Blurry Lines
Chapter One:
Isabella
"No! No! I won't go. I can't leave you." I admitted, finally letting myself break down.
It just now hit me; I might not see him again, ever. "Shh, it'll be fine baby, you'll see. We'll see each other again, just like we planed. Nothing will change. In five years we'll see each other again. We'll meet at the entrance; I'll be there just like we planned for it, five years babe, five years. We knew this would happen, that's why we planned for it; five years babe, five years."
I nodded in understanding, my mind taking in his reassurance, but my heart, my heart's bolting at the reality of leaving him.
"What if…what if you change your mind? What if you forget?" I asked much to my horror. The thought made me cling to him tighter.
"Never," He answered immediately, not missing a heartbeat to think his reply through. "Isabella never; you are the most important person, thing, matter in my life. You are 'it' for me, Bella; no one else, ever. Now listen to me. You can't doubt me or yourself right now. You have to believe in our plan baby, you have too, because I won't lose you too baby, I won't. So tell me the plan." He asked desperately.
"We will go to high school, we will not joke around and we will not party. We will work our ass's off to get a 4.0 G.P.A. We will apply to three colleges." I recited like clockwork.
"Good baby, now tell me which colleges?" he asked as he placed a few of my loose curls behind my ears.
"Dartmouth, Harvard, and Princeton University. We will be accepted to all of them, but the only one that matters to us is Dartmouth. The others are just for precaution, for our 'parents' sake. In five years we will meet in front of the Collis building, on the front steps. You will kiss me, and get down on one knee and ask me to marry you. I will say yes and we will get an apartment together, never having to separate again. We will start our life together and I will bare your children; three of them and we'll have a dog, because I've always wanted one. We'll be happy and we'll grow old together. We'll be happy." I repeated, the thought and images bring a small, weak smile to my tear driven face.
"We'll be happy." He repeated assuringly.
As his mouth opened to speak again there was a squeal of tires turning the corner; we both looked up to see the unavoidable vehicle finally approaching. I grabbed his shirt tighter, pulling him to my chest.
I was panicking, frantically, desperately trying to connect every inch of my body to his, but he stayed calm. "Do you have my shirts and pillow?" he asked softly, his velvet voice caressing my ear. I nodded hysterically. "Okay, I don't know how long my scent will last on those things Bell, but I hope they help as long as they can."
He knew his scent calmed me completely so he offered to let me have his pillow and a few of his shirts. To preserve the scent –his scent- I folded them as small as possible and put them in Ziploc bag.
"They will." I assured him.
He bent down to place a chastise kiss on my lips, but when the sound of the dreaded car stopped in front of us his kiss became more forceful, pouring every ounce of love, adoration, and passion he had for me, for us, in it.
I returned it with just as much fervor until I was literally yanked away from his grip. "No!" I cried out, as I fought against the restraining arms that held me tightly. "You're hurting me, stop it! Edward!"
Edward had stood there, watching the unavoidable happen, but when my cries of pain came out, he was bounding over to me with a look of ferocity. "Let go of her!" He demanded. "You're hurting her, let her go! Get your fucking hands off of her!"
"Edward!" Yelled his new father-Doctor Cullen- from the sidewalk, as he ran to intercept Edwards advance on Phil, my 'mothers' new toy.
But he was too slow. Edward crossed the small space that remained between us, his fist balled and his voice deadly. "I said let her go." He threatened through clenched teeth.
With a devilish grin Phil grabbed me tighter, making me yelp in pain. "I said let her go!" Edward yelled once again as his right fist came up and connected with Phil's left jaw bone.
Once Phil fell I launched myself at Edward, grabbing him tightly. "It's okay baby, I have you. I have you and you're fine." He squeezed me tightly to his body and I cried in his chest.
"Edward?" Carlisle called, upset. "She has to-"
"I know, she knows, we know, okay? Shit!" he exclaimed angrily. "Carlisle there has to be something, something you can do."
"Isabella!" screamed Renee as she knelt down in front of Phil. I cringed and grabbed Edward tighter.
"Carlisle please, I haven't asked you for anything, ever. Since the day you bought me here, us here, we've never asked for anything. You have to help her. She won't survive them, and I won't survive losing her."
"I'm sorry Edward." Carlisle whispered weakly. "But she's her birth mother. I have no rights, this was just a half way house for Isabella. We knew this would happen, we knew they'd come for her, you knew. Now you have to say goodbye, you don't have much time."
Edward nodded resolutely, turning me away from everyone. He grabbed my chin and lifted my head so my eyes were completely on his. He lifted his lips into my favorite crooked smile and smiled down at me. "Bella, Bella, she can do it, she can do what no one can." He sung. It was something he'd made up when we were little. Every time I said I couldn't he'd sing that for me and I'd do it, because he was there for me, with faith in his heart. "With all of my heart I will love you. I will give it to you and no one else, because you've already had it. All of your life you've had it, right here." He said pressing his palm to my chest. "Take care of it until I can have it back, please take care of it; forever my Bella."
"Forever…my Edward. I love you."
"I love you too." He whispered softly, leaning in to place his soft lips to mine one last time….
-~~'\\%/'~~-
"Bella wake your ass up! You're going to be late!" My annoying, small, spirited roommate yelled, again. Tell me again how I got stuck with this girl for a roommate? Oh yeah, that's right, I'm unlucky. Don't get me wrong, I love the Pixie, but god she's annoying.
"Alice, it's too early."
"It's too early to reunite with the love of your life? Come on Bella, we over slept. We only have two hours to get there."
With a surprised gasp I jumped out of my bed, grabbed my toiletries and ran for the bathroom.
Today's the day. I've waited five long years for this day and it's finally here. Years ago-like last night- I would dream of the past when he and I made this pact, this agreement. We were kids, but we knew there was no one else but each other. Some people wait forever to find their soul mate, I'd only had to wait thirteen years to find him, two years to truly fall in love with him, and five years to get him back. But today's the day, and I'm going to cherish it for the rest of my life.
I stepped out of my shower, wrapping my body in one of Alice's fuzzy, soft, pink towels, only to come face to face with the little minx herself. "You sit here," she commanded as she grabbed my wrist and dragged me to the chair in front of my vanity. "while I work to give antique boy a glimpse of his very sexy future." I blushed and nodded my head in consent.
Alice is a goddess at make-over's. Sometimes she goes overboard when I would favor her keeping it simple, but she knows what I like and dislike, so this time I'll give her the benefit of the doubt. And hopefully there will be no doubt in the end.
After an hour of getting my hair pulled and curled I was finally ready to put my clothing on. I wanted something simple, A nice pair of dark blue jeans and a simple 'hang off your shoulders' dark red blouse, but no.
I walked out of the bathroom, my freshly made soft curls swaying delicately as I did, and into my room to see an outfit that was so inappropriate for my first day of college, and my first time in five years to see Edward, lying on my bed.
"You're nuts!" I shrieked at Alice as she walked in behind me.
"I knew you would say that, but-"
"But nothing Alice!" I screeched, interrupting her 'buts,' 'ands' and 'ifs' before they could emerge from her mouth. "This is wholly inapt. This outfit is for Halloween, or maybe clubbing during Halloween, but it's not for the first day of college and I refuse to wear it."
"But Bella!" she cried in a whine six-year-old girl voice. "It'll knock him dead."
"Not if I die first of heat stroke." I replied sarcastically.
The outfit itself was beautiful, don't get me wrong, but come on. There was a gray silk shirt that started as the base of the outfit, and then to cover that was a gray white stripe shirt. Over that was a black corset that's meant to hold the fabric tight to my torso. To cover up down below there was a gray silk skirt that stopped just above my knees. For my legs there were black fish net stockings with small barely there mini holes, which held a beautiful design in the fabric. See, beautiful, just no first day of school beautiful.
"I'm going to get you into that outfit one of these days Swan, just you wait and see."
I have no doubt in the back of my head that she will in fact be getting me into that outfit. What worried me is that it might not be for Halloween.
After she relented she went into my closet and pulled out an outfit close to what I had envisioned; A dark pair of tight fitting, black jeans, with an off the shoulder, dark green cashmere sweater. Alice finished the ensemble with a pair of dark green flats and a pair of black studs. I felt beautiful, and most importantly I felt confident.
"Lets go get him Swan." Alice whispered as she backed out of the room.
With one last look at myself I followed behind her, ready to once again follow my heart.
-~~'\\%/'~~-
It was hot. Hotter then I thought possible, but that didn't stop me. Today I'm finally going to get my life back, my world, my Edward.
Alice and I walked across campus, headed solely for the Collis building. Alice was in the lead since I'd never seen the building outside of pictures. She'd taken the tour of the campus weeks before. She told me that she'd taken it because she wanted to be prepared for any fashion emergency we may encounter. When I told her I didn't understand how school tours tie into fashion, she simply said she'd tell me about it later.
I never spoke of it again.
Above Alice's tiny frame I could make out the large building before us with a large 'Welcome Home' banner tied around the pillars. But my eyes didn't stay focused on the building for long. I immediately began to search the crowd for that once familiar shade of bronze mess.
My eyes roamed and roamed, but still there was nothing. And then it hit me; maybe he dyed his hair, maybe he's a blond now, or a red head. It's possible. So I reached the stairs, and I stood there, and I waited, just like planned.
Alice stayed with me, no questions asked. She's the world's greatest friend. I'd met her on my first day of high school. I was the new girl, the amusement, the shiny toy, and she was nice. She walked right up to me and said; 'Hi, I'm Alice. I know, you're Bella, you're going to be my best friend.' And so I was, from that day forwards I was and still am known as Alice's best friend.
"I don't think he's coming." I stated sullenly, as I glanced at my watch.
"Did you guys have a time limit?" Alice asked as she too glanced down at her watch.
"No, but I don't want to be late on my first day of class. I want my teachers to like me."
"Fine, lets-"
And there it was, like a star shooting across the sky in slow motion he moved through the crowd. It was him, of that I was positive. His hair, the same shade of the bronze penny I kept under my pillow. His eyes still the same bright jade green that hunts me in my dreams in the sweetest way, that's him, my Edward.
He moved through the crowed with a purpose. His steps measured, and his eyes searching. I wanted to scream out to him that I was here, standing right here, but I was stunned silent. He was just as beautiful as the last day I saw him. And he was going to be mine forever.
I took a step forwards, one step, only to be pulled back by the small arm of Alice. I turned to see Alice shacking her head sadly at me, her eyes, glazing with unshed tears. "I'm so sorry Bella."
"For what?" I asked befuddled. She nodded her head in Edwards direction and I swung around just in time to see a beautiful strawberry blond jump into his arms. "Oh," Was the only syllable that left my mouth. "Of course." I whispered seconds later.
"Come on." Alice said, grabbing my hand and pulling me down the stairs.
Here is where everything went wrong. Edward and…that girl were positioned at the bottom of the steps, the very steps that held the key to my escape. So when Alice grabbed my hand and began pulling me down the stairs, of course I tripped before I reached the bottom, and of course I snagged Edwards shirt on my bag, and of course I took him down with me.
"Are you okay?" his velvety voice asked as he helped pick up my books.
"She's fine." Alice answered for me. "I'll take those," she said, reaching for my books. He placed them gently in her hands and turned his attention back to me. I let my hair fall in my face, providing myself with a thick shield.
"Are you sure you're alright?" he asked me once more, the concern in his voice irritating me. How could he be concerned about me when there was another woman in his arms?
"I'm fine Edward!" I snapped acidly.
"Fine, I was just- wait a sec, how do you know my name? Who are you?"
"B, lets just go." Alice pleaded, purposefully not using my name. "He's not worth it."
"What do you mean?" He asked, directing his question towards Alice. "Who are you people?"
"Edward?" a soft tenor called. I glanced up from under my hair to see the strawberry blond take hold of his hand. "What's going on?"
"I'm not sure babe, but they know me somehow. Who are you people?" he asked once more, his voice a little bit demanding. I cringed at the endearment he used. He used to call me that all the time. I was his babe, once upon a time.
Sucking up my fear, and anger, and disappointment I lifted my head and came face to face with the green eyed monster. When our eyes met, his took a moment to focus, but when they did, boy did comprehension hit him. He sucked in a hard breath, his face going pale.
"Hello," I murmured. "I'm-"
"Bella?" He breathed. I nodded once, letting him know that it was in fact me.
"Hello," the blonde greeted, holding her left hand out. I thought it was odd, until I saw it. It was big, gold, and shiny; stupid diamond ring owner. "I'm Edward's fiancée, Tanya Denali."
I stood there for a moment, staring gaped mouth at her ring covered finger, until I felt a small shove from my right side, Alice.
"Hi," I greeted taking her hand. "I'm a stupid girl from the past who believes in promises that were made by fourteen-year-old boys. It's nice to have met you Tanya Denali. I wish you every bit of happiness I so foolishly believed I would be receiving today. Have a nice day."
I turned; taking Alice's offered hand and walked away from a past of lies.
"I'm proud of you." Alice whispered.
"For what?" I asked surprised. "What is there to be proud of? Half of my life has been me, pinning over a prepubescent boy who made a weak promise that I just knew he wouldn't keep. Even after he promised he would, I just knew he wouldn't, Alice. But I gave him the benefit of the doubt, I was so stupid."
"Too credulous? Yeah. Stupid? No Bella. You wanted to believe that true love existed, and you had a right to. This is his fault, his. He did this, he broke your faith. But you're going to get over this. You're going to be just fine."
"God Alice, I feel like I gave up everything for him. I didn't date; I didn't get to experience things regular teenage girls got to, like dances and parties. I even saved myself for him. God, what am I going to do with that?"
"You are going to fall in love again, Bella. You are going to find that special guy and give him your 'special' gift. And I know just the place for you to look. Come on, we're going to be late for class."
AN:So I just disappeared and I'm sorry about that. But now I'm back and yes, I have something New for you guys. And also yes, I will be finishing every single story I have on here. I just had to step away for a while. But now I'm back. Hopefully there are no gaps in this story. I have like ever chapter done. It's just the editing and posting that needs to be done. I hope you guys like it!