Secret Kisses by blackdragonflower
Summary: Matt and Mello, odd two. Both share a unique affection for the other. One they will never express. Secret kisses, secret love. MattxMello
Characters belong to Death Note by Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata
A/N: Matt's POV (after dashes is Mello's POV)
I can't help but stare at him as he sleeps. My heart jolts, like it always does when I see him. He doesn't know, and he never will. I blink and I'm there by his bedside. I can hear his quiet breaths now, even and gentle. I reach out to touch his face but my hand stops, hovers above the point of contact. I look away as I pull my hand back ashamed of myself. It could never be.
Slowly, my gaze returns to his face without my consent. It feels a little wierd just standing here, watching him sleep. I trace all the outlines of his face. I especially trace over his lips with my eyes. What could it hurt? It's just,
one...
little...
kiss.
And before I can stop myself, I'm down on my knee and leaning towards those lips. Part of me yells, screams not to, then there's the other part, it's much quieter, but all the more persuasive. It coaxes me towards him. I close my eyes and just decide to get it over with. I lurch forward and press my lips against his, my best friend's, the person I want to be with, Mihael. It's like a dream come true, those few seconds before I, blushing furiously, pulled away.
His lips are tender just like I imagined them. I find myself wishing he was awake, and that he would return the physical action. My heart is beating nonstop, the pulsing nowhere near a constant rythym. I can still feel the hot blood pooled in my cheeks. I wish he knew how I felt. "Mihael... I love you..." Quietly I sneak from the room and close the door behind me. I don't know what might happen if I stay there any longer.
I fall back onto the couch, sinking into the coushins. I pick up the xbox controller and begin another round of all out war on my opponents. My skill level, the hardest it gets. My life, next to nothing, we'll see how far I get. I become consumed by the screen, the beeps, the vibration of the controller. It all lulls me into a sense of ease, and like many times before I fall asleep in front of the consle.
Mello's POV
Could it be just a dream? I run a hand through my hair as I sit up in bed, feet on the floor. It all felt so real... but I don't have the time for this. I need to focus on the Kira case. I stand and leave my room to find an amusing looking Matt crashed on the sofa. He looks awfully adorable with his red hair scattered in his eyes and the videogame controller hanging in his grasp, it's life by a thread. He's not awake... so, why not?
I lean over the back of the couch and without a thought kiss his forehead whispering, "I love you Mail."
His lips turn up into a childish smug grin. I roll my eyes and go into the kitchen to scavenge up something to further wake me up. In the doorframe I stop, and look over my shoulder at him. The videogame controller falls from his hand and lands with a crash on the hardwood floor. He springs up, as if a trumpet has just been blasted in his ear. He scratches his head and yawns. I smile at him holding in a chuckle, but he hasn't noticed me standing here. Finally he turns his head and finds me.
"Hey Mells. Morning." He grins bright and cheery. How the hell does he do it this early in the morning?
"Hey." I mumble still tired.
And my secret affection for him will never be reveiled. He'll never know, and that's the way I'm going to keep it.
'He'll never find out about the secret kisses.'
Fin