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To understand love is to say you understand The World. To do so would mean you understand total chaos, and I'm afraid there is no such thing as understanding chaos.
Why, then, must everyone search for love?
Love is not even the binder in a relationship; circumstance can be all that stands between you and someone who understands you on each and every level you possess.
Or maybe just a memory stands between you and your one true love...?
Perhaps nothing but whims stand between you and your one true love.
Could be something as mundane and stupid as a bad case of the whines...
Whatever it is...we need to overcome it. So we can live. So we can be happy.
But, why?
Why do we need love? Why do we need such a thing when it is so fragile?
Even when it's at its very strongest, love is always in danger of being broken.
Why?
Because the more two people feel for each other, the less damage it takes to rile emotions.
Two people must be clear. Though, those who are truly meant for one another seem to have a link of communication that only they can understand.
But, is it enough?
It doesn't seem so, for doubt can still harbor. Whims can still throw everything into crashing waves.
Why love, then?
It makes no sense.
It's almost as if true love doesn't exist; there is no one for me, but I.
Only I can understand myself on all levels.
But, I look in the mirror, and I don't understand what I see.
I've done things: bad things; stupid things; things I regret and cringe at whenever I think of them.
I despise myself.
And yet, she came along. She saw something in me that I hadn't dream existed.
How did she...? How is it possible that she knows?
I don't understand.
But, then she tells me while she holds my hand, hanging on for dear life from over a steep cliff: "I trust you".
How?
With my grip slipping on this reality, how can she lay her life in my hands and tell me so softly that she trusts me?
"I will love you for all time," she says.
And then I know; love is not the binder of hearts – it is trust.
Trust makes love possible. As understanding makes trust possible.
To understand simply means you know. Albeit the act itself is not so simple.
Do you accept the other person?
Do you want the other person?
Who are you, really?
Who are they to you?
Do you know?
Can you know?
Is love real?
How do two souls become forever bonded? Is it possible? Really?
As my grip slips, I don't know.
I don't understand.
But, I don't want her to fall...
What is this feeling inside this chaos?
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