Broken heart,broken bones

'Christian,oh my god,I didn't,I mean I hoped it wasn't as bad as face,its so.....so swollen!'

He reaches up slowly,caught in the moment of distress to caress Christians swollen aware that his heart begins to pound rapidly as he does Christian stops his hand mid-air-struggling with his own want,his need for Syed's touch-because he knows its only an act of pity.

'Wot?I thought you would have congratulated the guy had he stayed around.I remember you were up for a public flogging at one stage.'

Syed stands defiant now,seething with silent anger that makes it harder to be soothing and coherent at the same time.

'I wasn't the one who beat you know I didnt want this to happen to you,youdont deserve this kind of treatment just because of who you are?'

'Funny that,because I may have been physically beaten,but the pain your inflicting on me is unbearable.'

At this,Christians eyes begin to fill with tears of sorrow for lost had accepted Syed's decision,but it still didn't stop him loving Syed especially since Syed was so special,different from every other bloke he had ever knew he was in for a heated argument,he braced himself.

'And how do you think I feel?'

Christian was caught off guard because the face that met his when Syed turned to face him,wasn't of anger but of anguish,tears streaking down his face. He wanted to embrace him,kiss him they needed this,this talk.

'What d'you mean by that?What pain do you feel?'

(Regaining control)'Its nothing,forget it,Im just not myself today'(moving towards the door)

(trying another direction)'That bloke I was with the day you saw me,your face,I remember it so weren't jealous,you were.........hurt,sincerely day you described me as a love-em-and-leave-em guy,oh Syed I didn't mean so sorry.'

'It doesn't matter now anyway.'

'You said that too,the day after we made love,It was the happiest moment of my life to wake up to your face.'

'Christian please don't'

'If I could have stayed there forever with you in my arms,I wouldn't need food water,I could just live off our love.'

'Stop it'

'You don't trust me,that Ill stay with you,oh,Syed,I love you.I wont leave you.'

Pleadingly reaching out for Syed to comfort him and tell him the truth with his forceful blue eyes,Syed cant resist,the electricity,the passion,the heat of the moment compels him to speak.

'All those other men,youve been with,and you will be with more,the life your comfortable in leading,so forward and confident about i.I can never be like that with you,experienced like all those other men and eventually you'll get bored of me,and leave.....

But Syed cant say anymore because he feelsthe walls are leaning in to listen to this shameful confession,but he can only trust Christian,why is that?He could always trust Christian.

'I cant believe you have kept this from this has been holding you back from me,fear of the bottom to the top of my heart,I love you,there is no space,no thought,no element of my whole being that doesn't long for body shakes,like Im going cold sober or something,when you aren't near.'

And as if by coincidence,Christian breaks into fits of tears,half for joy,at this revelation that Syed does fully love him and was just scared of being rejected of shock from the realisation of the attack and ¾ for love and adoration of the love of his life standing in front of him.

Syed kneels in front of Christian on the floor,cups his wet chin and pushes it gently up to his lips,and just like that as if Syed was a cure,Christian stops quaking.

Even in such a touching moment,Syed cant resist a light can feel Syeds'slips curl in a smile,he pulls back.

'I never knew you were such a poet.'

They float into Christians bedroom to make sweet love.