Hey guys! So, this is a new story and I want you all to give it a shot! I came up with this but, I have no clue how, but I did!
Warnings: Very Emotional.
A Special Thanks To My Beta Reader-lizzzxx0
ON MY WAY
PROLOGUE
If you love someone unconditionally and with your whole heart, then you will do what is best for them, not you. I have never learned a harder lesson than giving my child up for adoption and I probably never will.
When Clare Edwards was seventeen years old, she did the hardest thing that any human being could ever do.
Some people think that witnessing a death is hard, breaking up with the one you love is hard or letting go of the past is hard. But, Clare Edwards knew that there was no way out of this situation. She had to do whatever it takes to protect the ones she loved and in order to do this, she had to let go.
Elijah Goldsworthy, the love of her life, the one who swept her off of her feet. The guy who, no matter what would be there for her. When they fought, they'd always get through it and find a way to fix their problems because in the end they both knew they needed each other at the end of the day.
Clare had made several wrong decisions in her life before, but she was determined to make the right one this time.
On a rainy Friday night in the middle of January, Clare had handed over her purity ring to Eli. Even though she had done it with a shaky hand, she knew it was the right thing to do.
Eli loved her and he promised he would never leave her. His words had cut deeper than his actions when he had corrupted her innocence.
It's funny how Clare had lived through the most painful experience she had ever gone through that night. Yet, the physical pain was just the beginning. The aftermath of Elijah making love to Clare had been somewhat more enjoyable than the act of sex. He had held his arms wide open as she snuggled into his shoulder.
What they didn't know was that the worst possible thing happened that night.
The next morning, Eli had glanced down at the garbage can that had only one condom inside of it. Considering Eli had turned into a clean freak and started throwing everything that was unnecessary to have out, he only glared at the latex condom lying lazily inside.
Clare had been sleeping restlessly since he had got out of the bed and he squinted his eyes to see a tiny hole at the tip of the condom. He simply shook his head, trying to eliminate the negative thoughts.
One month later, Clare had missed her period and had been vomiting. Clare had always gotten her period on time so there was no doubt that something was wrong. She had thought nothing of it, nothing of a pregnancy scare. Eli had convinced her that it was just a stomach virus and the illness had caused her to miss her time of the month.
Clare had agreed, but she had known that it was not because of her sickness.
Clare's belly had begun to grow slightly after two weeks and the "flu" had passed. Eli had caved and started to suspect that the tiny whole in that condom had created the biggest hole in his life.
"I think it's time we get a pregnancy test," Clare told Eli for the tenth time that day. He shook his head, not wanting to face his mistake. He knew it was an expired condom but, at the time Clare was ready and Eli wasn't going to deny her any longer than he already had.
He gave her what she's always wanted, him.
That day, a few hours later, Eli had caved and went out to buy a pregnancy test for her. He went through the aisles with his eyes looking bloodshot and hands shaking slightly.
This was the scariest thing he ever done in his life.
"It's positive," the two words that echoed through Eli's ears for nearly nine months of Clare's pregnancy.
They had both survived the pregnancy with tiny fights here and there. Clare and Eli both thought raising a child would be hard, too much for them to handle on their own and both Clare and Eli's parents had given up on them.
It was Clare and Eli against the world.
"We have to give it up for adoption," the eight words that sent Clare over the edge and tears poured down her cheeks faster than she could imagine.
Clare and Eli had both "agreed" to give up the baby that they had created to the adoption agency. They had picked out the ideal family in less than a month. The soon to be parents to their baby were perfect. They were happy, had plenty of money to take care of the baby and plenty of love to go around.
Clare had been tired, worn out and worst of all...heartbroken. Clare and Eli had both contemplated on whether or not they should see the baby or not and in the end, they decided they would rather not.
Eli buried his head in the crook of Clare's neck and she squeezed his hand tightly when she heard the baby cry. Tears streamed down their faces and dripped onto each other's lips.
Eli didn't want to see the baby and neither did Clare because then they would become attached. This was the worst part of her pregnancy, giving her first baby girl up. The moment Eli had pulled away from Clare's neck to take a shaky breath, she had unintentionally glanced at her baby and she wrapped her arms around Eli's neck tightly and cried harder than the baby.
"It's alright Clare," he whispered in her ear.
What she didn't know was that glance had forever scarred her for life.
She felt horrible, as if this was the WORST decision she had ever made.
But now, Clare is sitting in her living room and glaring at the blank TV in front of her. Eli works most of the time to support her and the apartment they share. She usually goes out running, running until her heart is beating so fast she can't think and running until her legs go so numb she can't move.
Running, the one thing that makes Clare feel pain, pain that makes up for the emotional pain that her baby daughter will have to endure when she finds out she's "that kid". The kid whose parents didn't love her enough so they gave her up.
That's how Clare looks at this situation, a tragedy.
She knows she shouldn't and Eli tells her every minute of every day that giving up baby Lilly, was a miracle in itself.
A miracle is something happy, something that makes you smile and makes you feel worth living.
The problem here is Clare doesn't smile, she isn't happy and she doesn't want to live.
So, continue or not?
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Cliffhanger Girl
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