Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha.
Authors Note: Why am I writing drabbles? And why is it always about longing and love? I wish I was a bit more macho…
This is sort of a continuation of, "Keeping Her". It just felt like I had to write it in Kagomes perspective as well. It's only fair after all.
Closer
You are so handsome and completely oblivious to the fact. You are always trying to show off a tough front but I know that you can be surprisingly tender and soft. A bit overprotective and gruff sometime, but I know it's only because you're afraid that you'll lose us someday. This little rag team of friends you've acquired when you've always believed that you'd end up alone just because you were born different form us.
I think it all started when you looked at me differently one night. Like you saw me for the first time. You looked so serious but pained. It only made your eyes look even more inhuman. They were glowing and it felt like you were looking right through me.
It was a short and sudden moment. Then you looked away as if you were thinking, "no".
Thinking, "no", when you were looking right at me.
I can't deny these feelings so I keep on believing, pathetically clinging on to my hope that just keeps on growing every time you look at me, or use that voice that makes the stolen moment feel so much more special and vulnerable. Showing me a weakness unknowingly by sharing your hesitation and insecurities without meaning to.
I wish that you could look at me without trying to shy away. That you could show me everything you are without trying to hide what I bet you see as your faults. Will there ever be a day when you will finally realize that I already think you are enough?
Is it even about that at all? Why won't you talk to me?
I try to keep believing, dreaming about the day you will look at me and instead of retreating like a kicked dog, walk forward like the strong man I know you are.
I want you to admit it! Admit what you're feeling!
I want more than you are giving me. Yet, you won't touch me or even give me a hint of your affections. And whenever I think that you're finally going to let me break down the barrier keeping us apart you back off. As if you're afraid!
I want to keep you close. Hold you close to my heart. I want more! I want you closer! But you always leave me cold. Feeling both rejected and alone.
Why do you deny it? We could have everything! Why don't you want it?
Don't apologize every time you touch me. Stop looking at me so apoplectic! If anything you should say you're sorry for leaving me.
Come closer.
I can't erase what I feel. I only wish you could feel the same.
I'm trying desperately to come up with a reason, to try on believing, hoping for a way… A reason for us both to break down the barriers of time. To make you come closer.
I long for you to hold me as tenderly as I dream. And though my dreams are slowly fading every time you relentlessly push me away, I want to be the woman you long for.
But it's hopeless when you won't even consider me in that way.
I can't erase my emotions and I know you know they are there. So why won't you come closer?
-FIN-