Title: Numb

Author: Arldetta

Disclaimer: Don't own anything supernatural, cept maybe some dragon and gargoyle statues. And I bought some Linkin Park cd's too.

Summary: Dean's thoughts pre and during season 1 regarding his father. Maybe some hints of Season 2, also.

Author's note: Real quick, thought I would challenge myself and write a series of drabbles based off the lyrics of Linkin Park songs. A 100 word drabble for each line in the song. Lastly, the song lyrics are interspersed in the drabble and shown in italics. If this works out, I am hoping to continue through the series with a few more songs. Feedback would be great, otherwise just enjoy! Thanks for reading!

- S – P – N – S – P – N –

(tired)

I have looked up to you my whole life. Since I can remember, all I ever wanted to be was you.

You saw that and took it. You made me your clone.

Drilled and drilled into my head everything you thought I should be. A hunter. Strong. Fearless. Responsible. A protector of the innocent. Of Family.

And I was until it all fell apart. I wasn't strong enough to hold us together. And I lost everything. A brother. A father. Myself.

And still you expected everything from me.

But I'm tired of being what you want me to be, Dad.

- S – P – N – S – P – N –

And there you have it. The first installment. I have more written and hope to post 1 a day until the song is finished. Wish me luck! Thanks again.

~Ari :D