when the dark passenger leaves
The words echoed in her head over and over again. Her eyes filled with tears.
Her legs started shaking she barely could stand on them.
Her heart had broken into a million pieces and no one could ever pick the piece up and glue them back together. She couldn't believe what he just had said. I'm A, I'm A. She closed her eyes and gulped. She opened them and Spencer was still standing in the very room with him. He still had said the words that probably ruined her word. Ruined was such an understatement. How can you even describe the feeling when someone betrays you? When you finally have the strength to love someone more than anything on the world and with one sentence they shatter your world.
" Spencer, " he said and took a step towards her. He knew it was a wrong move when she stepped back and put her hands in front of her.
" Get away from me! " she said. Her voice wasn't steady.
" Don't ever dare to get close to me, go away! " She yelled this time.
Spencer couldn't control her tears anymore. They started falling down her cheek on the white rug,
" How could you? " She sobbed. She let herself fall down on her knees.
He wanted to put his arm around her; he wanted to feel her warmth like he did when they made love to each there for the first time. But he couldn't change what he had done. Even if he regretted it more than anything.
Spencer put her hands in front of her face and used all her strength to get up.
" Was this a game to you? Every time I kissed you? The times when I hugged you? The one time when we were upstairs in MY BED? Everything you did, you said. Was it all a lie just to get back at me? You're A. You have tortured me, my friends. And when I needed someone I always came to you, because you made me feel safe. But all along you were the one that was doing that to us. Why didn't you just kill me from the start, then all of it would be over. " She shook her head widely.
" everything is a lie, " she whispered. " you're a lie! " She yelled. She stepped forward looked him right in the bright blue eyes, which were her weakness. And then she slapped him right across the face. She started hitting him on his chest while she cried her eyes out.
" Spence, Spencer " he said and pulled her close. He put his arms around her tiny body. Just when she was about to give in she pulled back.
" I told you to not let me go, I asked you to never let me go but you had done that already a long time ago hadn't you? Go away; get away from my friends and me. Leave Rosewood and don't look back. You aren't where you're supposed to be. I don't want to see you ever again. I even don't want to hear your voice. "
She took a deep breath. " why- Why? Why did you do this to me? Why you? " She asked. The way she used her voice broke his heart into more pieces, he didn't think that was possible. Instead of trying to convince her that he fell for her along the way he just said one simple thing. " I'm sorry "
Revenge is what makes you blind. Revenge is a dark passenger that gets into your soul and wants to destroy the ones that made you once miserable. The dark passenger takes over your soul and does whatever it takes to accomplish that. Revenge is a confession of pain. The dark passenger is something that is willing to do things you actually never would. Everything is about getting back at what the other has done. Revenge is like digging two graves, one for your enemy and for you. With Revenge you never end up pleased. Once you begin you can't go back, at least that's what Toby thought. Revenge doesn't fix anything, it makes it worse. And at last when the dark passenger leaves you are left with nothing.
Let me know if you'd want me to continue, sorry if there are grammar mistakes. English isn't my first language.