Hello all my wonderful viewers, I did not forget about my other story I am still working on it but I decided to give a stab at a Slash story. I find all the ones I read very interesting so I wanted to see if I was creative enough to do it too.

Disclaimer: I do not own Scrubs but I think Dr. Cox is extremely hot.

Summary: Dr. Cox has been having strange dreams about an certain intern. Is it just a dream or a deeper desire that he has been trying to avoid for the longest time.

My Inner Desires

"Wake up sweetheart, time to go to work" a voice says sweetly as it leans over and kissed Dr. Cox on the cheek

Dr. Cox wakes and looks over on the other side of the bed. He opens his eyes and sees someone unexpected in his bed, which causes him to scream and jump out of the bed. On the other side of the room is a figure standing completely naked throwing his clothes on the bed.

"What the hell, what are you doing in my bed? Forget my bed what are you doing in my room"

"What do you mean what am I doing here, I practically live here. Did you hit your head or something?"

"No I didn't hit my head, why are you naked in my room."

"Because after last night I didn't have time to put on my pajamas," the figured laughed.

"Newbie this better be some cruel joke or I swear to God I will kill somebody, preferably you."

"Is that right" J.D laughed as he pulled his shirt over his head.

"You bet your sweet ass, I'm right"

"Well that's too bad."

"What do you mean to bad."

"You can't kill what isn't really here." J.D smiled as he finished putting on his clothes and walk over to Perry and kissed him on the lips.

"This is not real" Perry stuttered as J.D pulled away. "I can't believe this is real."

"Oh course it isn't real, this is a dream. You're too scared to make it a reality", with that the figure disappeared, and Perry woke up out of his dreams.

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"Good God, what the hell is wrong with me." Dr. Cox grunted as he got out of the bed and jumped into the shower. For the past week, he had been having these strange dreams about Newbie and he had no idea why. Ever since he and Jordan decided to call it quits for real this time, he saw Newbie in a completely new light. For some odd reason he found that on some twisted level, he really did like the kid. Now seeing him at work everyday was making this break up thing a whole lot more manageable. Because of these developing feelings or whatever they were, he found it hard to be around Newbie without feeling his heart skipping a beat. He knew that he had to figure out a way to get rid of those feelings but for the first time ever he did not have an answer on how to do it.

After getting to work, Perry decided to avoid J.D at all cost but it was hard when the damn kid followed him everywhere. It was hard looking at him knowing that every time he closed his eyes he was groping or kissing J.D in some twisted mechanical sexual way. Just as he was about to go into his office, he spotted J.D come right around the corner with a stupid grin on his face. He tried to walk into the office before J.D spotted him but it was too late.

"I hate that damn kid," Perry thought to himself as J.D made his way up to him.

"Hello Dr. Cox" J.D smiled showing all his teeth. "I need your help with a patient so I was wondering since you are my mentor that you"

"Hold it right there Cynthia, I am not your mentor, I would never want to be associated with you anywhere especially not in the medical field.
"Whatever you say Perry, you have been my mentor from day one and that is not going to change, so are you going to help me with this patient or not."

"If you call me Perry again I will rip your arm out of you socket and beat the crap out of you with it"

"Sorry Dr. Cox" J.D stuttered quickly. "So is that a no."

"What do you think?" Perry yelled as he walked into his office and slammed the door into J.D's face.

"Dude somebody seriously needs to get laid" J.D laughed as he walked off to check on his patient.

After seven hours of working straight, Perry went into the lounge and sat in the chair. Tired as hell from the dreams that he had been having, he closed his eyes and tried to get some rest

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Perry was sitting in his office working on case reports when J.D walked in with a hot cup of coffee.

"Hey Perry, I thought you could use this, you look tired. So I thought you could use a pick me up." J.D smiled as he handed Dr. Cox his coffee.

"Didn't I tell you that you couldn't call me Perry, Angela?" Perry growled not looking up from is work.

"You know you have so much sexual tension built up in you, it's scary."

"What the hell are you talking about Newbie?"

"I'm just saying that you need someone to help you release all that tension." J.D smirked as he sat on Perry's desk and crossed his legs.

"You have two seconds to get your girly ass off of my desk, or I swear I will beat your face so bad that your concealer will not be able to cover up the black eyes that you will receive."

"You see what I mean, the reason you are acting like this is because you are sexual frustrated. I could help you with that."

"Newbie, I wouldn't ev-ev-ever think about releasing anything with you especially not sex."

J.D jumped off the desk, walked up to Dr. Cox, put his face directly in front of Perry's, and smirked. Seeing this made Dr. Cox even angrier so he growled and threw J.D up against the wall by his wrists, hard.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?"

"Just trying to get you to be honest with yourself, you know you want me," J.D laughed as Perry pinned him even harder to the wall.

"I don't want you, Jessica, I would never want you. Do you understand that?"

"You know what Perry blow it out your ass."

"Up yours Newbie"

"You so want to be"

Dr. Cox pinned his body hard against J.D's and kisses him hard on the mouth. J.D kissed back and began thrusting his body on Perry's as he opened his mouth to let Perry explored his. Perry pulled J.D from against the wall, bent him over on the desk, and put his face in the back of J.D's neck.

"Can't argue with that logic, now can I" he whispered in J.D's ear.

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Perry woke up from his dream to find J.D sitting right beside him on the chair. He jumped up off the couch.

"What are you doing in here?" Dr. Cox snapped.

"Watching TV, I'm on my break." J.D smiled. "Why do you care?"

"I don't care" Perry growled as he sat back down.

"Alright, if you say so. Do you want my other half of my Ding-dong? I usually share it with Turk, but he's off today so."

"Newbie"

"What."

"Shut-up. If I wanted to hear about you and your girlfriend's problems I would so watch Oprah." Perry scowled.

"Okay."

J.D sat there for a couple of minutes before he decided to talk to Dr. Cox again.

"So how was it?"

"How was what?" Perry asked.

"The dream you were having, it must have been some kind of dream because you were moaning and it looked like it was very good if you know what I mean" J.D replied goofily.

"Shut the hell up" Perry snapped as he kicked J.D off the chair. "Don't you have patients to check up or are you going to stay in here and let all your patients die."

"I don't know what your problem is but you need to sort it out." J.D replied. "And just for that, you can't have my other ding dong" he huffed as he walked out of the lounge leaving Dr. Cox alone with his thoughts.

"What the hell is going on?" Perry whispered as he placed his head in his hands.

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Later on that night, Perry was sitting at home after a hard day of work. Well the work was not hard; it was the hiding from J.D all day. Everywhere he turned, he was there and the feelings were not good. He did not even know where the feeling were coming from. He had grown up his whole life in the modern man image. He like sports, hard liquor, and pissing people off. Not some pansy wuss like J.D and yet for some odd reason the dreams left him wanting more out of them. Most of the time, he did not even want to wake up from them all because of Newbie. He grunted as he took another sip of his scotch when he heard a knock on the door. Getting up to answer it, he nearly choked when he realized who it was.

"Newbie, what are you doing here" Perry snapped as J.D made his way into the apartment.

"I need to talk to you."

"About what"

"About why you are being so mean to me lately." J.D snapped back.

"What are you talking about?"

"You know what I am talking about" J.D scoffs. "You treat me like crap, kick me off of furniture, and then avoid me when I'm trying to talk to you. What the hell is your problem?"

"Listen here Erica; you can't come into my house."

"I can and I did, so tell me what the hell is wrong with you. Please tell me this isn't about the scratch on your left side of your bumper on your Porsche."

Dr. Cox head snapped up at the mention of any dents on his beloved car. He loved that car more than his own life and the mere thought of someone damaging it made his blood boil even more.

"You put a scratch on my car," he roared causing J.D to jump out of his skin. J.D taking back by the comment realized that he had not seen it yet.

"No I didn't, but what I meant to say was hypothetically speaking if someone were too"

"Shut-up"

"Okay" J.D sighed as he hung his head low. "But you still have to tell me why you have been avoiding me."

"Fine you really want to know"

"Of course."

"Okay" Dr. Cox began. "This past week I have been having weird dreams about you."

"Dreams"

"Yes dreams Melinda, do you not know the meaning of dreams."

"Yes I do" J.D replied. "Is it the dream where I talk too much so you chop my head off with the guillotine but after you chop off my head you realize that I can still talk because I am really floating head doctor?"

"What"

"Nothing, so what kind of dreams."

"You know" Dr. Cox grunted. "The type of dreams that make you moan."

J.D thought about what happened earlier in the lounge and realized why Dr. Cox reacted so strangely.

"Oh I see what you mean." J.D stuttered. He did not know what to do but decided to talk to Perry. It must have been hard for him to admit to those dreams to him and J.D did not want to do anything to break their ever-growing friendship.

"Perry listen, they were just dreams. Everybody has dreams that do not really mean anything. It is just a dream so you have nothing to be ashamed about it" J.D replied empathically.

"Who said that I was ashamed?"

"Um you are, because you kept avoiding me which clearly shows that you are embarrassed to see me because of these dreams."

"Newbie."

"Huh."

"Shut up"

"Okay."

Perry went back to the living room and sat down to finish his drink. He noticed that J.D was still standing up and decided to offer him a drink.

"So are you going to sit down or are you going to stand there and look pretty."

"You think I look pretty" J.D smirked as he sat down beside Perry who just grunted in response. "Do you have anything to make an appletini with?"

J.D saw the scowl on Perry's face and shook his head never mind. After sitting there for about five minutes, he looked up at Dr. Cox and for some weird reason he got the urge to kiss him. He knew that the dreams that Dr. Cox was having were the same kind that he had had quite often but never had the courage to act on them, until now. Now J.D had a feeling that the feelings that he had for him could finally be returned. J.D slide over on the chair closer to Dr. Cox and took the drink out of his hand.

"Do you think I look pretty?"

"What" Perry stuttered as he spit out his drink.

"I said do you think I look pretty." J.D smirked again.

"Did you fall and hit your head before you came in here."

J.D smirked as he slide his body closer to Perry's and put his hand on his shoulder. He leaned his face so close to Perry's, that Perry could feel his breath against his cheek.

"I lied when I said that your dreams didn't mean anything, they could be your inner feelings just wanting to come out."

"Excuse me" Perry snapped as he slid to the farthest end of the sofa. He could not believe his ears. Was Newbie really trying to put the moves on him and if he was, why wasn't he resisting. "Are you coming on to me Claudia?"

"Maybe, is that a problem" J.D replied as he began to move his hand from Perry's shoulder to his chest. He paused when he came to his abdominal area and just rubbed his hand back and forth. "I see someone has been working out."

Perry grabbed his hand and threw it back at him. He jumped off the chair and just stood in complete silence with his back to the wall. He hung his head down low, so he did not know that J.D had walked up in front of him.

"Come on Perry, you know you want me."

"Listen here Maria; I am going to give you to the count of ten to get out of my face." Perry snapped but did not attempt to move J.D away from him.

"Dr. Cox we both know that if you wanted me to stop you can easily push me away." J.D smirked as he pushed his body closer to Perry and kissed his neck. "If you really want me to go just say so," he replied as he began to kiss his neck again.

Dr. Cox grabbed J.D by the shoulders and pushed him hard against the wall. He put his whole body weight on J.D so close that their genitals were touching and no matter what his mind was telling him, he was enjoying the feeling. He wanted to tell J.D to leave go home and never talk about this night ever, to anyone but he just could not form his lips to say those words. He stomach turned summersaults when he looked into J.D twinkling eyes.

"Do you have any idea what you are doing?" Perry growled. "No better yet, what the hell do you think you are doing."

"I am doing what we both know we want to do." J.D smiled back.

"Yeah and what is that."

"Giving you what you want. Look you can tell me to leave" J.D replied as he licked his lips causing Dr. Cox to get more turned on than he had ever been in his life. Not even his wife Jordan had managed to do that ever. "Or you can tell me where your room is, throw me down on the bed, and screw my brains out until we come in multiple organisms."

Perry looked at J.D and at the sound of those words, he knew what he wanted to do, something he had wanted to do since he met the kid. In addition, maybe those dreams were really a way to admit his true feelings on the inside. On the other hand, maybe it was just some sick fantasy that he wanted to fulfill before he died his lonely death. Whatever the reason was he knew exactly what he wanted to tell J.D.

"Go" Perry, growled as he pulled his weight off J.D.

J.D looked at Perry with disappointment but knew what had to be done. He grabbed his keys from the table and began to walk to the front door. Before he reached the door however, he felt two strong arms grab him around the waist and pull him into a passionate kiss. At first J.D was shocked because he could not believe that he was actually kissing his mentor, but soon got over when he felt Perry's tongue roll around in his. He moaned as he felt Perry pull him farther away from the door and back to the living room.

"Where the hell do you think you're going?" Perry asked when he pulled away.

"You told me to go." J.D stuttered.

"I meant, go into my room Monica. I'm going to give you exactly what you came here for."

"I can't wait" J.D replied as once again he threw his arms around Perry and pulled him into another deep kiss. Following Dr. Cox steps, they made it into the bedroom without even breaking the kiss. As they entered the room, Perry kicked the door closed with his foot and laid J.D down on the bed. J.D pulled off Perry's shirt as Perry did the same thing to him still being able to keep the kiss intact.

"Be prepared for the best sex of your life, no other boy has ever satisfied you the way I'm about to" Perry raved.

"Like I said, I can't wait" J.D smirked as he felt Dr. Cox press his lips to his again.