Title: Sealed With Your Last Breath.

Maura finds a letter from Jane, and struggles to cope with events leading from it.

By: Hotbrody

Rating: R

Disclaimer: Jane Rizzoli and Maura Isles do not belong to me. No infringement intended and no profit will be made from their use.

Day 1.

"Hold on Jane, please. You just.. have to hold on. Just hold on..for me."

Her pleas were coming in gasps. Her hands were grasping at the body she had pulled into her arms. Desperately wanting to stop this horrible red spilling from her precious body. So much red. So much blood. Nobody could survive this amount of blood loss. But it wasn't as bad as it could have been.

Her mind was quickly calculating the height and weight of Jane, and the amount of time she would likely have. It was all she knew how to do. All she could do to stop her from breaking down. She couldn't break down, she had to be strong. Jane needed her. Jane had asked for her.

It had been a cry for help. It must have been. Jane couldn't have really wanted to... No. Stop thinking about this, Maura. Think with you head. Not your heart, it was never a problem before..

Maura's hand pressed down harder on the wound, as Jane coughed, blood splashed onto her fair skin and she tried to stem the flow of blood. Glancing down, she realized that the letter she had received was still clutched in her other hand.

Dear Maura,

I can't believe that this is me writing this. I never thought I could be this person.

I've been suffering, Maura. Everyday I walk through life in a haze, and I've gotten so good at hiding it that no one sees it anymore. I tried to be around you, and Korsak and Frost as much as I could, try to force myself to have fun, you know? But it wouldn't work, and I'd just end up at home again, alone and downing bottle after bottle of beer. Hoyt's mark is too deep.

The third time was a charm. I really thought that I had won. That killing him meant this would all be over. But this time.. He really got inside me. And it was because of you.

You see, I realized something that day, Maura. The second that blade touched your throat. Hoyt only went after couples. He forces the husband to watch as he kills the love of his life. How could he realize it before me?

I know you'll hate me for telling you this , and for doing this. But I need you to know.

I love you, Maura.

And maybe if I'd realized this before him, then I could have protected you. He should never had laid a finger on you. If I hand't been so far up my own ass, I would have seen what was right in front of me. I love you so much, and I'm protecting you by making sure you don't come to harm just by knowing me again. I don't expect forgiveness. I don't deserve it.

I know I'm a coward.

Tell Ma... I'm sorry.

I always love you.

Jane.

Maura let the tears fall freely as she recalled the words.

"I'm not accepting this, Jane." She shook her head, "You do not get to do this."

Distant sirens broke the quiet of the night,

"If you just hold on for one more second, please Jane. Just hold on..for me."