A/N: The relationship between Rufus and his mother is a completely open book, so I though 'Why not?' I keep getting writers block, so this is the result XD Usual disclaimers apply, Enjoy!

My Dearest Rufus,

How long has it been? Five, six years? I saw you on the news recently. You haven't changed at all. You're so different to your father, especially your looks. Where on Gaia do you get your handsomeness from? Certainly not me, nor your father…

I'm writing to you because I need to feel some connection with you. You are still my son, my flesh and blood no matter what your idiot of a father said.

I remember the day I had to leave you. You must have been sixteen. You weren't stupid, you knew what was happening. I remember your father restraining you when the guards took me, you kept shouting "Bring her back! Let go of her!" do you remember?

Probably not. I bet you want to forget everything about your past, I bet you focus on your presidential duties. You were always like that. You always stayed focused, even at school.

I'm proud of you, son. I Always will be. Sure, your not as foolish as your father, and that was his faults. That's why he's dead. Good riddance I say. It's mean I know, but he never was a good father to you, was he? Always pushing you to the side when you needed him. I remember that time… You must have been about five and your Action Man broke. You cried and asked your father for a new one, but he was far too busy to listen. He told you to "Leave him alone and stop acting like a baby" Do you remember? I shouted at him and he hit me. I didn't want you to see that, I'm ever so sorry. Your little five year old mind must have been in turmoil. He was a horrible man, was your father, I prayed you wouldn't grow up like him, and well dear, you haven't. Using power to control people? I will not voice my opinion on your way of working, I am your mother after all, and I should be behind you.

All that aside I hope you're in good health. You were at a conference recently, it was televised. I saw you in your white suit and laughed. White has always been your favourite colour hasn't it? You had a white room, I remember. You were practically camouflaged into the background from the amount of white clothes you wore!

I also hope you have a good house maid, you never where too good at washing. It takes a lot to get stains out of white clothes!

Joking aside, I am no longer in Wutai, I had to move. I cannot tell you where I'm currently residing. It's such a shame as I would have loved a reply.

I'm sorry Rufus, I simply cannot fill this letter with the six years I've missed of your life. You'll always be in my heart and I thank my lucky stars you're ok. I've enclosed a picture of us, when you were first born, apologies about my tears, I was overcome with emotion about your preciousness. It's the only picture I have of you, I kept it close to my heart and in a safe place. Your father threw the rest of the pictures in the fire the day I was taken away from you.

It pains me so much to the point I'm weeping that I can no longer see you. You probably wouldn't recognise me, if we met in the streets. Father Time has not been nice to me.

I sometimes feel like dropping everything and going to Midgar to visit you, because son, deep down in my heart I just want to reach out and hold you, like a mother should. I'm still wracked with guilt over that fateful day, I can't apologise enough.

Please be more careful with the planet, it's life stream is our sole purpose of survival, I'm even starting to sound like a nagging mother now.

I'll keep praying for your safety. I hope you can make me proud, and show the people what ShinRa are all about.

I miss you everyday, and it still pains me to write this, knowing you probably won't even read it.

I hoped I would began feeling numb, but alas, no such luck. You're always in my thoughts and dreams, remember that. I love you, Rufus and I always will.

Best wishes, and all my love,

Your loving mother.