Shi = C (The shinobi from Kumo)

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Hinata clutched the hem of her cardigan as she waited for her husband to respond. "If we do this, will you forgive me?" Naruto asked.

"It's a s-start," she responded. Unable to meet his blue eyes, she picked up her plate and put it in the sink. She heard him push his chair out and walk towards her.

"Then I'll do it. I'll do anything for you to forgive me." He tried to wrap his arms around her but she moved away. "Please, Hinata. Just let me hold you."

Not answering him, she walked to their bedroom and locked it. It had been a few weeks since they shared the same bed, since she found out about his affair. Hinata had thought the world of Naruto and when he broke her trust, she had been devastated. She picked at her flaws and shortcomings, comparing them to his mistress. Hinata's eyes were now dull while she had no doubt that hers were still bright and green.

His cover had been blown when she happened to see a text come in on his phone. Unable to dispute it, Naruto begged for forgiveness. He swore he had broken it off earlier but she wouldn't stop harassing him. As he spewed pitiful excuses, Hinata could only stare in dismay.

His betrayal crushed her self-worth. Even though he swore that he loved her, she didn't believe his words anymore. No one loved her. Not her father, her sister, cousin, or her husband. Yet she was stuck with Naruto because she had abandoned her family when they turned their nose at their relationship.

Now she was alone and hurting. Negative thoughts filled her head and she often found herself looking at ways to escape her misery. When thoughts of harming herself came to mind, she decided to get help. However she wanted Naruto to join her in couple's therapy. Her friend had recommended Inoichi Yamanaka, praising his abilities to salvage her own marriage. However it was impossible to get an appointment any time soon. The receptionist had referred her to another psychologist and she made an appointment with him for next week.

Naruto bounced his knee as he sat beside his wife. While longing to touch her, he knew that she wasn't ready for that. He cursed his lapse in judgement and wished he could turn back time but he had accepted his failures as a husband. He only hoped that they could salvage their marriage.

"Uzumaki?"

They perked up and the receptionist opened the office door. "Dr. Shi will see you now."

A blond man welcomed them and they sat down on the couch. Hinata kept her distance from Naruto much to his dismay. "What brings you to couples therapy?" Shi asked. Naruto, as always, took the lead and started talking. Hinata squirmed in her seat as Naruto began to talk about his affair. Shi's eyes leered at the petite woman. She was obviously upset at hearing about her husband's trysts but he took notice of her figure more than her feelings. "I didn't mean to hurt Hinata. I love her."

She winced and focused on her feet.

"What about you, Hinata? Do you still love Naruto?" Shi asked. He sat back as he began to write notes. His dark eyes watched as she shifted in her seat.

"I w-wouldn't be here if I d-didn't," she stuttered. Her old habit came back whenever she felt scrutinized and uncomfortable. Not only was Naruto looking at her but Dr. Shi had an intense stare as well.

He smirked. "Good. Then we have a starting point. Naruto, I want you to begin with voicing Hinata's flaws. What made you cheat on her?"

Startled, the couple stared at him in confusion. Naruto was ready to list his own flaws and wanted to pin point where his insecurities came from, not belittle his already wounded wife. "There's nothing wrong with her. I'm the one at fault."

"Ah but why did you seek solace in another?" Shi pressed. "Naruto, you must be honest with her and yourself. Once everything is out in the open, we can move to repairing the broken trust."

"But-"

"J-just do it."

Naruto looked at Hinata in shock. "Okay...I guess she's too nice?" Shi subtly rolled his eyes. "Um, I mean she can be too quiet. She won't voice out what she really wants." Hinata bit the inside of her cheek as Naruto began to list some of her less than stellar qualities. Some she was well aware of, while others she wasn't.

His voice was drowned out by the pounding in her ears and Hinata didn't know they were talking to her until Naruto touched her shoulder. Jerking back, she wiped her tears. "Oh god, Hinata. I'm sorry, I didn't mean-"

"Naruto, why don't you wait outside? I have a feeling like Hinata needs some individual counseling. We'll talk about what you said was wrong with her-"

"That's not what I meant!"

"And when she's ready for you to join, we'll bring you in," Shi continued. Defeated, he left them alone. Shi locked the door behind him and turned his eyes on Hinata. "It hurt, didn't it?"

She sniffed and her shoulders shook with sobs. Hinata felt him sit next to her. "Naruto said some valid things." She turned her head away from him. "You need to tell people what you want. Stop hiding your feelings. What do you want?" he asked.

"I w-want him to suffer," she admitted much to her surprise. "I want him to p-pay for hurting me."

Shi smirked. 'Nearly there', he thought. Most of his clients don't realize how fractured their marriages are until one cheats. Sometimes they work things out and other times they go their separate ways. He never promised a happy ending, just opened their eyes to a new perspective.

"And how would you like to make him suffer?" he inquired with smile. Shi watched in amusement as her eyebrows furrowed. Hinata gasped when she felt his hand on her bare knee. "May I speak frankly? I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. I think you still have a lot to discover about yourself." He removed his hand yet his touch lingered on her skin. "You might be holding back for other's sake and forgetting about yourself. I know you might feel overwhelmed right now so I'll have my secretary pencil you in for a session on Tuesday."

"B-but Naruto works-"

"That's fine," he gave her a toothy smile. "You may bring him along if you wish but I think this will benefit you more than him."

"Okay," she whispered. When he opened the door, he told Naruto about their plan, failing to mention he was welcomed to attend on Tuesday, something Hinata picked up on. Naruto glanced over at Hinata and gave her a reassuring smile.

They entered the elevator in silence. "I'm sorry about what I said. He just kept pestering me. I can ask for the day off to join you if you want."

"It's fine." Hinata kept thinking back to Dr. Shi. His presence was commanding and she felt her heart race remembering his hand on her skin. 'He was probably just trying to comfort me', she thought. She scolded herself for thinking there was more to his actions.

x-x

Her private session was nothing like she expected and growing stranger by the minute. His questions started predictable enough. Had she had a happy childhood? It was happy enough, aside from her mother's death and father's contempt. How did she feel about her father? She felt unworthy to carry his name. Had she ever resented her sister? Hanabi wasn't to blame for her own failures.

He strung one question after another as if he were threading beads. The calming environment helped further his interrogation and the words left her lips without hesitation. Every answer seemed to solidify the way she viewed herself. But at every attempt to sound less pathetic than she felt, he asked another question which only helped to demoralize her.

Hinata wanted to tell him that Naruto had it all wrong; she was neither passive nor indifferent. She felt passion and desires. She had dreams of her own, even if she put them aside for his. A spiteful part of her wanted to shock someone with her fantasies, do something forbidden.

"Hinata?"

She blushed and plucked an imaginary piece of lint off her skirt. "I'm s-sorry. W-what were you saying?" She cursed her stutter. Her thoughts and actions never reflected each other. How could she think such things if she still fought her stutter whenever nervous?

Shi leaned back in his chair. "What were you thinking?" He was looking intensely at her. It thrilled and unnerved her.

"N-nothing," she smiled shyly.

He stared at her for a few seconds before looking down at his notepad. "I need to know," he said, his low voice, "how often you touch yourself."

She inhaled sharply and sat up on the sofa. "W-what does that have to with anything?"

"I'm simply trying to figure out how you feel about yourself," Shi responded calmly. "You don't have to answer right now. I realize you still have trouble with expressing your feelings. Hinata, it's OK. Take a deep breath and try and remember why you are here. It's going to get fairly rough as you explore why your marriage is where it's at right now. Next question; did you ever give him oral sex?"

"Dr. Shi, I d-don't feel r-right telling you this. T-these are p-personal details of our sex life and-"

Shi cleared his throat. "Hinata, I'm a therapist. This is what I do. In order to help you build I need to see what sort of foundations I am working with. It's all confidential, if you're worried about that. I won't tell Naruto anything that is said or happens here unless you want me to."

"OK… I did. Do that with him, I mean." She said with much difficulty. Hinata couldn't bring herself to say the actual words. She shook her head when he asked if she ever enjoyed it. "N-not really. I never got any real pleasure from it. And Naruto was always too tired to do anything for me afterwards. That was usually it."

Trying to hide his grin, he pretended to write notes. "You're doing great, Hinata. Now, did he ever give you oral sex?"

She hesitated. "He has a few times." Her voice began to trail off and he knew it wasn't something to brag about.

"And how often do you touch yourself?" he repeated.

"Every day," Hinata answered. Her growing blush began to travel down her chest but she wanted to silence any sense of shame. She fixed her gaze on the rug at her feet.

Shi's pen remained motionless in his hand. "Every day," he repeated. He felt his pants begin to tighten. "How do you feel when you touch yourself? Do you enjoy it?" His expression stoic but his mind was filled with images of her spread on her bed, pleasuring herself without caring who saw.

"I do."

He uncrossed and crossed his legs. "And what about afterwards? Do you feel anything?"

Hinata bit her lip. "Loneliness." Sadness filled her eyes.

"Thanks for your honesty, Hinata. I know it's not easy. We'll move on to more recent times. What is your love life like more recently? That is to say, how long has it been since you've been intimate with your husband?" Shi asked.

"It's been a while. I think since he started seeing her," her voice sounded bitter and Hinata dug her nails into her palms. "I haven't let him touch me. I feel sick." She didn't realize she had lost her stutter.

"Do you ever think of doing the same? Do you ever want to forget about him and satisfy your own needs?" Dr. Shi stared at her until she dropped her gaze to the floor again. The air had grown a bit thick; it seemed to buzz around her ears. "Do you?"

His voice was flat and strangely authoritarian. Hinata cleared her throat and furrowed her brows. She bit her lip. If she somehow managed to choke out the words, would he see her differently? Would he judge her for her desire to make her husband pay or worse yet, would he pity her?

"Hinata," he rumbled. "Tell me."

She looked at him and blinked. His entire demeanor had changed; his presence felt suddenly imposing, his gaze cool and demanding.

"I—I want..." she said slightly above a whisper. "I want to make him feel like he's the worthless one." She shut her eyes tightly, not wanting to see his reaction to her harsh words. "I want to be the selfish one and...And hurt him."

The silence was suffocating and she slowly opened her eyes. Much to her shock, Dr. Shi looked as if he would spring from his chair at any moment, and it was impossible to say what would happen at that point if he did. Her heart leapt up into her throat.

However instead of pouncing on her, Shi stood up and walked towards her in a controlled manner. He grabbed her arm and forced her to stand in front of him. "And how do you want to make him pay? How do you want to fill your desires?" He asked in a low voice. "Tell me."

Her mind screamed the answer but her lips would not form the words. Her heart was pounding hard.

"Tell me."

Hinata willed herself to look up at him. He loomed over her and she slowly wrapped her arms around his shoulders. Before she could take another breath, his lips were on hers. She refused to take off any clothing as he ravaged her mouth, her hands fighting against his, pulling her shirt down. He groaned as she rubbed against him and cupped her ass, giving them a squeeze.

Hinata shook her head. "I c-can't." Yet her grinding continued much to his annoyance. Shi had been elated when she straddled him but it was torturous for him not to take it any further. He lifted her off of him and sat back in his own chair. "What-?"

"Touch yourself," he commanded. He needed to be back in control. "Show me how you pleasure yourself."

With her skirt hiked up around her waist and one knee hooked over an armrest, Hinata closed her eyes. Shi watched her hand trail lewdly between her spread thighs. At first it was mortifying, but she felt the sensations begin to work and she bit her lip. The fact that she had made out with someone who was not her husband was enough to get started but knowing that Shi was watching her do something so perverse kept her going.

"Keep those legs spread," Shi ordered. He kneeled close to her, watching lustfully as she became lost in her actions. He decided that she could use some help and closed the distance between them.

Hinata arched her back, quickly clasping her dirty hand over her mouth to quiet her moans. With calculated caresses and tasting, he was driving her wild; doing so with such expertise that it put Naruto's skills to shame. Grasping his blond hair in her hand, she bit back a moan as she felt the initial waves of her orgasm hit her.

After drawing out her pleasure, Shi wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and grinned lecherously. Here spread out in front of him was a ripe and stunning woman, someone who was looking for an escape from her crappy life. And he'd gladly help her out. He could easily read people and knew the moment he laid his eyes on her; she could easily be manipulated into giving in to her carnal desires. Shi wanted to keep her coming back and merely gave her a taste of what he offered.

"It seems like our session is about to end," he said drawing her out of her stupor. "Make sure you schedule your next private appointment later this week." Hinata nodded dumbly and weakly sat up, feeling the pooling wetness from her arousal underneath her. Shi gently kissed her lips before motioning her to fix her appearance.

Hinata's journey from his office to her home was hazy and she didn't realize how late it was until she saw that Naruto had arrived before her. "Oh thank god, I thought something happened to you!" He moved to hug her but lingered back. "I called your phone, why didn't you answer?"

"I didn't hear it," she quickly walked past him, hoping he wouldn't pick up on her scent.

"Well it's fine. I made dinner for us-"

She lingered at her bedroom's entrance. "I'm not hungry. I think I'll go to bed early." Naruto's smile fell when she closed the door behind her. He hoped that the therapy sessions would fix their marriage soon. He longed to have her in his arms and smiling at him like he wasn't a total screw up. Naruto didn't deserve her but he wouldn't give her up.

Hinata kicked off her shoes and stripped naked. She crawled into bed and squeezed her legs together. Shi had ordered her with such authority that she felt compelled to comply. There was no hesitation to pleasure herself and she wondered what he would want her to do next. Hinata imagined him ordering her to get on her knees and take him in her mouth. Bringing a hand down to her arching center, she desperately sought the same pleasure that his skilled tongue brought her. The orgasm she achieved was nowhere near that leg trembling session but it was enough for now.

x-x

The next couple of days, Shi consumed her thoughts. Yes it was thrilling to get back at Naruto but could she continue to see this man? How low was she willing to stoop in order to feel satisfied that he paid for his mistake? Naruto tried to be as accommodating and understanding about her need to remain distant but still gave her that beautiful smile which she fell in love with.

Briefly forgetting about the weight of his betrayal, Hinata began to cry in the shower. She was no longer one to judge after what she did. They had both become different people and done some pretty horrible things to each other. Making up her mind, she cancelled her appointment with Dr. Shi. This would be her secret and she promised to try to work things out with Naruto without the need for counseling. After all, she had sullied their marriage as well.

The plan went down the drain when she decided to surprise Naruto with lunch at his work. As she neared his office, she heard him arguing with someone on the phone. "You know I can't do that!...You know what I don't care, Hinata is finally coming around and if you ruin this for...Well whose fault is that!? Just get rid of it. I'll drive you over and we'll be done." Hinata grasped her purse as she tried to control her breathing. "Sakura, get it together. You knew what this was...Fine I'll see you tonight and we'll talk. Bye."

Hurrying out of the building, Hinata took a taxi straight to Dr. Shi's practice. She was going to do this; she was minutes away from being back in his arms. Hinata brought out her compact and wished she had put more of an effort to look appealing. Her stomach became a riot of butterflies during the ride over. Unfortunately, the receptionist informed her of his booked schedule and her shoulders slumped in disappointment. "Would you like to set something up for next week?"

"Um I don't know," she strained out. Any bravado she had was melting away, giving room for doubt and hesitation. "I'll call later," Hinata lied. Shi opened his door as Hinata was walking out and before he could call out, she disappeared from his sight.

Hinata scoffed at Naruto's excuse for coming late and deleted his message. She wanted to be done with him and leave but since she was cut off and gave up everything to be with Naruto, she was stuck. A divorce wouldn't be feasible until she got on her feet, made enough money to support herself.

The next day as she was ignoring Naruto's looks from across the dining table, Hinata began to formulate a plan. She needed to get a job, save money and move out. Simple enough, she just had to bide her time. "I was thinking we could go on a trip for our anniversary," Naruto said breaking the thick silence. "Remember when we went to the springs for our honeymoon-"

"Have you stopped talking to Sakura?" She asked bluntly. "When was the last time you saw her?"

"Weeks," he insisted. "I swear. I cut her out of my life entirely."

Forming a fist under the table, she smiled at him. "That's good to know. You know I was thinking that I should get a job, do something productive."

His face relaxed. "That's great! Did Dr. Shi suggest that? You know, I haven't seen him since our first session. I thought it was a couple's thing but we haven't done anything."

"We agreed that I should work on my own insecurities and when I feel confident enough, you can join us," she lied easily. Hinata continued to go on and on about how wonderful therapy was, making Naruto slightly frown at how much she praised the other man. "He's really helpful and kind. I feel good after I see him and it doesn't hurt that he's handsome."

"Yeah…" he tried to chuckle. "Maybe I can join you guys soon and see for myself how great he is."

She laughed in response. "Yeah, maybe." Picturing Naruto watching them fuck brought her brief enjoyment. She still hadn't decided if she would see Shi again, but watching Naruto become uneasy did urge her to reschedule that appointment. Shi's hunger for her, his passion, was the only thing that brought her any sense of feeling in these dark days.

Hinata left to him to eat alone and he began to pick at his food. He liked how she was becoming more confident but something didn't sit well with him. Naruto wasn't oblivious as many thought, he saw the way Dr. Shi had glanced at his wife. But Hinata being the most naive and trusting woman he knew probably didn't notice. 'Handsome?' His frown deepened at her description.

'Stop it. Dr. Shi is a professional. He's giving her good advice. Hinata seems better, maybe if I give him a chance he can help me too. I'm just trying to justify lying to her!' Naruto thought to himself.

He felt awful for lying to her again but he thought it was for the best in the long run. The moment Sakura had informed him she was pregnant, he wanted to die. After persuading her that this was not something either one of them could manage, they set up an appointment to terminate it. Naruto always wanted a family but he pictured Hinata being the mother of his children. Anything less would be unacceptable.

Everyone's kind of awful, aren't they? So I'm gonna pair her up with different guys and she might end up with someone or not.