Now I'm Nothing
"Love is one of the most intense feelings felt by man; another is hate. Forcing yourself to feel indiscriminate love is very unnatural. If you try to love everyone you only lessen your feelings for those who deserve your love. Repressed hatred can lead to many physical and emotional aliments. By learning to release your hatred towards those who deserve it, you cleanse yourself of these malignant emotions and need not take your pent-up hatred out on your loved ones."
― Anton Szandor LaVey, The Satanic Bible
That which I want I reach for, but I hesitate.
Would it be this way if I ate?
Indulging myself in the ways of the world,
I ask myself, am I getting old?
As the fire burns my skin and my body starts aching,
I try to stand still, but I realize I'm shaking.
I've fallen from the highest to where I am now.
I don't want to go back, just so you know.
Selfishness and greed drive my being, I wouldn't have it any other way.
I love you, I'd do anything if you stayed.
My hopes and dreams have been circumcised, I didn't ask for this.
Forbidden pleasure and happiness, what happened to our bill of rights?
I'm an animal, nothing can change this.
That's not a bad thing once you change the settings.
It took me a while to learn, but negativity has its perks.
Just make sure they're not jerks.
The human is not a wise man, denying reason for faith and tradition.
The skeptic stands alone, questioning everything, even himself, or is that just a vision?
It's as Nietzsche said, god is dead.
Not much has changed, there's just no more dread.
Author's Note: Cover picture is from Trent Reznor's music video "Closer"