Prologue:
If anyone falls:
Even when she joked and laughed with her female age-mates, talked about all of their more masculine classmates, Ahsoka had never wanted to seriously fall in love. It was a disability for a Jedi to do so, she knew, though many had infamously done it: She wasn't sure about Anakin, but rumours frequently surfaced involving Obi-Wan, Aayla Secura and Kit Fisto, Quinlan Vos, even Mace Windu.
She wasn't sure if that lack of desire had prolonged anything, though, because as she watched Anakin talk to one of the Clones, watched him crack some joke she couldn't hear, she realized -a gradual falling, probably, but to her if felt like suddenly and unexpectedly being dipped in carbonite- she just might be in love.
Why? Why now did attraction stir within her? And in the middle of a war, of all places! Completely inappropriate.
But it couldn't be helped, as much as she tried. She heard his voice, and her heart leapt. She tried to spar with him, and yet she kept getting distracted by him. She acted normally enough, repressing her feelings in the Jedi way, but every day when she woke up, she wondered if she could wear that front again.
This was not right, by any means. He was too old. She was not mature enough. It was, simply and purely, wrong. Through all of this, she was holding that small nugget of knowledge close inside, but it wasn't helping.
In her heart, though, she was trying to be older and more mature, being everything that she was supposed to. And if that wasn't enough, she would make it be.
She would have to. Neither of them was supposed to have fallen in love with the other, but one had.
Now what?
if anyone falls in love
It will be one of us
-Stevie Nicks
a/n: This is sort of a piece parallel to "Midnight," one of my previous stories. Like that one, it does deal with the onesided Anakin/Ahsoka pairing (note onesided; Anakin will in no way be sharing her feelings) but it spins off in that the ending will be different from that story.
As this is an almost illicit pairing to be writing, seeing as there is a gap in both age and maturity in them, I will be doing my best to deal with it accordingly. I plan to keep the chapters to the 'T' rating; however, if anyone is uncomfortable with this, please notify me, and I will willingly move it up.
This came to be from a review to "Midnight" about how Ahsoka's motives for liking Anakin weren't too detailed. This is my attempt to work out why she would like him.
The story does jump around in time a bit -the prologue actually takes place after the first chapter- but I'll note when these take place.
As a closing note, I'm getting most of my inspiration to write these oneshots from different songs, so if anyone has any recommendations, I'd love to hear them!