Set after episode 3.21 Desire
Addison/Alex Pairing A/U ONE'You're not my girlfriend'. The words ring in my ears as I leave the hospital, it hurts, and it physically hurts. I can hear my heart beating louder and faster in my ears as if its about to rip in two. How did I get myself into that situation? How did I fall for him? He was my cocky, arrogant intern, a pain in the ass, but he turned out to be so much more; a misguided guy who really did care and wanted to do well, strong drive and determination and the way he was with Ava made my heart melt. He genuinely cared. How could I let myself believe that he wanted me? I kissed him in Joe's bar, I kissed him in the corridor, it was all me. He never really cared for me. I wipe a tear from my eye as I climb into my car at the hospital car park. I have to move on, I have to work with the guy. God, I need a drink. I pull into the hotel car park and turn off the engine. It's deadly quiet, so late everyone's asleep or tucked up in bed with people they love. I sigh and open my door grabbing my bag and lock the car heading for reception.
"Evening Miss Montgomery, how are you?" asks the man politely on reception. I sigh and take my post from him.
"Bad day, can you send me up a bottle of wine and the special deluxe chocolate basket with strawberries?" I ask and he nods picking up the phone. I smile and take my room key from him.
I open the door and look around my room, can I call it home? It may be where I live but I can't call it home. I'm lonely. I unscrew the bottle of wine that the man kindly hands me and place the basket of chocolate and strawberries on the bed. I thank him and close the door. I can't be bothered with being proper so I just take a swig from the bottle and enjoy the way the alcohol burns down my throat so I take another swig and walk to my wardrobe door. I pull out a pair of joggers, designer but still the comfiest thing I have, and a plain red rest top. Standing where I am I pull off my heels and clothes and strip off climbing into the comfortable new ones as if shedding everything that happened today and starting afresh. I shove my dirty clothes into the wash and throw myself onto my bed and open the basket. Let the party begin. Half a bottle of wine later I find myself laughing at the TV programme it's not even funny but I feel better. I feel relaxed finally and smile to myself. I can do this, I don't need anybody. Suddenly the room phone rings and I roll over to reach for it.
"Hello Seattle," I say and giggle down the phone. I'll have to apologise for that in the morning and I laugh again.
"Miss there is someone down here to see you. A male visitor, he won't give his name but he would like to come up. Do I have your permission?" he says softly and I pause. Maybe it's Mark. I could do with some comfort sex, I feel guilty about our pact but I know it wouldn't have worked out in the end. I pause again, maybe its Callie she's sent someone to cheer me up a male someone. Oh dear the alcohol has definitely kicked in. I sigh.
"Sure send him up to the party," I say and hang up. I sniff and wipe underneath my eyes and eat another chocolate almost forgetting the conversation I just had. The doorbell rings and it makes me jump causing me to burst out laughing. I stumble to the door and open it, my mouth falls open. I stare at him and don't speak for a few seconds.
"How did you…who gave you my…what?" I say and then pause.
"I rang the O'Malley's, Callie gave it to me," he says softly, "Can I come in?" he asks.
"Alex…I…um…ok," I say and open the door letting him inside.