I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack :D
still haven't updated Echoes of an Intercom yet, I know, but this drabble was pestering me to be posted. So anyhoo, this is Tales of a Nobody, and it will be a collection of oneshots featuring the members of Organization XIII
O THE FUN!
LETS BEGIN.
Disclaimer: ...I don't own KH okay?
// T A L E S O F A N O B O D Y \\
I.
"I'm what's left…"
Has it been all for nothing? All that I've done? All that I'm determined to do?
No. I cannot believe such a thing. It's the only thing I can believe. Nothing has felt real, but, then again, nothing ever did…
But, it'll all be over soon. I'll be whole again. I'll be able to remember again… Don't misunderstand me; I remember some things, oh yes.
That king. He told me my true name… Xehanort. How long has it been since I abandoned that name? So long. So very, very long. I almost forgot it as well, consumed with the thoughts and dreams of the present. But, names are of no importance. They are merely titles, labels, with no meaning.
I shed that name long ago, christened myself with something new. They followed me, as they did before this hollow death of ours. The first five came without question, as I predicted they would. They were so loyal to me when we were whole; I knew they would continue that loyalty now, even though they were different…yet the same.
The rest, the other seven, I found them myself, and brought them salvation. I gave them a reason to go on, and they accepted me as their master, like I knew they would.
If I were normal, I would be pleased. My circumstance does not allow it though. Without a heart, there is no emotion. Yet we without hearts still maintain our sanity and memories, memories of those emotions.
You might say that is the same, remembering is the same as feeling.
Yet, you would be wrong. It is not the same, I tell you. I cannot feel these things. I cannot feel sorrow, not matter how much despair unfolds before my eyes. I cannot feel joy…anger…all these things are merely words to me.
But, no longer will they be merely words. I am so close, so very close to victory, to gaining that heart I deserve. I stare up at my pride, the fruits of my labor: Kingdom Hearts, a dominion that will be my dominion.
I feel small, compared to it. I need its help, as it needs mine. As I watch it, I feel other eyes upon me. The eyes of the stars, scrutinizing my every move and thought. But I withstand them, I shall wait patiently, for I will receive what I deserve.
Yet, while I wait here, in this morbid castle, listening to reports from my fellow Nobodies on the movements of the Keybearers, I wonder:
What will happen once we get our hearts? Will we remember this time of nothingness? Will we cease this feigned existence completely, neutralized by the hearts like water to fire? Or will we be finally…happy? What does it even mean to be happy…?
My endless planning draws to a halt at these thoughts. Will we change? Be the same as we used to be? If so, I will be able to go forth, build an empire of darkness! I shall rule the hearts! Command them to bind the worlds under my power!
But currently, I am nothing, I am only a shell. Sometimes I doubt this…is it merely a dream? Is my mind the one that's been left behind, conjuring up these images of a false reality?
Maybe I'm the one that's whole, and the others are merely remnants of my memories…fading memories from a life I feel is no longer mine…
No. I shouldn't think these things. They cloud my judgment; impair my vision of the Hearts. My Kingdom Hearts. When I capture my own heart, I will truly know…
I will know the true fate of the Nobody.
"…or, maybe I'm all that ever was."
yea...I'm aware that it's...weird. I've never written as Xemnas before, cut me some slack.
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