Set just before series 2 started and going on into S2
Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood (ohh, I wish...) they are owned by the BBC. I do not own this song, it is "Elvis Ain't Dead" By Scouting For Girls.
When I was young,
I never knew,
What this thing called "love" could do to you...
Ianto sighed. This song kept coming up on his iTunes and it was starting to get painful as he listened to the words and realised just how much they related to his life right now. Since Jack had left him, his life had changed so much. He was so alone, so hurt.
The Welshman just couldnt understand why his lover had left without a goodbye or even a note. Ianto hadn't been able to tell Jack that he loved him.
But since you've been gone,
And I've been on my own,
I've been feeling quite peculiar...
That empty, sickening feeling hit Iantos stomach again and he felt sick. He'd never known himself to be this affected by one person. Not even, dare he say it, Lisa. He ran to the bathroom and leaned over the toilet. But he wasn't sick, how could he be sick when his stomach was empty. He hadn't been eaten in days. He'd just forgotten. Burying himself in his work, he lost track of time.
But I'll get by,
Without your smile.
I'll get through,
Without... You.
He dreamt of Jack at night. His cheeky grin, his twinkling green eyes, and he knew he would never be over him. He felt betrayed. His sleep was tormented by images of Jack. Jack dead, Jack dying, Jack being tortured. Jack with someone else.
But I wish it was me,
You chose.
I wish it was me,
You chose.
Cos Elvis ain't dead!
And you're coming back!
Ianto laughed a bitter laugh to himself. He wished it were true. But somewhere inside, he had lost all hope. He knew Jack wasn't coming back. He slammed his laptop shut and threw himself backwards on the bed, staring at the ceiling. He sighed angrily and a single tear rolled down his cheek.
He had done the crying early on, when the pain was fresh. Now, it was more like an old wound that wouldn't heal, a dull ache in his chest that made it hard to breathe, hard to eat, hard to live.
Ianto jumped as he felt a soft hand on his cheek. He opened his eyes, reaching for his gun and nearly fainted at what he saw before him.
Captain Jack Harkness.
Ianto leapt off the bed and punched Jack. His anger of the past few months came flooding out and he pushed the older man onto the ground. He towered over him.
"HOW FUCKING DARE YOU! YOU FUCKING PRICK!" Ianto screamed at Jack, tears in his blue eyes. Jack just sat on the floor, taking the words as Ianto screamed at him. He knew he had caused the young man so much pain and he knew he deserved everything he got.
"YOU WALK IN HERE! WHAT? YOU THINK I'LL TAKE YOU BACK? THINK AGAIN!" Ianto collapsed in a heap on the bed, angry tears rolling down his cheeks. Jack got up.
He sat down beside Ianto and took his face in his hands. He wiped away the tears with his thumb and made Ianto look at him.
"I am so sorry Ianto. I didn't mean to hurt you like I did. I never meant to leave you for this long but... well... circumstances weren't in my control really"
Jacks voice shook as he spoke and Ianto could tell something had happened while he was away, "One day, I'll tell you what happened but right now I just want to say, I know I hurt you, and I deserve everything I get, but I truely am sorry."
He leaned forwards and kissed Ianto softly on the lips.
Ianto awoke suddenly. The dream had seemed so real. Jacks lips, so soft... his voice, so near. Ianto shivered. Was this a sign? Was he coming back?
TBC! Reviews please?