Dear Diary
I had a dream that I was sitting in the bedroom with Kenshin and we were talking and smiling and discussing something important. I took everything that I had inside me that made me an individual and made me unique and bottled it up in this shiny purple bottle and was holding it to my chest. Kenshin was telling me that he wanted to have it because I loved him and he loved me. He was smiling at me and I knew he loved me so I smiled and relinquished it to him. Because I had given my personality and essence to him I began to shrink until I was only as tall as the length of my hand. Kenshin told me not to worry and tied a string around his wrist and tied the other end around my neck. 'So I won't accidentally lose you,' he said. But after a while he walked so fast that I eventually just let him drag me along. Sometimes I would squat down and rub my little eyes and cry, but I would hear him laugh or see him smile for whatever reason, and I wouldn't mind again for a little while longer. This continued on until I would cry up to him and he would no longer hear me. Finally one day when I was almost sure he'd forgotten all about me, he was walking toward the front door of our house and was dragging me along as usual, and the door was slamming behind him as I was being dragged right into it. I pulled against the string at my neck and I started to cry out but I stopped myself. I guess because there was a tiny part of me that didn't want him to hear me. A part that didn't want to be saved. Out of instinct at the last moment I let out a small cry anticipating pain as the door caught me at the right moment and crushed my head. My soul drifted out of my tiny body ( in my real size) just as Kenshin felt a tug at his wrist. He turned around and looked down at my body half-way hanging out of the door, and the small, pitiful puddle of blood that had formed. He remembered me then. He bent down opening the door and lifted me from the ground, studying me for a moment. Then just as he was about to throw me nonchalantly out in the yards as he would a dead mouse that the cat brought up, my spirit touched his hand. He looked into my transparent eyes and saw a great mixture of sadness and love. As if under a spell he relinquished the fragments of what was left of my body to me, and I took it over to the nearest Ivy plant, and buried it. Then turning back to him I kissed his lips, then his forehead, and embraced him one last time, and said. "I will always love you." And disappeared. This dream really happened to me the night before last. And it still hurts me to think about it. I don't know why I felt the need to share it.
Sincerely,
Koaru