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THOSE WHO ARE READING MY OTHER STORY 'GUIDE TO FALL IN LOVE' MIGHT ALREADY KNOW THAT I'M GOING OVER SOME OF MY STORIES AND REWRITING THEM, THE PLOT WON'T CHANGE, I'M ONLY CORRECTING GRAMMATICAL ERRORS AND MAKING THE CHAPTERS LONGER AND MORE INTERESTING.
The updates are going to be way tooooooo slow so please, please, PLEASE bear with me.
Rated M because of slight gore and probably lemons too, and because I'm paranoid!
And NOW!
Disclaimer: Twilight is not mine (unfortunately), I just own the plot and a few characters.
Summary: Memories. In a way, they made you who you are. When Bella first met Edward she had no idea what to think of him. She knew he was different and she wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing. She decided to keep him at arms length. Unfortunately for Bella, life for her doesn't seem easy anymore and she has to rebuild her life in Forks after she loses her memory. But the question is, does she really wants to know? And what does her life has anything to do with certain Quileute guys?
Pairing: Bella X Sam.
Warnings: AU, Non-Cannon, Edward bashing. More warning will be added in the future.
Published: 11-08-13
Updated: 05-30-15
[I think-I think when it's all over,
It just comes back in flashes, you know?
It's like a kaleidoscope of memories.
It just all comes back.
But he never does.
I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen.
It's not really anything he said, or anything he did.
It was the feeling that came along with it.
And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again.
But I don't know if I should.
I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright.
But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?
Maybe he knew that when he saw me.
I guess I just lost my balance.
I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.
It was losing me]
- I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift -
Prologue
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To Remember and to Forget
Normal PoV
Isabella "Bella" Swan remembers everything, yet remembers nothing. It was all rather too confusing but there is nothing she can do.
Her first memory of this dreary place she knew she had learned to call home was of when she first arrived and her father, Charlie Swan, went for her to the airport. He looked just like she remembered him.
She remembers meeting ―or re-meeting― Billy Black and his youngest child and only son Jacob Black.
She remembers Charlie telling her Jacob had repaired the red truck parked in the front of the house.
She remembers Charlie telling her the red truck was her 'welcome back' present. Bella loved it.
She remembers her first day of school at Forks High School. She remembers being scared and people everywhere looking at her with bright and greedy eyes like a shiny new toy. Bella hated it.
She remembers her day had been pretty good until lunch. Five beautiful figures had came into the cafeteria as if the owned the place, and judging by their looks and clothes, they most likely did. They were all dressed in very expensive clothes ―the little pixie and the blonde more than the others― and held themselves with a lot of pride and elegance it almost hurt to look at them.
It was unnatural.
Yet no one else seemed to notice it.
She remembers Jessica telling her who they were, and that it would be better for her to stay away from them.
And it was exactly what Bella was going to do.
She remembers that after lunch she had Biology, and Mike had offered to show her the way. He was a nice guy. But not Bella's type. He reminded her of a Golden Retriever. Loyal and cute, but nothing else.
She remembers that as soon as she stepped inside of that room, her eyes drifted lazily around the room, and rested on the strangers with unnatural beauty she had seen earlier.
She remembers Jessica saying his name was Edward Cullen.
She remembers him looking at her with so much hunger and desire. It was different from the normal lust she knew teenagers experienced from time to time due to hormones. His was... darker... twisted in a way Bella was sure she didn't wanted to be part of.
She remembers the teacher ordering her to seat next to him, and both of them inching away from each other as much as they could.
She remembers that as soon as the bell rang, he shot up from his seat and exited the room almost running. If he hadn't, Bella would have done it herself just so she could get away from him and his unnaturalness.
She remembers him being absent for a week or so before he decided to show his face to her again.
She remembers being terrified. Bella's legs had never trembled so much before in her life.
She remembers him trying to start a conversation with her. Why couldn't he see she didn't want to talk with him?
She remembers killing the conversation every time she could. How could no one notice just how uncomfortable and afraid she was?
She remembers looking into his eyes and-
And then all of Bella's memories became blurry.
She could faintly remember him saying to stay away.
Bella refusing.
A car.
Snow.
An accident.
The hospital.
A doctor with cold hands and weird eyes.
Her dad.
Her car.
The beach.
Friends.
Someone telling her a silly legends she couldn't even remember anymore.
Port Angeles.
A book.
Five guys surrounding her.
Italian food.
A silver Volvo.
Bella confronting someone in the forest.
Going to someone's house.
A group of people playing baseball while thunders in rumbled in the background.
Three nomads.
Red eyes.
Someone mentioning she stunk... And someone else saying she smelled delicious.
A fight with Charlie.
Bella traveling to Arizona with someone.
A call.
Her mother's voice.
A ballet studio.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.
And more Pain.
Fire in my veins.
Fire in my wrist.
Fire in the background.
A bite.
Then nothing.
A hospital bed.
A leg in a cast.
Someone sitting next to her.
Her mother.
Her father.
Forks.
Prom.
Red Spots.
A birthday.
A party.
Presents.
Plane tickets.
A small box.
Paper.
Cut.
Paper cut.
Blood.
Finger.
She made my finger bleed.
Bella cut her finger.
Black eyes.
Glasses breaking.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.
She was out of breath.
Her hand...
Her hand hurt.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.
Pain.
Going home.
A week of pain.
A week of confusion.
A week of missing someone.
A week or worry.
Unexpected calm.
School.
A gray coat.
A silver Volvo again.
Her red truck.
Someone asking to talk with her.
Leaving home.
Hiking.
Someone telling her hurtful things.
Was Bella not wanted?
Was she not loved?
Was everything a lie?
But what was a lie?
What was that wasn't a lie?
Where was she?
Who was that person?
Why it felt so cold?
And then-
Bella remembers... being in the forest. She didn't know why she was there. She knew she was just talking with someone, but... she don't know who... or why...
All Bella knew was that she had been hurt and that she had to get out of there, but...
Why did she felt so empty?
Please be patient I know you have a lot of questions, but all will be solved in due time.
I hope you like it aaaaaaaaaaaaand... don't forget to review XD
And sorry for the grammar mistakes.
Bye bye!
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