Title: Forever gone

Chapter: 1

By: Der4Mer4ever

Meredith laughed. Her hair was shining in the sun, and her body so beautiful. Derek watched her as she ran into the water. The lake was so near the cottage that Derek could see her from the window. It was their last day on the honeymoon trip, and the weather was fantastic. Derek smiled as he tough about their wedding. He remembered the day he had proposed very well. It had been the most wonderful day of his life. Now he was married to her. The girl from the bar. The broken intern and the love of his life. She was all he ever wanted, all he needed. She was his wife, he was her husband. He went back to reality when he heard the calling him.

"Are you coming? The water is lovely", her head went under the water again, before she once more came up and let the water ran down her cheek. She was happy, he could see it.

"Right on my way", he called back before he walked towards the door and out in the sun.

With a splash he was out in the water too. He duck under the water and swam toward her. She laughs and he could see her eyes filled with happiness. He lent to her, held her and kissed her. It was soft, and quick. She strokes his hair and suddenly she splash water on his face.

"Oh you're gonna feel sorrow for that", he replied splashing back, before putting his arms around her neck and knees and carrying her out of the water and up on the lawn. She laughs even more now.

"I'm not feeling sorrow for doing it", see replied as he laid her down, and sat over her. "I'm not feeling sorrow for doing this", he whisper back in her ear.

He leaned down kissing her again. She was wearing a green bikini, and as he kissed her he started lifting her top of. Her breasts where wet and he stroke them softly before his hands reached the die base of the bikini. He pulled it down before she reached his shorts and pulled it of. Slowly but certainly his fingers slide into her. She grabbed his and felt a touch through her body as he was in. She loved him so much and he loved her too. She wanted more, more, MORE.

Suddenly it started raining. They had been lying in the grass for a time, enjoying everything, and had forgotten what time it was. They ran inside as it starts raining even more. They put on some dry clothes. The clock was around 6pm.

"I'll make some dinner, what do you want?" Derek said.

Meredith smiled. "Surprise me." She went to their bedroom, and Derek shook his head before he went to the fridge to find some food.

As she entrée their bedroom her phone called. She picked it up. "Hello Meredith Gr...Ehhm Shepherd?" She wasn't used to her new second name.

"Hey..Hmm Meredith…"

"Richard, how are you" Meredith was surprised that he called.

"Ohh….humm, I'm, I'm good, good." She could hear that something was wrong.

"Richard, what's wrong?" Meredith said little scared. He would never call them in the middle of their honeymoon if it wasn't important.

"Meredith I really don't want to tell this over the phone, but I want you to know." He took a long pause before he finally decided to tell her something else. He didn't want to be the one to tell her the breaking news.

"Mer…humm…" he didn't come up with anything so he decided to tell Derek first.

"Could I speek with Derek?" Meredith got worried now.

"Richard….he's umm busy, but umm…a second."

She went back to the kitchen and handed the phone to Derek.

"It's Webber, he said it was important", Meredith almost whispered.

Derek looked at her with a "right back" look as he went outside.

"Richard, what's up?"

"Can Meredith…" "No she can't hear us", Derek finished him.

"Umm…okay. Listen. This afternoon Ellis Grey came to the hospital."

"What happened was she hurt, is she okay, does Meredith know?" Derek said anxious.

"No Meredith doesn't know. She...Umm came to the hospital after a..."He took a deep breath before he continued." "A, a suicide attempt…."before he could finish the sentence Derek replied." WHAT? How? Why?" He didn't know how to react.

"Derek, she had stuck a knife into one of her lungs."

"Oh my goodness, how is she, is she alive?" Derek almost spit out the words.

"She's…hum…we operated, but the damage of the lung where…the lung where punctured, and we couldn't fix it….Derek, Ellis died 19.25 this evening."

Derek was silent, Richard was silent. The legend Ellis Grey, she was one of the best surgeons in the country, she was Meredith's mum, she was, was dead. DEAD.

"Ohh, ohh how am I going to tell Mer, she will be all heart broken, oh my god what am I going to say?"

Meredith sat in the living room when Derek came back.

She could see the fear in his eyes; she could see that something was wrong.

"Derek, what did he say…what"

Derek took a seat at the couch, and told her to do it too.

"Okay, Mer first I want you to know that this will probably surprise you a little bit."

He took her hand and looked her in her eyes when he told her what Richard had told him.

When he had told her everything, he just sat there and stroke her over her arm. She was in shock. She didn't say anything. She just sat there staring out of the window.

"Mer, is there anything I can do for you? Is there anything you want?" Yet she didn't say anything.

Derek could see the pain in her eyes. He knew that Ellis hadn't been there for Meredith that much and that he hadn't been nice to her, and that the Alzheimer had been very tuff for Meredith, but she was still her mum, her family, and he knew that she loved her.

"Mer, please say something." Derek put his arms around her and held her tight, and stroke her over her back.

"She's dead." Meredith said looking at him.