VL- Hey Guys, I am really excited for this story because I have been planning it for awhile. It will probably have about 30 chapters (because that is how much I have written so far.)

Betaed by Taoreta

Disclaimer- I do not own Twilight. All rights go to Stephanie Meyer. I only own a few of my own characters.
So on with the show...I mean story people!

BPOV

"Bella, answer me. What's wrong?"

"Oh. Sorry Edward, I was just thinking..." I trailed off. His brow furrowed in confusion and he ran a hand through his bronze hair. I knew it upset him that he couldn't read my thoughts, and I was contemplating whether or not if I should tell him my secret. One that I have been keeping for some time now.

Maybe Alice already knew. I smiled lightly at the thought. No. Even if Alice did know, she wouldn't say anything about it-she was trustworthy, I knew that.

It wasn't horrible. But it could be if the wrong person found out. After all, I wasn't the same person I was just a few months before.

When Edward left me, I was just an empty shell among the living, no emotion or feeling. But when I heard he was going to reveal himself during the festival, I rushed to the Volturi to save him, like he'd done for me so many times before.

I know he left me, but there must have been a reason that his kiss felt so passionate and yet desperate when we met up again after so long. It didn't make sense and I never got a straight answer, which confused me more. A few weeks prior to Edward's departure to Italy, I had talked to Carlisle. Somehow we came to the subject of mates. From what I could understand, if you were separated for a great amount of time, you would feel great pain, and afterward, you would die.

To me, those months apart felt like I was being burned internally by some invisible force, so strong that all I could do was cry out in agony.

I heard that most vampires only make it four months apart and then they kick the bucket. Lucky for me, I am human, yet I still felt pain. I have tried to come up with a reason why I had felt pain, staying up late into the night until I got headaches, but came up with none. Though, I did begin to discover how different Edward and I are. I began think that maybe things were just too different between us.

Of course, I hid this from Edward. I didn't want to hurt him. I know how that would turn out and I might never see him again. I don't think I could bear that-Not again; never again.

"Bella?" a warm voice called, snapping me out of my trance like state.

"Yes," I answered. He pulled me to his chest, and I tried to ignore the small sparks of pain that shot up my chest.

"You should really get to sleep love," he said, pulling the blanket up to cover me. I nodded, closing my eyes. Huh, how ironic. When we're apart it hurts and even when we're together it hurts.

For now, I would keep it to myself, I decided.

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