Deal With It. - By Reiko

He will never praise your art.
He will never praise you.
He will never accpet you as a possibility
You are only a person
You have feelings that will never be returned
You have no hope
You can try all you want but it will never happen
Your mad at this
You dont like the one your with
You dont like the chains that are on you
You will never be free no matter how much you want it
You are always going to be chained
You can not change that
You have no hope
You have no future
You long to be with him
Others do not approve
You do things for him that you wouldnt for someone else
You have no problem breaking the rules for him
You are in love
He will not love you
You cannot change your fate
You are destin to suffer
You hate your life
You want out
Your afraid to leave
At the same time you wont because youll lose him
You do not want to inflict pain on him
You do with out realizing it
When he goes you hurt
When your left with someone else your angry
When hes gone you want to be left alone
Others wont leave you alone
You feel that you can confide to no one
You feel that your on you own
Your unaware that he realizes
You are aware that he pushes away
He wants you to be with someone you dont want to be with
He gives off the appearnce that he wants you to be happy
He wont or refuses to realize you want him no one else
When you upset him you feel like you should punish yourself
When you screw up it feels ten times worse
You feel an ache when your only with him and the other one
You want him
You want out
You will never have him
You will never be let free
Deal with it.

Choose - By Reiko

I sit, I stand
I succeed, I plan
But whilst I stand in this decaying land,
And whilst I sit and listen to fit
A double sided blade sits at my neck
And as the crimson slips and wets
A whisper comes upon my ear
that if I fear and follow the path near that it will only lead to tear
And that his side of the blade is duller and less
That his path is simple and will caress
While in my other ear when tears are near and the seeping fear beings to get too near another whisper in my ear
"Nonsense, Nonsense, No need to cry" He mutters as I stand back
And my spine against the wall, flat
And the mutterance "My side is duller"
As my mind lies tormented
As I process everything i wonder am i demented as my feet are cemented to the ground
And i want to seep
To drown
To weep
To fall upon th is deathly blade and surely just to let myself fade
And as my chest burns, my heart aches and I am torn in two
Shivers run down my spine as I gaze upon you
My mind is blank my heart thunds, and the acid in my stomach chruns
And I look away, from the two sides and wipe the tears I cried
I go on neither side, I go down the middle and slowly oh so slow as the red glows and everything goes black

For eternity

Me - By Reiko

When I look upon thee
When you look upon me
What do you see
Maybe
You can see me truely
Or possibly
You who bend and break
For not having the flexability of a snake
Can never wake upon my true form
And though I could of sworn
You could of known
However
You shall never
Know me

A False Dream, A Fairy Tale - By Reiko

Depression, sharp as a nail
As i sit here and society fails
"Where is my light!?" i yell out
And i sit in the darkness and cry and pout
"Where is my light...?" i say one last time
"Not here" a voice says bitter as lime
I jump up a flurry of fear
Surges through me as the voice drawns near
And then again, a manic laugh in my ear
I jump up again scared
And the voice whispers "As if anyone cares"
I look around at first
"My light does!" as i burst
"Yeah right" THe voice snarrels
As i continue he inner snarrle
"I am the one here"
She says as i admit to my fears
"Face it you need me"
And as i fall and weep
In a wet sobing heap
A simple door opens and she fades
A lit up figure beckons me from the shade
I jump up and run to him
He catches me with mere whim
We travel together in the light
Im no longer scared with fright
We've met a few that travel among us
And never do we make a fuss
The voice shall not return
If she does she will burn
For im with my light you see
And this is
To be
The end

Puppet Master - By Reiko

In the graveyard as spirits rise
We all look down at our captive prize
She screams and shouts saying we lie
Saying that she will be saved and not die
But we know the truth
We even have the proof
She has no chance
Now my little puppet. dance
After a while and she still lasts
And we, we the pupet masters are having a blast
So while on this ground of the dead
And the living sleep in their bed
We also tire after a bit
So we let her go the little shit
And as our toy ran and ran
But no worries we have a plan
So we let her go and leave to rest
And when we see her again we'll be at our best
And now we sleep

Come To Me - By Reiko

All I need is one more hit
And when I dont get it, I throw a fit,
Cant you see I need you more
Staying up late, until...4
Staring at my wall, about to break
Until I see you and realize my fears were fake
For I deeply lust for you
And when its fufilled I feel brand new
And now, I bid a due

However...

One last statement
Trust me its true,
Its true, its true,
He's just forgotten you.

Shame - By Reiko

Here I stand with iron chains
Cutting into my flesh causing pain
And I cant look in the mirror without seeing someone in shame
I cant stand anymore...
Like an iron weight
The emotion crawls through me, hissing at me like a snake
It drives me to the edge
And I often jump of the ledge
The pain's too great
And it seems that my heart is just bait
For those who're sadistic
Here you go, this pain is realistic
Who knows where this'll go
Who knows, maybe this is all just a show
Those who see and aplaud are just wicked...
dont know what to do,
I'll figure out after a while though
Just...give me a while...I cant put on this show anymore
And now I count from 3 to 1
And im going to dissappear
But the show has only begun

Life - By Reiko

Like an elaborate game of chess

Life must end in death

And so he takes my king

Untitled - By Reiko

Never shall he know
Never shall it show
A love best kept hidden.
To do what's in mind
To let the inner most me shine
T'would truely be a crime
Fear the most horrible pain
When you have so possible much to gain
His knowledge already exceeds
No matter how hard I try he's still in the lead
Getting past my shield
Running straight through as if an open field
What shall the future hold?
Will I be warm or will I be cold?
I'm scared
Damn the fear, but he's always cared...

Me - By Reiko

Its
Top not Bottom
Arm not Wrist
Horizontal not Vertical
Scratch not Cut
Til the blood drops
Pencil not Razor
Spite not Desire
Numb not Pain
Pain not Pleasure
Pleasure not Pain
Shouldn't of Broken Your Promise
Leave Me Alone...

Smile - By Reiko

Only you can smile your smile
And it might take a while
For it to come around
For now it's upside down

There might be some tears
But never you fear
i'm not scared, mad, happy, or down
I just frown

Sometimes it's hard to be happy
And yeah this might be a bit sappy
But sometimes I just don't care
About anything, might I dare

It's hard to smile
To not give up and go on for a while
I fear that one day I'll just stop
Just like a broken clock

That no one ever bothered to wind.