, a goal he had longed to accomplish. He had to deliver her present soon, the mood flower as he called it. Marluxia had been nice enough to help the berserker find it in the first place. Marluxia had also wanted to make amends, and it seemed as though he already had. Saïx shrugged and checked his watch, for no reason. He knew it was still December 25th, still Christmas. Absurd how easily Saïx had adapted this holiday and how much he enjoyed it. He thought of the plant mistletoe, Marluxia grew it, and it was used to get people to kiss. His mind flashed to the Superior and Six's painful decision. Gulping, he got back out of his chair and exited the Library.

Worry filled the Seventh's thoughts, he fretted about telling the Superior about his feelings. The two had been lovers for... a long time it seemed. Lovers? Saïx chuckled nervously, as if they could love, they were nobodies...

He needed to break it off with the Superior, let go of him once and for all... Saïx felt sick, what would happen if the Superior got angry? Lord knew Saïx could handle happy or sad or confused Superior but angry? Heavens no, all hell would break loose...

"Aw Shit what if he doesn't want to?! I mean duh he wouldn't want to... I'm breaking up with him... but what if he were to get mad?!" Saïx looked around; making sure no one could hear his thoughts. He was ... scared of the Superior's rage, however rarely he'd seen it. He stopped walking, standing on a steps lost in thoughts. Thoughts of what could and might happen filled Saix's head. His hands curled around clumps of his long hair. Unable to think straight, Saïx collapsed to the ground, frustrated and annoyed at himself. Did he still love Xemnas? Why was he breaking up with him in the first place? Why now? Why on Christmas? Why couldn't it wait until later?

"Unnn..." He stood and stumbled up the stairs, frowning. His mind was made up.

"Superior?" Saïx called, knocking with his knuckles on the door. Impatient, Saïx tapped his foot rhythmically on the ground, trying his best not to break down the door... but oh how tempting that thought was. He recited the scene in his head, the optimum outcome for Saïx. He would come in, sit down and start a normal conversation, perhaps about Christmas. He would bring up Marluxia, then mistletoe, and it would seem like an accident... he'd look away and mumble something incoherent. Then... Xemnas would be quiet as he thought hard about Saix's actions, and then he would sigh and ask if Saïx was trying to break up. Then if able, Saïx would reply yes and then . . .

"Oh God I can't do this...!" Saïx muttered, gritting his teeth together. He was so screwed...

Xemnas sighed softly as he sat in his desk. He shuffled a few papers around, decided which mission should go to which Nobody. He looked off the to the right where two separate stacks of paper lay; missions for Demyx and Axel.

He growled a little as he thought of the fiery redhead. That little incident at dinner some weeks back still left him irritated at the pyro. He knew how the others 'felt' towards him and he understood that he had that coming to him for a while, but he couldn't help think that Axel took it a little overboard that day.

Being brought out of his thoughts by a knock at his door, he stood up and walked over to it, putting a hand on the doorknob. Not many came to his door willingly... unless they needed something from him.

Banishing the thought from his mind, he turned the knob and opened the door to see Saïx standing there. He noted that the Berserker seemed stressed and nervous about something. Xemnas only wanted to know what. "Is there something you need, Saïx?" he asked, his voice having a calm tone to it.

"Uh I just nee-- wanted to talk to you! That's all… sorry if I'm being a nuisance..." A small blush crept onto Saix's cheeks; he looked to the floor to avoid the Superior's wondering amber eyes. He couldn't say it, not just out in the open right there... not when the Superior's voice sounded so kind. He trudged into the office, footsteps loud as usual, and sat down in one of the comfortable chairs, however few there were...

"May I ask what all the papers are for, Superior?" Saïx asked shyly, voice in a low voice, gaze fixed on the stack of documents piled neatly on Xemnas' desk. Turning around, he looked to Xemnas quickly, examining his long whitish gray hair, his naturally tanned skin, and his normally cold yellow eyes. Xemnas moved to the side, allowing Saïx to come inside.

"You aren't being a nuisance. In fact, I was just about to take a break." he said. "Mm?" he looked over to the stacks on his desks... "Oh those. They're just a few missions for the others." he said.

His gaze ventured over to where the blue-haired Nobody was sitting. From the back, the Berserker seemed tense about something. Something that must have been important for him to be here and acting the way he was right now.

"Is there a problem?" he asked, watching as Saïx seemed to scan him for something. Shuddering, Saïx whipped back around, this would possibly the last time Xemnas would ever speak with such a soft tone to Saïx again. Regretting the actions he was about to take, Saïx jumped out of the chair and bounded over to Xemnas. He pulled him into a swift embrace and grasped the Superior's coat tightly. He pulled back slightly and caught the other man's chin; he closed the gap between the two. Suddenly, Xemnas found himself being held tightly and kissed by Saïx. He wondered what brought this on, since the Berserker normally didn't kiss him for any reason whatsoever.

'Please forgive me, my love...'

The Luna Diviner held Xemnas to him, fiercely and passionately kissing the Superior, a final kiss goodbye. He broke apart and ran out of the room, tears forming. He panted slightly as Saïx pulled away, running from the room.

"I'm sorry Xemnas, but this is goodbye."

He froze in his spot. Goodbye? He closed his door slowly, his eyes to the ground. He didn't understand. Saïx had just broken up with him... and it hurt so much. He put his back against the door, sliding down to the ground. He and Saïx had been together for quite some time now and, even though Nobodies couldn't feel, he had loved the Berserker.

He put his hand on his chest, over the area of where his heart would have been, and gripped it, wincing a little. It had only been what? Five minutes since Saïx had left and already he could feel his 'heart' breaking--no... shattering into a million pieces...

Saïx ran, ran from the painful heartbreak he'd just put both of the nobodies through. The act of running slowly became rhythm until Saïx didn't even try to run. Tears streamed down his face as he ran, countless Dusks stood by while Saïx practically flew down the flights of stairs. Finally, after going through nineteen different corridors, going down fifty six flights of stairs, Saïx collapsed onto the ground.

Xemnas sighed as he ran a hand through his silvery-white hair and stood, walking back over to his desk and sitting back down in his chair. He had some more paperwork to finish, even though he didn't want to do it. Sighing again, he laid his down on his desk.

"I'm so sorry, Superior..." He cried out, into the deep silence of the castle. His goodbye was cast, tears had been shed, and their 'love' was probably never to return. He had spoke the Superior's name, an act he had forbidden himself to do, it made him think of himself as an equal or higher-up to the Superior, and he didn't want to be. He was satisfied with being a lower, a lapdog. Anger… his Berserker side kicked in suddenly and rage filled the Luna Diviner. He stood and whipped around to glare at Kingdom Hearts.

"Why do you give us so much pain?! Why, Kingdom Hearts?! WHY?!" He yelled, summoning his claymore, he broke through the window and leaped onto the terrace below. A fight, he wanted to fight, to take his anger out, his frustration, his pain. He threw his weapon across the terrace and ran off of the terrace onto a grassy plain below. His golden eyes focused on a large cluster of nobodies. He jumped at them and fought them with his bare hands, his pain fueling the battle. The nobodies faded away and the battle concluded, Saïx panted heavily.

He looked at his hands; they hurt from fighting his Berserkers, Axel's Assassins and Creepers. His chest ached from the loss of his loved one, and what hurt more was that he could still be with Xemnas. He knelt in the grass, and stared up at the heart shaped moon.

"Kingdom Hearts, where are our hearts? Why must you pain us nobodies to an eternity of nothingness?" His blue hair fell over his face, like curtains, concealing his tears. He wanted nothing more than to be with Xemnas, to say he's sorry and that they weren't breaking up, that they could still remain together for an eternity... His hands traced along the x shaped scar on his face, a mark he got as a somebody he thought... He looked once again at Kingdom Hearts before standing and running once again, from the aching love.

--Coda--