"She's loosing too much blood, we have to get her into surgery now." Said a voice from the darkness. I was dead, or at least I should be dead. I had finally agreed to let death take me like it should have done years ago in the accident. Roberts's words replayed over and over: the world of the dead won't give you up a second time. I knew he was right; this time there would be no coming back. I couldn't move, everything was black and empty, and yet I don't feel dead. I guess I don't exactly know what it feels like to be dead. From all the theories and stories I should be either be flying around in the sky with a pair of angel rings and a harp, or I should be down six ft. under with the fires of hell torturing me for what I have done. Considering my record I would say option two is where I would end up. I was never truly religious; I decided that I would believe that god exists as long as he lets me sleep in on Sundays. Lissa was always the religious one but then again so were most Moroi especially the royals. I did believe in ghosts after all I can see them; it was a shadow kissed side effect. Many years ago I died in a car accident along with Lissa's parents and brother André. Lissa brought me back to life and thanks to that we became bonded and I became shadow kissed. Maybe this is Lissa's doing. Maybe she is trying to heal me but it's taking longer because I have already died and come back to life. I hope she isn't healing me. When I ran in front of Lissa and took the bullet I had decided that I could accept this death. I had always said that if I died I wanted to die protecting Lissa. Seeing her and Dimitri made me realise that this is what I was meant to do. My job was to protect her and that's what I did. I saved her life. I hope she didn't heal me; the amount of spirit she would have had to use to bring me back is too much. If it didn't work the darkness would come and there would be no one to take it away from her. I don't want her to go backwards to the depression of become so crazy like Sonya that she turns her self-strigoi. So many people still need her; she would have made an amazing queen. She could still become queen. Announcing Jill as her sister meant she had another family member and could actually become queen, or even get to vote. The world needs Lissa. It doesn't need me.
"Were loosing her. " Shouted someone from the darkness.
"Quick charge up the defibrillator." I was starting to get worried. A defibrillator is a device that restarts a heart. Oh no they were trying to bring me back.
"One…two…three…clear!" I felt my body jolt.
"Again. One…two…three clear!" a burst of light shot through me.
It was so bright I had to squint my eyes. I put my hands up to shade my eyes from the bright sun. I found myself in a meadow. The long green grass that tickled my legs seemed to go on for miles. The flowers perfume was so strong that it would make any Moroi feel sick. The colours were so vibrant that it gave my tanned skin almost seem to glow. Was this heaven? I looked behind me, no wings. Looking down I saw I was wearing a simple maroon skaters dress, on my wrist was Lissa's chotki and hanging around my neck was my Nazar. I smiled knowing that even in the after life I had my protection with me. Far off, in the distance I saw someone staring at me. Instantly my defences were up waiting for them, but they just stood there staring at me. After a couple of seconds they turned away and started walking off. I was confused, but I had to know who they were and where I was. I called out to them. But they just kept walking. Realising that they weren't going to turn around any time soon I started to follow them. They were still pretty fast so I started picking up speed until I was running at full speed. I got closer until I was right on their trail. As I got closer I began to notice things that were very familiar to me. The messy brown hair, the designer clothes, the smell of his cologne was so familiar to me.
"Adrian?" I whispered to my self. "Adrian!" I shouted. This time he stopped. I ran up next to him and saw him as clear as daylight. Adrian was here.
"Well little dhampir I was wondering how long it would take you" he said with his usual smirk.
"Adrian how is you here? You're alive." I questioned.
"So are you," he answered simply.
"What?" I asked in shock, "no, I died, I was shot. Wait please tell me you didn't heal me. Wait, is this a spirit dream?"
"Shh, " he started putting a finger to my lips, "all will be answered shortly but right now, we have to go." He said and started walking again. I followed a couple of steps behind before grabbing his arm stopping him.
"Go?" I questioned, "Go where? "
"You have another visitor." And with that he smiled and walked a couple of steps before disappearing into something. I hesitated for a couple of seconds before shaking my head.
"Don't hesitate." I said repeating Dimitri's first lesson. And crossed over the border. While crossing so many questions flashed through my mind. Am I dead? Am I alive? Where will this take me? How is Adrian with me? What is going to happen? Am I trapped? Is Lissa ok? Was Adrian really here? And who is my Visitor? It's all waiting on the other side.