Chapter One
It felt like the rain was crying with me, attempting to wash some of the hurt away. They said she was gone instantly. Knowing that doesn't make it any less painful. I loved her; I still love her. She was irreplaceable and even more so dead.
Dead.
It doesn't even feel real. This morning she woke me up and got me breakfast, I was running a little late. I rushed out without saying I loved her. I didn't tell her that she was beautiful. I didn't even thank her.
Beautiful.
She could light up a room just by entering it. She was always there when you needed her. She always forgave me, even after all the stupid things I've done. She forgave me.
Hate.
My children hate me. It was my fault, it is my fault. I can only hope that eventually they will forgive me so I can forgive myself.
~Jacob Carter~