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Only in Dreams
By: Chibi Nataku
Prologue
A childhood long dead, mere memories in a shattered mind that is now so full of hate that to declare one self a demon was easier than facing the fact that once, so long ago he had a human side. He had tried to place blame early on, but soon, all the blame melted away into nothingness, just like he once had. Only in dreams did the past rear its brutal head, but the dreams had faded over the long years of murder, hate, and brutality. Yet, nothing he did could make him forget the past, forget the feeling of frality and helplessness, forget Mia....
In dreams she was always there, smiling and beckoning him to give chase like he had every time. She embodied a time when there was not hate, only hurt and misunderstanding. She was his will to live, the key to innocence. Yet, only in dreams did she now live and sometimes he hated those dreams, wanting to forget altogether what had once been his life. From his dreams, he would be happy and innocent, childishly carrying on despite the war.
Still, the end was always the same in his dreams, Mia lying in a pool of her own blood, reaching a desperate hand towards him, begging. In his hand, the bloodied sword that cut her down, a cold cruel smirk forever etched in his soft features. He felt the rain washing away the blood, the memory, the feeling of innocence. He had transcended his humanity, a thought that had once held a sort of sick comfort.
He remembered watching her take gulping breaths, bending to examine the wound more closely. He ran a finger through the wound, watching intently as she struggled against his touch as pain overtook her features. He had dropped his blade and grabbed her shoulders, forcing her to sit upright again, their gazes meeting only briefly before he placed a hand on each of her wet cheeks and snapped her neck brutally, letting the lifeless body fall back to the rain and blood soaked ground as it would.
For what seemed like hours, he stared into those dead green eyes, vaguely wondering if he should keep one for his travels. It was funny that he felt no remorse for his actions, but he knew that he felt cold and probably not because of the rain. To him, it felt like a part of himself dying with her, but the soft voice whispered a tune in his mind, comforting him with it presence. Perhaps it was right when it said that everyone in his life had abandoned him, his family, his village, and now Mia....
It was somewhat humorous to think that his best friend would be the first person that he ever killed. In the back of his mind, memories whispered and clawed their way to the surface of his mind, only to be forced back by the comforting voice. Mia was his first kill, but he was sure that she would not be his last.
He would make sure of that....
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I was a bit disappointed with the start of this fic, but I am hoping that it will get better as I write more. This is my first attempt at a fanfic so I thank everyone who took the time to read it.
Only in Dreams
By: Chibi Nataku
Prologue
A childhood long dead, mere memories in a shattered mind that is now so full of hate that to declare one self a demon was easier than facing the fact that once, so long ago he had a human side. He had tried to place blame early on, but soon, all the blame melted away into nothingness, just like he once had. Only in dreams did the past rear its brutal head, but the dreams had faded over the long years of murder, hate, and brutality. Yet, nothing he did could make him forget the past, forget the feeling of frality and helplessness, forget Mia....
In dreams she was always there, smiling and beckoning him to give chase like he had every time. She embodied a time when there was not hate, only hurt and misunderstanding. She was his will to live, the key to innocence. Yet, only in dreams did she now live and sometimes he hated those dreams, wanting to forget altogether what had once been his life. From his dreams, he would be happy and innocent, childishly carrying on despite the war.
Still, the end was always the same in his dreams, Mia lying in a pool of her own blood, reaching a desperate hand towards him, begging. In his hand, the bloodied sword that cut her down, a cold cruel smirk forever etched in his soft features. He felt the rain washing away the blood, the memory, the feeling of innocence. He had transcended his humanity, a thought that had once held a sort of sick comfort.
He remembered watching her take gulping breaths, bending to examine the wound more closely. He ran a finger through the wound, watching intently as she struggled against his touch as pain overtook her features. He had dropped his blade and grabbed her shoulders, forcing her to sit upright again, their gazes meeting only briefly before he placed a hand on each of her wet cheeks and snapped her neck brutally, letting the lifeless body fall back to the rain and blood soaked ground as it would.
For what seemed like hours, he stared into those dead green eyes, vaguely wondering if he should keep one for his travels. It was funny that he felt no remorse for his actions, but he knew that he felt cold and probably not because of the rain. To him, it felt like a part of himself dying with her, but the soft voice whispered a tune in his mind, comforting him with it presence. Perhaps it was right when it said that everyone in his life had abandoned him, his family, his village, and now Mia....
It was somewhat humorous to think that his best friend would be the first person that he ever killed. In the back of his mind, memories whispered and clawed their way to the surface of his mind, only to be forced back by the comforting voice. Mia was his first kill, but he was sure that she would not be his last.
He would make sure of that....
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I was a bit disappointed with the start of this fic, but I am hoping that it will get better as I write more. This is my first attempt at a fanfic so I thank everyone who took the time to read it.