My life has never been a piece of cake. I have never really been as happy as I know I could be. There were periods in time where I was indeed happy, but those would be few and far in between, and never lasted long enough, in my opinion. But after I was saved, I have never been happier. Here is my story.

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It is really hard to be a teenage girl these days. Especially for me. I, am currently with a man named Brian. It was a normal day so far, I got up, walked on the treadmill, smoked a cigarette, had a glass of orange juice, took a shower, then got on my computer to either do schoolwork, read fan fictions, or write a story. All the while waiting either for Brian to call me, or for the time where I would actually have to get up and get ready, to be at least decent for when my best friend Heather came over after school. I'm home schooled you see, so I don't have to actually get up and go to school. Sometimes, I regret it. But I look at my life and realize it was a good decision after all.

As I sat in my room on the computer I heard my back door slide open. I knew my mom wasn't home, she was at a job interview. So this freaked me out you see, it would anybody who knew they were alone. Normally, this would have been C.J, but… he was in school at the moment... and if he wasn't… he would have definantly not have been here. "What the hell?" I wondered to myself out loud, but before I could get up and investigate, I was picked up out of my chair by something Freezing cold, and hard as stone. I wanted to scream, but the impact of whatever it was took all my air out of my lungs. My eyes were shut, so I had no idea what was really going on.

The next thing I knew, I wasn't cold anymore, and I was sitting down in the back of what appeared to be a really fancy car. "Dee how are you feeling?" A woman's voice asked, her voice was beautiful. Sounded even better than Amy Lee's, and I thought that she was one of the best singers in the world, along with Stevie Nicks, and Celine Dion. "If I am to be honest… very confused, and-" I was cut off by a male's voice. "Slightly scared. More shocked than anything." He said. That was exactly how I felt. "Who are you people?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.

"I am Alice Cullen, and this is Jasper Hale." The woman said in the same musical voice. I snorted. "Dee. Things in this world are not what you may think. You just have to trust me.... I'm taking you to La Push." She said in a bored tone. "Take me down there to what? The werewolves?" I asked in an unbelievable tone. I began to move past my shocked state to see if there was any way for me to get out. "As a matter of fact... Yes." She said. "Okay... even if you are the real Alice Cullen, then you would be a Vampire. And if the Werewolves are real, then there is a boundary line. And if there is a boundary line, then you cant cross it because you are indeed a vampire. And even if this is all true, why would you want me to be around a pack of werewolves? Aren't they Highly Dangerous?" I said in a rush. I would be surprised if they caught even half of what I said. I felt eyes on me, and I looked to the review mirror. Alice looked exactly like I thought she would. Black spiky hair, real topaz eyes, very pale skin.

"Dee. There is a lot for us to discuss. Why don't we get you something to eat, you haven't had a real meal in days." How did she know that? My traitor of a stomach betrayed me yet again, and we all heard it grumble. "Sure." I sighed. I felt that I could trust these people, even though they did kidnap me. I usually went with my gut instinct, so I would continue to go with it. "She trusts us." I heard Jasper whisper. I probably wasn't supposed to hear, but I did anyways. I just pretended like I didn't hear anything. If these were the real Cullen's, then Alice could see the future, and Jasper could feel my emotions.

We pulled into a parking lot, and it was surprisingly overcast. For the city of Las Vegas that was new. It rarely rained here. And even when it was overcast, the sun could break through the clouds at any moment, without any warning. They got out of the car, and Jasper held my door open for me. "Thanks…" I mumbled getting out of the car. "No problem." He smiled, but I noticed his neck muscles straining slightly. Alice grabbed my hand and walked me up to Chili's. One of my favorite restaurants. How did she know? I thought. But then again, she was a phsycic. I smiled to myself. They have to be the real thing. Alice's hand was cold against mine, and it felt like I was holding the hand of a moving statue, only much, much colder.

How in the world did I get lucky enough to even MEET the Cullen's? They were supposed to be fictional characters, after all. And here I was, getting ready to have lunch with them. Here I was, someone who didn't deserve anything good in her life, even her boyfriend, who, lets be honest, doest really treat her right in the first place.

Alice smiled at me and pulled me into a booth far away from the rest of the customers. "Welcome to Chili's, I will be your waiter for this afternoon, can I get you something to drink?" The waiter came up to the table and asked us, setting down three menus. "Dee?" Alice asked. Of course they wouldn't drink anything. "Dr. Pepper?" I asked the waiter. "Of course. And would you two like anything to drink?" the waiter asked. "No, thank you." Jasper said in a final tone. "And you miss?" he turned his attention to Alice. "No, but thank you." She said with a smile. "Alright, I will be back in a few minuets to give you your drink and take your orders." The man said, with a very, corny smile, in my opinion, and walked off.

Then I thought of something. How was I going to pay for this meal? I don't carry my purse around with me everywhere I go in the house, especially not sitting in a chair waiting to be kidnapped. Note the sarcasm. "If you guys would have let me come on my own free will, I would have been able to pay for this." I said, feeling the blush creep up on my cheeks. I always blushed very easily. "Just wait until Alice decides to take you shopping." Jasper said with a laugh. "Oh no! Not shopping!" I said in mock horror. Alice laughed, "Maybe later. Just remember Dee, we don't mind buying things for you. Especially considering we have enough money to buy just about anything you will ever find in a mall 100 times over, not like I'm trying to brag or anything mind you." She told me with a smile. Her smile was contagious, I couldn't help but smile back. I saw my reflection in the window when I looked at my left, and I sighed. I looked terrible.

"Uhm… Alice? Do you have eyeliner that I can borrow?" I asked her as polite as I could manage. She just smiled at me and pulled a stick of black eyeliner and a small brush out of her purse. "Thank you so much Alice." I smiled and excused myself to the bathroom. Good thing she didn't follow me into the bathroom either. Just as I walked in my phone rang. I took my phone out of my pocket and checked the caller ID.

"Hello?" I asked somewhat excitedly. It was Brian. I loved him with all my heart, don't get me wrong here. Its just… I could only see him when it was convenient for HIM. Meaning, if he wasn't at his brother's getting high, and he had a ride from his house to mine, he would come over alone. If not, heather would have to be here so his friend, which is heather's boyfriend, wouldn't get bored being here with us, because 'supposedly' he doesn't know his way here from Keven's house. Either that or he just doesn't like walking alone. Which I can understand, but come on. We have only been together, alone, ONCE. Because my father was nice enough to pick him up from his house on our way back from one of my doctors appointments. "Hey baby, what's going on?" he asked. I struggled with how I was going to answer him. I couldn't very well just tell him that I was happily kidnapped by a couple of vampires who are taking me out to lunch.

"Well, I'm out with a few friends right now. What are you up to?" I said, and to keep him off the subject of me for once, I asked him a question. "Oh not much, just wondering if you wanted to hang out today. I heard heather might spend the night tonight." Oh shit I was in deep trouble now. How, exactly, does one tell her boyfriend that she has no idea WHEN she will be able to hang out, because she has no idea WHEN she will be home next? "Well… I'm not too sure yet. I'm not home right now, but when I find out what all is going on, I will call you okay?" I said crossing my fingers. "Yeah sure babe, not a problem." I slowly let the breath out that I had no clue I was holding. "Alright then… I will call you later." I told him. I hated talking to him on the phone, it got awkward at times. "Okay then." He sighed. "I love you," he said. My heart skipped a beat. "Yeah, I love you two. Bye." I said while looking at myself in the mirror. I looked like hell. "Bye baby." He said and hung up. I shoved my phone back into my pocket and got working on that eyeliner.

Thank goodness that was over with. I hated lying, but how the hell does one really explain this? And, of course, not have your boyfriend thinking you are completely insane? I sighed as I finished my eyeliner and got to work on my hair. I hadn't even noticed what I was wearing until now. My black trip pants, and my boyfriend's baggie black shirt with a huge glow in the dark skull on it. This shirt was 2 times too big for me, but it was comfortable, and I liked it. Plus he left it at my house one day, so I took the liberty of washing it. The only bad part was is I haven't seen him since, and that was longer than a week ago. I sighed again, and walked out of the bathroom. Why did I always seem to get the wrong guy? I mean, Brian is great, he really is. But, he is never THERE for me when I need him. I have seen him what, a total of 13 times, give or take? He barely talks to me on the phone. Hell I talk to my ex boyfriend more than I talk to Brian.

Doesn't something just seem wrong about that? My ex boyfriend, of course, C.J, he is now my best friend, well besides my parents and heather but you get the idea. Brian doesn't like it, but I don't really care. C.J and I will probably ALWAYS be friends. C.J is there for me more than Brian is. Now that is just sad. Even with Brian's class ring on my left hand, glittering in the right light, I questioned how far our relationship was going to go before it ended up like all the rest of his, well from what he tells me. Basically, not talking to one another, neither one really saying it's over, but both of them knowing it's over and moves on like nothing ever happened. I hate to admit it, but sometimes I get the feeling that that is EXACTLY what was going to happen. And I really wanted this relationship to work, but how can it when he doesn't put forth the same amount of effort?

I sat down in the booth once again, absentmindedly handing Alice back her things. I was still in sort of a daydream, until thankfully; Alice brought me out of my thoughts. "Who is Brian?" she asked me. I should have known she would have seen the ring. "Brian? He is sort of my boyfriend… I kind of don't feel like talking about him right now." I said. Truth be told I DID want to talk about it. Just not in front of Jasper. I wanted Alice's advice on what to do, knowing that she would know what's best, but in front of Jasper? I was very uneasy with talking about it in front of him. "Sure thing dear, don't worry, I will set up some girl time for us later." She said with a smile and winked at me when I looked up. I smiled. "Thanks." I said. She just nodded and looked to her left; I followed her gaze and found that the waiter was on his way over to take my order.

I placed my order, chicken fingers and fries, my usual, and both Alice and Jasper didn't order a thing. Of course not. I sort of felt like a pig, well I would have if I was with HUMANS and was the only one going to eat. When the waiter was far enough away, I took this change to let my curiously get the best of me. "So, why exactly are you guys kidnapping me to goddess only knows where?" I asked. To be honest this question was burning a whole through my brain, slowly, yet surely. "Well, I have to be honest here. You and Brian, you guys aren't going to last. You probably already know that though… Anyways, I had a vision, of you lying on your bed crying, and writing down something in a notebook. You kept looking at your hand which held the class ring on it, and began to sob again. This happened last Saturday correct?" she told me. That was when I got caught.

I made a big mistake. I took my dads truck, without permission, and without a license, to Kmart, and got busted. I had needed Brian to be there for me, to comfort me. I called him on the phone and he PROMISED me he would be at my house. Did he show up? No. I only just yesterday found out the reason why. His parents overheard me telling him what was going on, and are now mad at him for it. They made him go to his brother's house, to make sure he didn't go to mine. I suppose they think I am a bad influence on him now. Me? The bad influence?!!! Oh hell no honey, if anything, HE is the bad influence. "Yeah, that's right." I said putting my head down. I will always beat myself up over this.

"Well, I also saw you talking to your mom about moving up to Forks, Washington when you get older." She began. I nodded to let her know I was paying attention, even though I didn't dare look into her eyes. "Well, you know that normally, I can't see anything when werewolves are involved, correct?" she asked. I nodded again. "Well, when your fate is mixed with theirs, I can see everything." She told me. This sparked my interest. My head flew up. "How did my fate get mixed with theirs?" I asked.

"Well, I saw you going to first beach when you first come to Forks, and there, you meet Embry." She said. My eyes grew wide. "Embry will imprint on me wont he?" I asked. She nodded, eyes wide just like mine. This was all just too much, after what happened to me last week, and all these dreams I've been having. In one way, I want them to be my visions, but then I look at myself in the mirror, and I know. I don't deserve a vision that shows GOOD, so why would I get one? I don't. I only get the bad ones. I wanted to curse under my breath, but I refrained from doing so, with much effort.

"How did you know that?" She asked me. I shrugged. "I have a curse. I can see the future too, just like you can." I told her nonchantly. "Well that explains a lot." She mused. "What do you mean?" I asked. "Well normally I don't have visions about random people unless I have some sort of a connection with them. This must be our first connection. Visions." She told me with a smile. I nodded. "Well… if he imprints on me a few years from now, why are you taking me out of Vegas NOW?" I asked. "Well… for some reason, he has just lost all hope of finding you. He thinks he doesn't have an imprint, and that he is useless. He is planning on killing himself a week from today. And honey, I've seen your future without Embry… I don't wish what I saw on my worst enemies." She whispered the last part. I shuddered. So she knew then? I wouldn't even ask. Best keep that one to myself.

"So basically, you are taking me to La Push, to speed up the process of imprinting, even though it will happen no matter what, and basically save both of our lives?" I asked. She nodded. I nodded in return and checked my phone. Oooooooh yay a new text message to keep my mind occupied for the next three minuets before my food arrived, "Hey sis." Taylor, one of my other friends I called sister, texted me. Wow. I'm really late for picking Heather up from the bus stop. She will call me when she gets home. She always does when I don't show up. In a way, I will be able to explain my situation to heather better than I could anyone else. She already knew about Embry, well, to a point. "Hey sis, how was your day?" I texted her back. By the time it sent and I put the phone on the table, my food was here. "I hope you enjoy your meal miss." The waiter smiled and walked away before I could say thank you. Before I pierced the first piece of chicken with my fork, my phone vibrated. I got a new text from Taylor. "My day was okay until about ten minuets ago." She sent. "Why what happened?" I texted her back. I set my phone back down and felt that I was being stared at.

I looked up at them both. They had looks of disgust on their faces. "What?" I asked. "How can you eat that stuff?" Jasper asked. I laughed. "Well for ME its normal, and it tastes good." I said and shrugged.

I looked down at my food and pierced the first piece of chicken with my fork and popped it in my mouth. Man it was sooooooooo good, I smiled to myself as I chewed. "I will be right back ladies; I have to go take a drive." Jasper said, I looked up and nodded. "Have fun!" Alice exclaimed, he laughed and got up. I watched him walk away. 'I wonder what all that was about' I thought to myself. I picked up a French fry and ate it, while looking at my phone. New message. Whoo hoo!! "*sighs* oh I fell… again. I am so clumsy I swear." She texted me. I rolled my eyes. It was always either C.J didn't kiss her, or she fell. And that's why it turns out to be a bad day. "Are you okay?" I sent to her, and then looked up at Alice. She was watching me intently, probably wondering why I haven't gotten up and ran off screaming or something.

"So… where is Jasper going?" I asked her. "Oh, he is going to the store to get you something." She smiled. What is the pixie up to now? I wondered. I narrowed my eyes at her. "Like what?" I asked. "You know that nasty little habit of yours? Smoking? Well I saw that you would be asking us to get you some anyways, so I asked him to go ahead and go so that way you and I could have some girl time." She said with a bright smile. Oh crap. I hadn't even thought that plan completely though yet. "Err.. Thanks I guess." I said and smiled slightly to show her I really was grateful. "Your welcome. So, tell me about Brian." She told me.

I sighed. I really hated explaining this all. "Well.. When C.J left the first time, Brian and I started going out. At first, everything was great… then I realized I was really late in getting my period. After I told him that, everything has just been going downhill. I've taken… tons of at home pregnancy tests, and each one came out negative. I'm waiting for my dad to take me to the doctor to hear my results, which should be in a few days." I started. She nodded, "Your not having a baby, don't worry your fine." She said. I nodded. "Well, even so. He doesn't really treat me like he promised he would. He is never THERE for me. I don't see him that often, and even when he promises me he is going to be there… he never is." I said. "Sometimes I just wonder if he got bored with me, and now wants to move on. Which I'm fine with. Like my friend Taylor says, I can get someone SO much better than him… which, hopefully, Embry will be." I said with a crooked smile at the end. She smiled with me. "You are going to be SO much more happier with Embry, trust me." She said and winked.

Then I thought of something. One, I need to break up with Brian now… and two, I cant STAY in La Push. "Alice… you aren't going to try to make me STAY in La Push are you?" I asked. "Oh no dear, Embry is moving in the house across the street from you. I already bought it for him and everything. For the next year you guys will be able to be together, Jake already gave me the okay." She told me. "Oh." My eyes opened wide. "You just think of everything don't you?" I asked. She laughed. "Pretty much." She said. I smiled, but then remembered something.

I slammed my head onto the table and groaned. I'm supposed to be grounded. I should be home right now, and my mom and dad where probably on their way home by now. "Is my dad home yet?" I asked Alice. "No he wont be for another 20 minutes… why?" she asked. Wow, I never thought I would hear that question come out of her mouth. "I'm supposed to be grounded, and if they find that I'm not home when they get home, I'm dead." I said looking back up at her. "Don't worry Dee, geeze. I took care of everything. Your dad thinks your staying at your real moms for the next few weeks. I called him and asked him for you." She said. "And he bought that?" I asked. "Yeah he thought I was you." She said simply. I blinked. "Now THAT'S interesting." I said and looked at my phone. 'yeah I'm fine sis don't worry about it.' Taylor sent me. 'Alright just making sure' I sent to her.

"So now I just have to make it LOOK like I've packed for a 2 weeks trip to Lois's. That's going to be fun." I said rolling my eyes. "Jasper is taking care of that, don't worry. He got your charger, your sunglasses, your favorite lighter, your schoolwork, some pens, your diary, your purse, your keys, and your smokes from the outback." She said naming each one off while looking behind me at something else, probably remembering a vision. "I seriously have to thank that man when he gets back." I said. "I still don't get it..." I thought. "Why do I deserve all of this?" I continued. Really I didn't. I mean, come on. What good have I done to deserve all of this? "You have to get it in your head Dee, we LIKE helping others. We do what we can. Especially for the ones we know we are all going to grow to love." She told me and winked at me. I smiled.

"Still doesn't make me feel better though." I joked with her. "Oh Dee…" she said with an apologetic smile. "Its not like I am EVER going to be able to pay you guys back or anything." I told her seriously. "The ONLY thing we ask, is that when you have kids, we get to see them." She said putting her hands up in surrender. "Okay, okay, of course Alice." I said with a smile.

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"No, No time to shop right now, we have a deadline." Alice said to me. Not like I was looking forward to shopping…. Again. I think she was saying it more to herself than anyone. We where half way to Washington by now, and Alice, Jasper and I had just passed a sign saying something about a big mall in Redmond Oregon. And on top of it all, it was nearly after midnight. I was getting tired. I yawned "Good. No shopping." I mumbled and decided to smoke my last cigarette of the night. Alice rolled down the windows, and good thing Jasper was nice enough to bring me my jacket cause the breeze was a bit chilly. Before I lit my cigarette I put my jacket on and looked at my phone again. C.J and I have been texting non stop. I guess it was a good thing it was a Friday, or else I would be extremely bored. "So what are you going to do about Brian?" he texted me. "*sigh* I'm probably going to break up with him." I texted back, then dug into my purse for my cigarettes and lighter.

Jasper had gotten me a CARTON of cigarettes. This man, was now dubbed my hero. A carton will last me about a week, and no worries about having to call and beg my dad for a pack that day. I lit my cigarette then took a good long drag. I have a boyfriend that seems to not want me, I have an ex that mostly does everything but talk about either Taylor or asking me personal questions. I still have a soft spot in my heart for C.J, so I normally don't get too upset with him. Then I have the fact that I'm grounded, I fucked up and I keep blaming myself for everything on the face of this earth that could go wrong in my house. And people wonder why I smoke.

"Really? Well what are you going to do after you break up with him?" C.J texted me. I rolled my eyes. What did he expect me to say to that? 'oh yeah I'm probably going to end up begging you back because after a week or so I'm going to be horribly sex deprived.' HA! Yeah right. Instead, I will just tell him "I don't know." So I did, and sent it. That should get a HUGE response out of him. Note my sarcasm. Most days it seems to just roll off my tongue like a second language. I took a drink of my Dr. Pepper, and my phone rang. No, it didn't vibrate, it rang, meaning someone was calling me. Oh gods it was Brian. "Hello?" I asked, making my voice sound like he had woken me up.

"Hey babe… did I wake you up?" Brian said. "Mmhmn." I mumbled for the added effect. "I am so sorry." He said slurring his words. Oh no, he was drunk again. "I just… I just wanted to call you and tell you that Keven and I are having, a BLAST over here at, at uhm… my sisters house! Yeah. You should have called me earlier. You could have been able to come to this party." He said, slurring tons of his words. I sighed heavily. "Brian, even if I DID call you, I wouldn't have been allowed to go. You know I'm grounded. Plus, I'm not even at home." I said taking a really deep drag off my cigarette. I saw Jasper turn and look at me with concerned eyes. "He's drunk" I whispered low enough only they would have been able to hear. Jasper made an O shape with his mouth, and mouthed "sorry" to me. I shrugged. "Yeah I still cant believe you did that! Are you crazy Dee Dee?!!! Didn't I tell you? Didn't I tell you NOT to do it?" he asked. "Brian, I'm going to hang up on you if you don't nock it off." I warned. "No don't hang up on me! I sorry. You know, I am really drunk AND high right now?! Its great!" he said. I sighed. "Brian…" I couldn't even BEGIN to put together words in my head of what I was going to tell him, about how disappointed I was in him.

"What? You wish I was there instead of here don't you?" he asked me, in what I considered, a very rude tone. "If you are going to talk to me in that tone, then no I really DON'T wish you where here with me." I told him, my anger flaring up at once. "You don't have to be a bitch about it babe. I'm just messing with you." He said. "Ugh! Fuck you Brian." I said and hung up. I threw that cigarette out the window and lit up another one. Lord knows I'm going to need it.

"Want to talk about it?" Jasper asked me. "I cant BELIEVE he just did that. That is… well its not the Brian I know." I told Jasper and looked out the window. "Does it sound like, to you, that he doesn't want to be with me?" I asked, then looked back at Jasper. "Its really not my place to say… but in a way… yeah it does. I'm sorry." He said, sending me an apologetic smile. "Its okay, thank you for being honest with me." I said and looked out the window again. I was still pissed as hell, but I suddenly began to feel calm. "Thanks Jasper." I said not looking at him, I knew it was him. "Anytime." He said, I could hear the smile and sincerity in his voice.

Then my phone vibrated. "O ok… do you think that, if you do break up with him… that you know, you and I would ever get together again?" C.J texted me. Oh god not this again. "C.J… Don't break up with Taylor. You know that if you do I will be forced to go to your house with a crow bar and cheerfully beat you to death." I texted him back. I hated it when he asked me shit like this. And of course, no I would never be with C.J again. If Alice was telling the truth, which I'm sure she is, then I wont be without a boyfriend for longer than 20 minuets after meeting Embry. I can almost guarantee that one.

"Why not Dee? Come on, you know you want to be with me… and you know I want to be with you." He texted. I rolled my eyes yet again. Time for the lies to roll off my tongue… well fingers…. Like a second language. "C.J, I wouldn't go out with you if you did that to Taylor. Do you realize how fucked up that would be of me? Going out with you RIGHT AFTER she goes out with you? I would feel so guilty C.J. Please don't make me have to feel guilty." I texted. "Man trouble?" Alice asked with a laugh. "Up the ass." I murmured. This made us all laugh our asses off until I got another text. "Dee… she doesn't have to know." He said. "*sighs* what if I just don't want to date for a while?" I texted him. Why was he being so difficult. "Alice why is he being so difficult?" I asked. Rhetorical question of course, but I'm sure that if she could blush while saying this, she would be.

"Well…. He is rather…. In the mood for some company." She said. "Oh… well that explains a lot." I said. Jasper could not stop laughing, therefore I could not stop laughing. "Oh god don't do that to me Jasper I cant breathe!" I laughed. "Why not?!" he laughed. "Cause… you laughing…. Like that…. Makes me laugh…. And if you… look at me… I will…. Laugh harder!" I said in between giggles. He tried calming down for me, but it didn't work for a while. I thought I was going to die.

"Why Dee? Do you just not want to be with me? If you don't… you can tell me." C.J sent me. "It has nothing to do with that C.J, please, just give me some time okay?" I sent him back. I had finally calmed down by now, and I was getting tired. I fell asleep before I could see what he was going to text back.