Okay so this actually wasn't meant for SWAC. It was actually meant for Evian from Superstar because although that movie is hilarious (sooo funny), I couldn't help but totally feeling angstified for Evian when she's pounding on Skye's door screaming "I did the fax maching for you!" But there's no place for S.S. so I'm like who could this be for... Tawni! Lol. Enjoy!
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She's pretty. Right? Isn't she? Of course she is. Because if she wasn't, she wouldn't have really anything else. So yes, she is in fact, beautiful. Because she needs to be. Because it's the only thing that's really hers and it's the only thing that'll get her anywhere in life and if she isn't pretty well then she doesn't know what she'd do.
But most of the time, she doesn't feel pretty. She doesn't feel pretty at all. She looks in the mirror and she wants to claw at it until she can find the pretty girl underneath all the fat and ugly and please tell her that she doesn't really look like that. But she does and she needs to fix it. Fix it, fix it, just fucking fix her. And more often than not she's visiting her only loyal friend.
She thinks that she should've pitched a bigger fit over the bathroom then her dressing room, considering that she spends so much more time there. She's kneeling in front of her savior, her altar and she's finally in control. Her nose and mascara are running and there's puke on her chin but she's finally in control and it'll finally make her beautiful beautiful beautiful and that's all that really matters, isn't it?
She knows it's wrong, but it doesn't stop her. Because she's pretty, right? And it makes her pretty and she'll do anything to keep the only thing that honestly belongs to her. But then she comes along, with her putrid brunette hair and sunshine smile and positive goddamn attitude. And she's not that pretty but she seems to glow from the inside in a way that outshines her sparkle. She wants to scream and rip her hair out but she'll settle for being a bitch.
She holds onto the fact that she's prettier, and that's what's really important. But before she knows it that fucking whore has everybody wrapped around her scrawny (jealous?) finger. Including him. And it breaks her, every single damn time.
Because she's pretty, she made sure of it, and she shouldn't break so easy.
(But she does, every single damn time.)