Hey guys I know some of you have posted prompt ideas I haven't forgotten but I will probably try and incorporate what people are suggesting into one big story. For now I'm doing a few one shots and short stories but anyway. So I was watching the cleaner yesterday which Grace Park stared in and for those who don't know it's about four people who were all drug addicts or gambling addicts ect and the main guy helped them all recover and now they help others. Anyway in one episode one character relapses after being forced to do drugs whilst undercover to keep his cover and I thought why not have a member of Five-0 do that so I obviously picked Kono.

I hope you enjoy please let me know if I should continue I know it's a bit different. Also I don't know much about drugs or recovering from drugs and being able to become a police officer so if things are a bit off I apologise.

Chapter 1

It had started on a case a few weeks ago. She had gone undercover working the drug circuit trying to work out what everyone was using and if Hayden the girl they were looking for had been seen by anyone. Of course they were less than helpful and Kono's constant questions began to arouse suspicion with the main man. Kono took a shaky breath as she re-lived what happened.

"Hey princess get over here" Nick called the guy who appeared to be running things.

Kono hated being called princess it was a drug circuit for heaven sake she was hardly dressed as a princess but her woven story she had spewed at the men about once being a daddy's girl and he cut her off earned her the name of princess with Nick.

"What's up?" She asked as she faked the messed up high look.

"You hiding something from me?" He asked venomously.

"What mate no I aint hiding shit" She warbled.

"What's with all the questions then you a cop or something?"

"Fuck off nah man Hayden was a friend"

"Yeah you sure you lying coz I aint seen you smoke shit yet your always high you faking?"

"I aint faking nothing get your head out your arse!" Kono snapped

"Get here" Nick bit as he dragged Kono over to his mates and sat her on a box.

Kono looked shocked as she was forcefully held in place while Nick lit a joint and raised his gun.

"What the fuck Nick!"

"Smoke it" He threatened the gun against her temple.

Kono fought the growing fear and desperation. She hadn't touched drugs since Chin help her get clean when she was nineteen. She had only started because of her knee injury. It started with prescription pills before becoming something bigger to deal with the pain. She had never lapsed once but with a gun against her head and no back up around she didn't have a choice. The idea of one smoke began to consume her and she smoked the joint with ease her body relaxing instantly.

"That's my girl" Nick spoke as he walked off and left her sitting there feeling the effects of the drugs.

The team had found Kono later that night after she called them. She hadn't meant to go to the drug group but she had to keep the cover up so went without back up. The guys had been furious with her but eventually calmed down. It was the next day that Kono told Danny she had been forced to spoke a joint and filled him in on her past. He had asked her if she was okay and if it was a one off which she confirmed. She promised she wouldn't be going near drugs she didn't need them and begged Danny not to tell the other two or Adam. Danny had agreed but only because Kono told him it was nothing to worry about and she didn't want Chin worrying.

Kono however had broken her promise of it being a one off. She hadn't meant to but that feeling of being high the relaxation it brought her it was just too good to fight. She had got in contact with her old dealer racking up a decent stash. She told herself she would only use it when she was really stressed then wean herself of it but she couldn't. She was snorting shit, smoking shit and injecting herself doing whatever she could get her hands on. She kept it under the radar only using a trusted dealer because she was a cop at the end of the day if she got caught…bye bye job.

"Kono get out here!" Steve called from the main room.

Kono was taken by surprise at his voice and quickly hid her stash in her draw. She needed a fix but couldn't get it right now so she grabbed some water and headed out to the team.

"Cuz you okay?" Chin asked worriedly.

"Hmm yeah really bad headache it will pass" Kono smiled as she avoided Danny questions eye.

"Okay well you can stay here and be on tech stuff then Kono we have a location on our suspect so will ring when we need you" Steve instructed simply.

Ordinarily Kono would argue that she was always stuck with tech stuff but today she just wanted the guys out her way so she could get what she needed.

"Okay that's fine" Kono agreed as the guys grabbed their gear and headed out.

Kono waited for them to go and checked out the window to see them drive off before running to her desk. She pulled out a gram of coke and began making her lines. She grabbed a ten dollar note out her purse and rolled it up using it to snort the coke. She wiped her nose and sniffed before lying back in the chair as her comfort returned. Noting she had plenty of time before the guys would likely return she lit up a cigarette and sat smoking leaving the paperwork for another day.

Kono returned home that evening to Adam sighing as she collapsed on the couch. She was exhausted from lack of sleep and from lying. Unlike when she was a teen addict she actually realised what she was doing was wrong. She had learnt through rehab that admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery. Kono knew she was very much dancing on a line between wanting to stop and wanting to continue.

"Babe you okay?" Adam asked as he noted Kono's eyes. "Why are your eyes all red?"

"I'm just really tired and I've had a terrible headache all day I need sleep" She lied easily.

"You need to eat something"

"I grabbed food before I left work" Kono lied as she headed towards the bathroom.

When in the bathroom she rummaged through her bag looking for anything. She found another gram and proceeded to repeat her earlier actions and snorted the coke. Kono looked at herself in the mirror. Her hair was a mess and her eyes were dilated and red, her skin pasty and ill looking. It was like she was eighteen again. As she put things back in her bag again she was interrupted by Adam knocking on the door.

"Kono why did you take your bag in the bathroom with you?" He asked curiously.

Kono's heart raced as she thought of a reasonable lie to tell him.

"I needed a tampon and had one in my bag can you leave me I'm trying to pee" She called.

"Babe you sure you alright?"

Kono sighed in frustration and moved to the toilet and proceeded to actually pee hoping the sound would be heard through the door.

"I'd be better if I could pee in peace" She called before giving it a minute and flushing.

Kono walked into the bedroom and began getting dressed while Adam lay on the bed watching her. She could feel his gaze but ignored it as she pulled her pyjama shorts on. She made a mistake of wiping her nose and sniffing as she crawled into the bed. She didn't miss Adam's raised brow at the tiny action. Most would probably have ignored it but Kono had told Adam about her drug addiction as a teen when they first started dating. She had to through him of the scent.

"I'm sorry I'm snappy baby but getting your period and feeling ill and tired isn't a great combination" Kono said softly.

Adam sighed and pulled her close allowing her to lie on his chest and curl up snuggly.

"It's okay baby get some sleep" Adam said quietly.

Kono closed her eyes but was overcome with a sensation of guilt. She felt bad for what she was doing and deep down she didn't want to but she didn't know how to stop and her stubborn nature prevented her from leaning on someone. She tried to ignore it and fell asleep in Adam's arms.