Authors Notes: Much love, Lucy-Jane x
-All human.
-No love. (so far.)
-The Cullen's are not in this chapter, don't be disapointed, they will be here soon
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-I'll try and update as much as possible. I'm busy, and suffer with writers block alot.
-If I feel a certain song fits a part, I'll add it in italics... Youtube them if you like.
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I stubbed out my cigarette and took a swig of my water. I live off water, tobacco, and Special K, and I occasionally drink alcohol, if I haven't ate all day. It's my diet. I want to be slim. I want to be beautiful. I want a real family, instead of a shitty foster one. I'm Bella Swan. My Parents abandoned me at children's home shortly after I was born. They were hippies and they couldn't handle having a child. I now live with my foster parents, Suzanne and Peter and their 13 year old twins Louise and Luke. I don't fit in with them, they are a dream family. I'm a fat 16 year old that nobody really likes because I am so fat. I'm a size 2. It's disgusting. I checked my phone once and stepped back into the house. "Bella, what have we told you about being up and outside at this hour. And also, smoking in the front yard! Do you realise how trashy you make this family look?" Suzanne droned. I ignored her and went up to bed.
I shared a fair sized room with Louise. She was a sweet kid. And she looked up to me, like a real big-sister. I've never understood why though. I'm nothing special, at all. "Bella?" Louise whispered after I stripped off and changed into my pyjamas. "You're supposed to be asleep. What do you want?" I whispered back.
"Why do you smoke?" She asked quietly,
"Because it calms me down, and stops me craving food." I answered sharply.
"Why don't you eat?"
"Because I am fat." I sighed.
"No you're n-"
"Shut up and sleep."
When I woke up the next morning I checked my phone and realised it was Saturday. I liked Saturdays, It was the only time I was actually aloud to see my friends. Suzanne and Peter disallowed me from seeing people on weekdays because they felt my grades would suffer. I'm a good student, I just didn't behave. I sat up and noticed Louise was trying to put an outfit together, she must be off out also. "Hey, where are you going?" I asked.
"Just out, anywhere I can. I'm meeting some friends." She smiled. I'm glad she was getting out more. I didn't want her to be some sad loner. I texted a few people and made plans to meet up at the park. People were going to bring alcohol, and this pleased me. It had been too long since I had last got drunk, and high.
"Hey, scrawny. How much weight have you lost this week?" Jared laughed as he pulled up to my house on his bike. "I haven't weighed myself, Suzanne hid the scales. She's trying to say she's concerned. I think she's just out to get me."
I climbed on and we made our way to the park talking about anything and everything. Jared was such an easy character to get along with. He was a real friend that you could always trust with your problems. "I know you won't listen, but you really don't need to lose anymore- "
"You're right, I'm not going to listen, because it is a lie." I silenced him quickly. It was my goal to be size 0. And I would score that goal, one way or another. We arrived at the park and Jared locked up his bike knowing he wouldn't be able to ride it back later. He had a chequered back-pack on, full of alcohol, and probably weed. We joined the rest of group and began slowly but surely drinking and smoking all of our worries away into the evening. Hadouken- Get Smashed Gate Crash.
I finally got home at 00:56 and stumbled into the house barely able to wetalk. It was dark in the hall and I gasped when the light suddenly flickered on and Suzanne stood in the sitting room door-frame with her arms folded over her pink flannel house coat. She walked up to me and looked me up and down, then took a sniff. "You're drunk!" She exploded as she slapped me around the face. "Don't be silly!" I said putting my shaking hand on her shoulder "I'm also with the fairies!" I beamed, unaware of what I was getting myself into.
"That is it! I have had it with you! You leave me no choice but to put you back into care! You listen to me when I am talking to you!" She took my face and turned it to hers. "Tomorrow you are packing your bags, and you are out of here for good!" I laughed in her face and she snapped her head away from me. "See if I care you stuck up bitch. Rot in hell." I gave her the finger and stomped off to bed.