John Winchester's journal
November 15th 1983
Mary, I miss you so much and I don't know what I'll do now that you're not here with me. Dean cries himself to sleep every night. And right when he has fallen asleep he'll call out your name. Even though it's so clear at night that he misses you, he has a straight face when he comes to breakfast. Since that horrible night, Dean hasn't really left Sam's side. I promise you Mary, I'll find that thing that killed you.
December 13th 1983
To be honest, I'm surprised these kids are still alive. I'm not able to take care of them on my own; I need you Mary, now more than ever. Dean keeps asking where you are and what happened to you and I don't know what to tell him. Or what I should tell Sam when he gets older.
December 17th 1983
I went to Missouri Moseley, a psychic, today hoping she would tell me what killed Mary. She didn't know what it was, except that it was real evil. I haven't given up hope though, I will keep searching for this ting even if it's the last thing I'll ever do.
December 20th 1983
Today me and the boys left Lawrence and went to a relative, Annie. I was hoping that she'd take care of Dean and Sam while I was out hunting. I know you wouldn't agree with me, Mary, especially since you were so good with the kids. But I don't think I have another choice, and Annie can probably take care of them way better than I would anyways.
January 7th 1984
What was supposed to be a few days was two weeks, but I am getting closer to finding out what killed you. When I came back to Annie's house Dean was so happy, the happiest he'd been in months, and it seemed to make Annie happy as well. Dean gave me the longest hug and told me all about what he'd been doing the last few days.
January 24th 1984
We've been celebrating Dean all day at Annie's house. I came back yesterday from another hunting trip so that Dean would have at least one parent there on his birthday. Annie talked to me after we put the boys to bed, as I figured she would since the boys have been here for over a month. After a long discussion we agreed that maybe it'd be good if they stayed here until we can find something on our own. As soon as I've killed that thing we'll be back to living normal lives.
